❤
NEW LINK!

Hey all you suckers!

I'm ready to give out my blog link. cause i think it has already leaked out. Gorgery has already found out. i have no idea who else too. but this my new, almost old blog ((:


METAMORPHIAHEART.BLOGSPOT.COM

Just dont spam my tagboard.
thankyouverymuch!

❤Rumour Rant
if there's a rumour you wanna spread go ahead and spread.
spread yourself in the rumour. if you like the person than go ahead and say you like them and dont put words in my mouth. i dont know whats your fucking problem.. but seriously GROW UP! stop being so childish. rumours are nothing but friendship spoilers. so stop your dumbass lameshit childish acts. you wanna start your little nonsensical nuisense rubbish-like rumour, please spread bout yourself to gain your own popularity. dont talk bout me, i did nothing to you so shut the fuck up gay fuck!!






DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU MOTHERFUCKERS!

❤back to update
hellooooo!!
told you i'll be back to update in a while =.=

some asked me for my private blog.... XP
nooooooooooooo! cause i wanna bitch bout you
ya as if.

anyhoooooos..
i had alot going on.
for those who dont know,

Damian & Jas are officially back. =)
for a few long months. till june.
hopefully i can go up America to holiday there (:
i need a job. wahahah! "are you talking shit, laura?"
no i need job. "are you serious???" YES!
hahas. oh well.

K.G. Is having another party in March, i hope.
hmm. alot of DRINKS and FOOD i heard.
hmmmmyumyum!! hahahs. oh well im going to go.

see you ppl around.

❤
People who knows my private blog, PLEASE DO NOT LINK ME UP!

btw

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

❤MOVED
HELLO WORLD!

i have moved,
but will still update here once in awhile.
and if you really wanna know my blog,
ask if you really care.. and not for fun.







bye.

❤fuckface memories
fuckiety fuckiety fuckiety fuck fuck fuck!!

well im going to collect my hair extension tmr.
waiting for cny to come cause i wanna get my angbao
and go online to buy me demoned eye contacts so i can
roam clarke quay to scare babies there! I EAT KIDS!!
HAHAHAHAHAH! oh well, i also hope my clothes and all
will come soon! before cny if not OH TIAN!!! i needa spend
even more cash!!! URGH!! oh wells. FUCK SHIPPING
and DELIVERY! ITS TAKING SOOOOOOO GOD DAMN MUTHA
FUCKING LONG! FUCK!!

oh wells. i think i need love, i've been extremely down ever since
darren & i fought. so annoying, two bestfriends fighting over a dumbass
question and now we arent talking! this so fucking annoying and anyways
im about to say bye to the world after CNY, im going to MIA officially.
i need time to think! so if you git lotsa thing to say to me, better say it fast,
this time its my official mia time. no point calling police ((:


memoirs of fuckface
i'll post some pic tmr. or later tonight.

❤sick shit
click on the link below. its horrific!

its not porn, watch the bottom vid.
its 2 girls 1 cup and lotsa shit, i mean real shit!

http://www.thatsphucked.com/post/2007/11/2-girls-1-cup-video.aspx

❤URGH!!
JOE is taking me like a broooooooooo~~!!
wth??! im a girl cant you tell the diff??
LOL! im a girl, joe! for gods sake!

anyhoos.. this the dumbass convo, enjoy!


Joe Finch says:
OI u eaten yet?
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
yeah bread
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahas
Joe Finch says:
bread only
Joe Finch says:
u want me to feed u or not
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
er
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahs
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
no need la
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
later my dad kill me
Joe Finch says:
u kno when i talk to u , i dont feel like talking to a gerl
Joe Finch says:
good man
Joe Finch says:
u are jus like my buddy
Joe Finch says:
those crazy boys at my shop
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
IM NOT A BOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Joe Finch says:
i hate girly chats
Joe Finch says:
they keep asking me
Joe Finch says:
joe this , joe that
Joe Finch says:
joe wanna eat?
Joe Finch says:
joe how are u
Joe Finch says:
all so sian
Joe Finch says:
so fake and plastic
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
okay?
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
thats not me
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
i do and say whatever i want
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahas
Joe Finch says:
good
Joe Finch says:
so i can talk rough with u too sucker
Joe Finch says:
i no need to filter myself right
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
what the??
Joe Finch says:
hahhaa
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
yeah
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
just say or do whatever the fuck you want
Joe Finch says:
i told u liao, u are an imp in girls body
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahas
Joe Finch says:
of babe
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
LOL!
Joe Finch says:
suck my balls
Joe Finch says:
hahahaha
Joe Finch says:
wow
Joe Finch says:
finally just type that
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
you can wait long long man
Joe Finch says:
i always fear to type that in front of gerls
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
wait long long
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahas
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
why:?
Joe Finch says:
no
Joe Finch says:
i mean jus type
Joe Finch says:
not doing it
Joe Finch says:
fuck la
Joe Finch says:
with u i can get nasty man
Joe Finch says:
wahahahahhaa
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
okay?
Joe Finch says:
eat shit
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
now i regret what i just told you
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
ass hole
Joe Finch says:
come in my asshole sucker
Joe Finch says:
ok, i overdid it
Joe Finch says:
sorry
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
stop trashing me la
Joe Finch says:
lol
Joe Finch says:
well
Joe Finch says:
my sis onine too
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
cool?
Joe Finch says:
talkig to her now
Joe Finch says:
yea
Joe Finch says:
shes in perth
Joe Finch says:
i better change pic
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
how many sibs you have?
Joe Finch says:
later she thinks i siao
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
you are what?
Joe Finch says:
huh?
Joe Finch says:
what
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
you are siao
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
muhahahaas
Joe Finch says:
i am siao siao
Joe Finch says:
oi bro, what u doing later
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
im not BRO!
Joe Finch says:
arghhhhhh
Joe Finch says:
just get usd to it k
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:

Joe Finch says:
used
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:

fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
im waiting for my friend to reply me
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
she's taking forever
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
and forever is too long
Joe Finch says:
i reply in an instance
Joe Finch says:
lol
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
okay? but you;re not her
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
)):
Joe Finch says:
i not cokparing with er la
Joe Finch says:
her la
Joe Finch says:
i say, i always reply instainly
Joe Finch says:
u dont see me with boobs right
Joe Finch says:
hahahaha
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
not boobs but moobs
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahas
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
LOL~
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
you're gonna kill me, i know
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hhahas
Joe Finch says:
i bite u then u know



Joe Finch says:
ok la i going off now
Joe Finch says:
eyes too tired
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
you old uncle la
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahs
Joe Finch says:
just give me a shout if u bored
Joe Finch says:
i can talk cock with u
Joe Finch says:
bye
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
LOL!
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
but you cant hear me
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
bedok and tampines tooooo far
Joe Finch says:
u dumb ah
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahas
Joe Finch says:
hahaha
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
playing dumb
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahhas
Joe Finch says:
siao
Joe Finch says:
got hp mah
Joe Finch says:
u ah,,, so ting tong
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
i am ah
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
unsound in the mind
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahas
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
okay la
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
byebye

the rest, you dont have to know. PG13 and NC16 and M18 and R21
AH HAHAHAHA! its censored due to uncouth words. hahahs! and some
lame-ness in the convo.. hahahs. LOL! oh well but all is good. entertainment
is the key to laughter and laughter is a medication too. its all good baby its all good!!

anyways my weekends have rather been dull and colorfool. idk. must the weather
yeah blame it on the weather. and Mr darren bum jia wei is alil unsound in the mind
last night. he was talking crap on sms. drunk and high. LOL! now serve him right,
drink drink drink! headache now. WAHAHAHAHA!! LOL! im so mean, i know right??!
alright whatever. enough of my high moments... now its for even a HIGHER ONE!!!

i found my one year contact lense which has degree and cost 65 dollars
WHO WANNA SPONS ME?! nvm cny than i buy ((: im happy so very happy ((: hahas

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

❤2-4-6 fuckface
well hi dangs!
im gonna rant bout some fucking bitch nowwwww.. wow..
laura's gonna talk shit now.. okay i got my pay after 2 fucking
months and i still need lotsa cash =] money in this world not enough.
aint i right? you've gotta agree with me on this. cause its fuck shit.
btw joe added me on msn, he was so random, smsed me, and online
crapped like nut heads on bullshits.

okay so this one part of the convo

Me: you chi or mal
Joe: chi mix
me: mix with what? choco? soda powder? flour?
Joe: COFFEE
(randomly gave me a link)
joe: stare at the 4 dots and tell me what you see?
(after ahwile)
me: jesus!!
joe: funny right?
me: i think its cute leii..
me: got anymore wicked stuff?
joe: yes. my lile bro down south
me: =.=

im stopping here. so you get the idea now. hahas.
anyhooos, im going to start the shit now.

Dear BITCH,

i think i'm starting to hate you. yah i do. i regret spending money on you.
i regret spending my time on your lonely walks of dark times. i think you suck
right now to me. DO NOT TEST MY PATIENCE, IT HAS A FUCKING LIMIT.
i dont care what you brag to your friends bout me, say whatever fucking shit
bout me, but i care bout what you do infront of me, i'll just tell you this,
interrupt me one more time in my convos, stare at me and i swear, wherever
we are, who we're with, im just gonna embarass you so bad, watch your back bitch,
dont test my patience, i'll make you pay for your fuckface, and maybe you'll never
wanna come back out with us again, and im willing to screw you in public till you cry.
stop acting all so innocent and shit. i hate you and probably you're the first. cause
normally i dont hate, i just dislike. but the more i look at you, the more i wanna
slap you in the fucking face. i wanna bitch slap you senseless. you need a wake up
call, THE WORLD DOESNT REVOVLES AROUND YOU, BITCH~!! and i can say one
thing, stop trying to act cool. you're not. you're just a fucking wanna be, low life scum,
good for nothing, booty licking everyone to gain sympathy and your patheticness act.
FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF!! well i hope you know who you are. cause seriously
watch your back, i wont hesitate to make your life hell.

I gonna forgive you and i wanna FORGET you.
from now on, you're no more my friend, i wont share your joys neither
will you share mine, whoever is invited to my end year craps, you're not.
thats that. im not afraid to say out loud what shit you done, so bear in mind
not to say, "why never invite me?" fuck off okay? good bye bitch, goodbye
to bestdfriends forever memories! I HATE YOU, PEACE OUT~!

❤Pitch Black Past
i had a good time at the tattoo convention, passing by you, smiling and waving.
but i think its a moment of dumbfounded-ness in my brain =.= or maybe you're
just another emo boy i've always dreamt of. but no thanks, i think i have enough
emotional lovers, friends will stay good. ((; anyways thank god you dont know my
blog. so this post is going out to you as a secret one.
______________________________________



so anyways my pay should be in tmr.
just talked to mervyn to get the the demond eyed contacts with degree.
bout 60 dollars, very cheap cause its with degree, ((:

so if you want pm me okay, like those crazy colour contact lenses
but aiya i think i wont be bothered with you XP
and im going to get my bed head spray!! so i can do wonders to my dumbass hair!

i wanna be a star when i go for visitation during CNY, be it scene queen or emo chick!
imma get the fake eye lashes, really nice clothes, and some stomping cheapo boots
for that dumbass 3 days! but i'll still look good! so bitches, stay clear from me!

yeah, but seriously i need some place that sells cheap crap and still look good,
but no seriously, money is the problem. DAMMIT! so any fuxxing ways,

imma go off now, i hate blogging cause i got nothing much to blog! havent been
going out lately, everyone suck i mean what i just said! everyone's going home
early like there's some dumbass demon on the loose, =.= what the fucking shit?
yeah~~

❤12.19 am and its so true
Chinese reading for 2009 Ox year =]
Daydreaming all afternoon sounds heavenly to the Sheep. This creative, esoteric Sign needs plenty of time alone in which to feed its Muse. Sheep are generally most comfortable in their own minds (which other, more linear-thinking Signs may have trouble deciphering). This Sign makes a great craftsperson or artisan, or perhaps a teacher of New Age studies -- any occupation that allows its mind the full range of freedom. Sheep tend not to be very well-organized, precluding many more dry business endeavors. In fact, Sheep tend not to be very materialistic in general, finding plenty of riches in their own imagination. However, especially when in love, the Sheep can be quite a lavish gift-giver. (im not so sure bout this part....yet!)

Perhaps it's that artistic temperament that so often causes Sheep to feel insecure, but the result is that these high-strung creatures need to feel loved and admired lest they start worrying incessantly. For this reason, Sheep tend to have a hard time with romance; anyone who couples up with a Sheep must know, this Sign has a sensitive streak a mile wide and can be subject to bouts of anxiety over seemingly inconsequential things. Sheep need plenty of love, support and open reassurance from their lovers. If a relationship is marked by conflict, the Sheep will often pull away -- either physically or simply by retreating into the safe haven of its imagination.
If the romance is going well, however, Sheep won't hesitate to tell their partner what they need -- and they can be quite insistent about it!(<- not so sure bout this YET) This Sign will definitely return the favor, however; the Sheep has a luxurious side that delights in indulging a lover's every wish. Appearances are also important to the Sheep, which may explain why these folks can spend hours primping and posing.

Sheep would be well-served by learning to relax and let others run the show from time to time. Once they can be certain that their friends and lovers won't be gone when the Sheep returns from its daydreams, life will be a field of daisies.

this is sooooooooooooooo true la. i am everything of what it says.
red is sooooooooooooo true
blue is yet to happen leii....
ah fuck im starting to freak out!
is it good or bad? tag to convince me please!

❤The Tattoo Scene ((:

❤Let you go.
You know that little quiz thing where they ask questions and you had to take your answers from the song that's playing on your iTunes or whatever when it's on shuffle mode? I've always thought those were a bunch of crap and people only did them to show off their playlists.So now I'm gonna take some time to show off my playlist here.

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle. (iTunes!)

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS! (Yeah, yeah. I'm sure everyone cheated on this. Like if an uncool song or whatever comes up, you'll skip it until something awesome plays. Bunch of cheaters, you all are.)

4. Tag 10 or more friends
nikki
xian
pris
elsa (alyssa)
jaqq
jasper
all that reads my FUCKING blog!

you can copy from mervyn's blog.
((: the one that is being link ((:

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
I love the whole world - Discovery Channel (=.=)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Going Under - Evanesence

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
My immortal - Evanesence (again?)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Christmas Time - Backstreet Boys (wth?????)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Shake It - Metrostation (shake what???!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Victims of Love - Good Charlotte ( apparently IM NOT!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Im In Love With A Stripper - T-Pain ( er thatsss sooo wrong!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Long Way 2 Go - Cassie

WHAT IS 2+2?
Live Your Life - TI ft. Rihanna (living arent i?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Stranger - Hilary Duff (hahahahha! sorry girls!!!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Something Stupid - Robbie Williams & Nicole Kidman

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Someday I will Understand - Britney Spears (er.. not really)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Play The Future - Urbatronic Chopsticks (oooh cool!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Bust It Baby - Neyo ft. Plies

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Afterlife - A7x (FUCK IM NOT DEAD!)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Walk Away - Paula Deanda (its to all my ex.. XP)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Dancing Dead - A7x ( wow! nice one!)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
I Love To Say Fuck - Murderdolls ( ehhh? quite true >.<)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
My Curse - Killswitch Engage (OOPS!)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Cute Without The E - Taking Back Sunday (hmm. im not like her)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Shakespeare In Love - Layla Kaylif (hope so)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Damaged - Danity Kane (hmm yeahhhh!)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Always Be My Baby - David Cook (aww i love **you.)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Wherever You Will Go - The Call

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Here Without You - 3 Doors Down (apparently no...)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Sleepless Night - Faber drive (no im not scared)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
When You Look Me In The Eyes - Jonas Brothers (aww.... everyone likes me)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Realize - Collbie Caillat (yeah..thats one)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Fighter - Christina Aguilera

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Let You Go - Ashlee Parker Angel (HAHA!)

❤Tattoo Convention, WHOSE GOING?? I AM!!

❤hilarious languages!
just came back to blog about a hilarious shit!
went into some cheeeennna speaking person's blog.

im sorry man, but its so hilarious! the english is crap, my god.
not to forget the spelling and verbs used. HA, in your face!
and not forgetting WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! im sorry again!
sorry, FERR e rUdeNeSs ii iNsuLteD oN. (^.^) yeaaaaahhh dude!!

its so OH MY GOD HILARIOUS! i was laughing out soooooooooo hard...
and gavin is like yeahhhh duuuuddeee, maaaannn... okay enough of my crap!

today imma have two post about 5 minutes interval.
you'll see why.. ((: TATTOOOOOOSSS BABYY!! ((:
TATTTOOOOO FUCKING CONVENTION!
lets go tattoooo made. well this the part where i REALLY am SUPPOSE TO




SREEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMM!!!

❤attitude bitch!
well, everyone is back at school. hahas
for me another year of fuxxing fun! coolness.

hmm. in anyways.
here are some advise for BITCHES that have an attitude problem.
well. you think you so great and mighty starring at everyone with your lan jiao bin.
(fuxx you, hope you get beaten up!)


hope one day someone will teach you a lesson. friends said you used them, ya i agree.
fuck you. just because you think you're a dark horse, im fuxxing afraid of you. so what
bitch?? so what? you got the guts dont just stare at me, the fights i've been into, im not
afraid of you little bitch, and your stares are just snares of a drum, every beat to your face
and you think you so damn cute ah? sorry man, if others think you're so cute, count me
in..not please. you make me wanna puke. and if not act all emo and shit. puhlease la!
you wont gain sympathy can? fuck off man! i really dont care what your background is.
attitude me, my girlfriends. who the fuck you think you are? some bloody rich tai tai
that can order a load of bodyguards to smack us in the face with insult. FUCK YOU back
yet again.



it doesnt matter if where or what your background is. what matter is that you act properly
at the right place and time. and because of your princess-coughs-oh so mighty pms mood,
makes everyone care bout you, please you're not gaining attention. you're making ppl
mad.


so seriously, i hope this school to you is gonna make your life hell. cause you're not the
only princess-oh-so-mighty with a pms mood. the guys there too has it. i hope you just
kinda offend them, so they teach you a lesson. i hope you'll evaluate your choice of making
your lan jiao bin. hope the year 2008 that made hell for a friend will make hell for you too.
i've nothing against you actually, i dont hate you just despise you thats all. but i hope others
will hate you cause you've got a something stuck onto your face thats says stuck up!

the way you talked to my girlfriend, which thats the point i wanna find you and
fuck you upside down! not literally, but verbally, you piss me, bitch. this is not
an "attention" post to your face of lonesome, loathe, low life scum, complete shithead life.
this a wake up call for you. the next time i see you i hope you get what i mean.
and whatever you, watch your mouth, before letting it run. i wont hesitate to smack
you in the face.



Bitch out!~~~

❤L is for Loser!
fuck you everyone!

im back after only a few days and apparently someone
called G.T. cant wait after a month for me to blog. fuxxxxx..

so anyways. i've been learning nice make up shitszxszxszx
on youtube. duhhhh.. live shows you see. fuxxxx again..
well.. nikki, jason and i have been talking on the phone
for 4 nights in a row. wow wee.. =.= and im talking about,
talking into the wee early mornings like 2 fuxing am.
yupszxszxszxszx...

apparently i just rmbered its my one year
friendship with Jasper Su Jie Long. ((:
happy one year of friendship ((:

and also. today is the day Hardy turns 20? if im not wrong..
and also the day he goes into NS. WTF you say?? yeah fuxxxx right?
i knnoooooww. like whatever right? yeahhh... damnn. anyways..
i cant rmb whose birthday will it be this month. cause i cant be bothered.
im counting down the days till i get ANG BAO.

oh yes got esther's birthday! yeah. well. and also..
i wanna thank jason teo for the near future of giving me
his assets ((: FUXXXX BABY!! im going to be rich.. ((;
i'll keep prophesying that.. and soon it'll come to past ((:
wooooohoooooo. ((: oh and he is in Heart of God. i was like
WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT????!!! you have to be kidding??

oh and another thing. im broke.
officially.. ((:
Do Not Ask Me Out unless... you're willing to pay whatever i want
-evil grin- (:

OH OH OH i wanna thank RICHARD toooooooooo!
for getting me my leggings in hong kong! xie xie ni!!!
but still also creditos to nikki chanmalichan hey hey!!
hehes. jason's dumbass gay habbo joke. LOL!

anyhooos..... i dreamt of surya calling me, and i hang the damn phone
on him cause he sounded like a typical chao ah beng who cant speak proper
english. mumbling under his breathe, so i told him that and he was like.
" im not a ah beng! stop bullying me, imma go one corner and cry now"
awww dont cry emo kid. cheer up!! ((: hahas. im an real ass! beat that!
im the mean queen..-coughs- ass...

well theres alot happening too.

i got my knee injured in a fight last monday
and i doubt its gonna heal.
the fight was a funny one tooo!
malay boy and chinese man ((:
malay boy hits chinese drunk man!
chinese man wasnt so drunk after all..
chinese man go freezer take minced babi out,
went to malay boy's face and smack it down.
LOL!!!! i was laughing the crap out man!
and than i was in the toilet. they fight all the way
into the kitchen. like.. oh my goth! than
i came out to see what happen, i also kena hit.
bastfux! like shit la... LOL!

this sounds familiar right GAAAAAAVVINN??
hahas. thank god it wasnt rioting. if not jialat liao looooo!
hahas. oh well. i got a call! must beeee ((: good day mate!

❤two thousand and nine

❤Canada to India
Damiane is going from canada to india for a "class trip"
like wth? i was laughing on the phone soooooooo hard.
he was whining how racist he was.. hahhas. gay fucker!

well.
today is rather a gloomy tired day for me.

























just another passerby...

❤if you see your name or anything you will do, TAG!!
Rule #1
People who have been tagged must write their answers on
their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question
formulated by themselves.

Rule #2
Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person
whom they were tagged by continue this game sending it to other people.

1.Do you have secrets?
- yeah, but no one knows all i guess?

2. Would you fall in love with a guy younger than you?
- no, even how mature he is, NO

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
- yeah. cause i cant go. fuck that!

4. What if your ex-crush got jealous over you all of a sudden ? How will you react?
- tell him thats his problem suck it if he wants..

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
- no, he's gross.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- I'd rather be loved by someone. At least I'm not the one that's gonna get hurt. ((:

7. Will you forgive the person who played around with your feelings?
- hmm the thing is, should i?

8. If the person you like knows you like him/her, what would be your reaction if he/she said yes?
- er.. happy and like duhh you gotta like me cause im nice!

9. Is there anything that made you extremly happy?
- money and my girlfriends

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- rich!

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- Besides my family, myself.

13. What is/are the most important thing(s) in life?
- Satisfaction.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- Single and rich! As long as I have money i can travel around the world ((:

15. What your favourite colour?
- shades of black ((:

16. Would you give your all in a relationship?
- if he's a good guy.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- neither one..

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- i guess so. why let life be so bitter?

19. Will you confess to the person you like/love?
- er. no. paisei you know??

20. 5 people i'm gonna tag:
1) nikki
2) yi xian
3) pris
4) anyone
5) who breaths ((:

❤bid you farewell!
Farewell Sun!!
take care! see in bout 2 years again!
till church meet you again!
XPP

well today is not a good day,
rather moody but all hidden under a wide loud laughter ((:
till i was in the bus, alone, thoughts flooded my mind, but i still
am not sure what i was moody bout. or rather things dont feel the same anymore.
i feel like im drifting away from everything, introvertion is starting yet again.
i have no idea whats happening to me, i cant get to sleep, i cant eat much.
all i want to do is...stone. YAH STONE, for fuck's sakes! and i hate stoning.
fuck! what is wrong with me? i hate it. i hate everything thats happening, so bad!

rather be alone. but i had something else in mind. and no its not r/s,
please. i wanna drink and maybe REALLY drown in my nothing happened sorrow..
or maybe because things are happening around me so fast. i dont know where to start?
i dont know what to do? actually i kinda not care bout it. because im done caring..
actually idk..what the fuck?

gavvyyyyy.. help daddy ask me to wake up at 9 FUCKING A.M every fucking day!
dammit la so irritating.. actually than again i dont care, he's at work, i'll off my phone.
he cant do anything. neh neh ni boo boo! XP dumbass.

well today was also a rather long yet short day. =.=
idk it feels that way. stupid. i think i going to play hotel 626 now..
scare the living shit out of me. fuck i hate horror games. but im
really bored. darren went to sleep already. gavin is mia-ing now.
and fei is idk where she went. "brb i go find food" so long la.
kev is watch his cartoon. so annoying. fine! i shall go play the shit game now.
bye bye.

❤tonning
heheh!
nikki: im not angry no worries ((:
gavin: if my hater is there, HELL YES, IM GOING! XPP
elsa: thanks for the comments, appreciated, but think they really no life.
heh heh heh..

well i tonned with nik on x'mas eve night
and someone died at clarke quay river around 5 am and we left at 5.02
freaky.. but i'd love to see the expression on andy.. i think he'd be laughing away.
but whatever. some bangala tried to hug me and nik. so sick.. and some beng sprayed
snow on me, kanasai.. alot of shit la. funny like fuck. very fun

and the weirdest thang.. i realized more than 50 ppl are asking me out on new years eve.
sorry AHHHHHHHHH im reserved already, anyways, always have been =.=
my girlfriends have reserved me for life. so try asking earlier, try harder. well
if you want to see me or whatever shit, i will be at orchard round 4 till late,

places most likely you'll see me at

orchard, somerset, bugis, dhoby and clark quay and BUSTOPS around there.
i'll be waking around, so catch me if you can. ((: ill be in crazy that night, so
happy catching me that night.

and oh yeah gavvy,,
if im not wrong i saw ming at somerset, so im guessing you were there.
and he looked lost.. =.= dont tell him i said that, he'll chew my ass. well..
well i saw ALOT of familia faces. and i think i met them before. they ring something
in my head, and i think its scary, seen so many ppl before but recognise non.. horrid
well imma go to sleep now, im swaying left and right. i think im tired. idk..
my mind is not feeling right. hahahs.

goodnight ass holes!

happy fuckin new year to you,
watch out cause im gonna bash your faces,
i know who you fucking spammers are. ((:
-evil grin- ((:

to the rest of the NICEST people i know

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
(to be)

_l_

❤HOME

❤goodbye goodnight for now,

❤reply to the dumb ass-namelss-cunt
for your fucking info. please mind what you say.
im not replying to you is because i find you extraordinary
extremely childish ((; you have not fucking life, thats your fucking ass
problem. i give no shit to your ass wipe jack on faggotless shameless
spammer like you, if you think you are WOW good, fuck yourself. ((:

yeah to my readers, if i have,

i've got thrown outta the house, so im going around staying
all over my lovestruck friend's house, ((: for those who wanna
know why, dont bother, its okay, im okay. dont worry.
anything you wanna look for me, leave me your number,
and i'll msg you ((: no worries to friends ((;

Laura is surviving on her wagon of fame ((;
so dont worry at all, liLsaint is doing well,
so will laura. ((: she's doing fine. getting back
on the road of faith!

OH BTW!
in Cell Group, i won a AWARD, (not bragging)
Courage Under FIRE ((:
(wtf is that?)
okay its like(im not bragging) its like i've been through so
much if my readers knows, my parents etc and etc la. so
and i still come to church in faith, staying strong and everything.
but no. seriously. i felt proud for myself for once. really.
i've dont something to shine for God like an ass like me. ((:
so im pretty much proud. my faith is not for a faint hearted.
though i listent to satanic and etc genres to do with emo shit
and metal stuff, i still do put God near my heart though music
is something i might die for. so, yeah. ((: im proud, i've done it,
but i still aint satisfied, its just another battle won, there's a long war,
i'll fight, though at this time, being kicked out, like was ytd, saturday,
i still find myself going to church and kicking ass, i can the FUGLY devil
im not backing down, fight me till the very end, i'll fucking kick his ass.
cause 2000 yrs ago, Jesus has won the battle *coughs* WAR! so
now its X'mas. you wanna try make me backslide? TRY HARDER BITCH~!
try harder. im stronger than you think i am. i have my own mind.
though i do whatever i want, i know where i stand, i know what i am,(not everytime)
but yeah i know. im stronger then the pretty face, black clothes and a pretense,
FUCK YOU!

im much better now. thanks,
and i also wanna thank linetter for putting me up on sat night,
thanks, and sorry for the trouble. thank you
and ZZ thank you for everything, I will stand in the gap((:
and i hope there will not be rumours bout me and Shang Xuan.
i hate this, though good friends, its impossible to think otherwise.
i already love someone 2 years ago. and if he's not to long, i'll
wait here all my life for him. i maybe emotionally attach to him,
but i know, he's someone who'll take care of me, though he's not the
typa guy every good girl wants, i'm willing to forgive all the things he done.
im okay with it. im blinded by love. but i dont care. so stop makeing nonsense
because of a rumour i lost a friend once, and im not gonna loose another.
i've suffered enough with rumours, im not posting this to get attention
or whatever the shit is, to proof myself crap and shit, NO, rumours
break friendship, so i think i'd make it clear. And its not the darren tan
alice and cj cell group know, its Darren Tan Jia Wei, I Love. and never gonna
give on him, i believe through my light, he'll turn to god, and i know i'll marry him ((:

hun, if you are reading this(which i highly doubt so, cause you in camp now, so
you are sleeping cause you said goodnight to me already.) LOVE YOU BABY!
goodnight jerks, fuck you if you're a spammer, please die, thank you! ((: MUACKS!

P.S. if i cant like you up now, i'll link you soon! sorry for late replies too.
love you ppl! thank you, YOU!

❤chinkies
hellooooo.

okay rant rant rant.. amanda deleted her blog.
FUCK YA'LL SPAMMERS! fuck you _l_

well fuck you!
and fuck you still!

hmm. well. whatever in their face!

okay. jeremy had call me, and..
im feeeeeeeling supreme depressed..
i feel so sad. i feel 40 kinds of sadness.

well im had a reflection on my life.
he said he thinks im living life on the fast lane.
idk what he means. but i think i really have no
care in life. im not afraid of dying or living,
love or unloved, sadness or happiness.
i'm dead inside. i dare to be a bitch to everyone.
i dare to tell anyone and everyone off.
and im seriously dead over everything.

idk? im turning very zombie like..
very introverted. like a freak. i refuse
to go out. till friends shout at me, i refuse
to listen to anyone. i refuse to do anything
unless its daily or something LIKE MY ROUTINE.
other than that i think im dead. im so fucking dead.
i need school i need to do something. NO.
i need to go to so a quite place to think.

though i feel so depressed. idk what i really feel.
after watching leap years using dvd. (i know, slowwwwwwww)
i did cry. i did feel sad. but at the same time, i feel dead.
i dont know what im feeling inside. its like i wanna be loved,
but than again i wanna be my own bf/gf. what the fuck is wrong with me?

entirely i think im a freak. i hate myself. i hate everything i know.
why cant you ppl just play along with me. why tell me? why ask?
i dont know anything of whats going on. i hate it. i haaaaaaaaaaatee
all the fucking shit i hear from my dad. i hate all the shit i have to let go.
i hate all that everyone is expecting from me. i hate all of you.
i feel all the sadness at this age. wtf? is this suppose to happen?
is this meant to be my destiny? i hate feeling sad inside and pretending
happy outside. i hate all this.

i hardly use hate. im using it now because you told me bout life.
i fucking hate this!

Dead shit never stop haunting my living,
if i had a chance to turn back time, i'd never
wanna know anyone. i wont wanna go through
all this, i hate my inner trance going on...

Fuck Everything I Stand For.
Who Am I?
- I Don't Know

the fallen liLsaint.
i've been riding on my nick for very long.
im pretty tired. i need to find who i was
two years ago, but memories seem faded from photos.
i dont remember anything, i need to be laura again.
saturday i was me. i was happy, the happiness i havent
felt in months. the emotion was better than my birthday cakes
and muffins and pies. better than gold given to me. better
than money that was given to me on cny. better than presents
on x'mas. better than any colour you find in a crayon box.

but now its fading. happiness comes to stay for awhile,
while, sadness stays for very long.. i cant breathe the taste
of dead air inside of me. the plague that contributed to me by
all broken promises, i need to tear down this steadfast wall,
for restrains in my life are useless, the taste of salvation is far
from what i remembered.

though i have haters and what nots.
my life might be bitter to you, but i have much
better friends and life society than you will ever have.
i know myself than anyone else to judge.
im not perfect i have my flaws but im much more
compassionate than you'll ever be.

for ppl who dont know me, thinks im fierce,
you look at me, you get intimidated, cause i dont
smile at you cause i dont know you,
thus you tell my friends that i have a fierce look,
i'm like a demon trapped in a human body.
get to know me before you start your horrendous rant bout me.
my past maybe blissfool. my future is bleak. my present is still living.
so stop trying to put me down because of my appearance.

what you see is not what you get.

dont believe try asking my friends around me, be it
my girlfriends, my cyber friends, my bff-s, my church friends.
ask them before you fucking judge me. if you find i treat you differently,
apperantly i do, to some ignorant menapaustic coackroaches.
ask yourselves why? i did nothing to you, you did something that
makes you look like a fool, trying to manipulate me with your looks,
thinking i would be afraid of you after you saw my BLACK face, so hard
trying to intimidate me. YAH try harder. i aint afraid of you wild ass.. =.=

or for the other shytlings that thinks im fierce, you tell your friends also mine,
to tell me to not look so fierce. =.= so my friends tell me you dare not say hi,
well if i LOOK so hard to say hi at, than dont say hi. i dont need to be acknowledge
that liLsaint is here. i dont consider myself a big a shot or something, yeah. i do not
need your spastic sarcasm remarks, and your wanting to say hi. so stop your rant
bout me, kiss my ass for fuck's sakes.

❤16 years..

❤adrenaline of going blonde
well today was a great day though i my girlfriend had a rather annoying friend.

oh well back to the day, i was late for the first time (i guess)
cause i was talking to shang xuan, kev and a couple of new friends,
and eating at the same time, so i forgot the put on my make up too
(Laura, are you serious?) ya i am. i forgot. so i rushed with my make up..

and than left the house to meet niks. well, went to sim lim, and i had
many ppl staring at me, for fucks sake? idk why? but thank god nik
was with me to tell them off. well cause i wasnt paying attention to stares.
im not bothered though. i got kinda used to it. hahas.

moving on,went to mos, say thing INDIE LIAN! yeah INDIE LIAN.
she had blue indie geek specs, dress like a typical skinny ah lian. =.=
i didnt notice her, was niks. she's a pretty observant young lady.
so, than i was like HUH? OH PUH-LEASE MAN! SO FUGLY CAN???
yah with a ah beng wanna be oh so cool shyt guy. i was like =.=
"are girls this days just so despo that they needa flirt with weird guys..?"
im not judging but its my view. im seeing it everywhere, maybe
because im so used to be with myself alone, im my own girl-boyfriend,
so i dont see why i need a men so thats why im saying this. hahahas.
LOL! but seriously. its happening everywhere, its scaring me.

anyhoos, lets move on.. than went to niks house!
OH MY GOD, her dog is louder than me. =.=
he barked like freaking loud like a really huge dog,
which is quite scary. but i wont deny he's cute.
i wanna go sayang him, but he looks scary, worst than darren..
no actually darren more fierce. compared to a dog, i'd die for a dog.
lol dont hate me cause you aint me. XP

well, its sad cause her dad came back and whacked the dog to ask
it so shut up, kinda a heartache for me, i felt guilty, cause i shouldnt
have gone in. really. i felt so guilty, maybe was because of tyler, i miss her.

okay okay, later i get emotional again.
than went to meet some terrance/terrenece guy friend of niks.
i think he's okay looking far from what "nerd" i expected, but rather annoying.
he first asked if i was a malay cause i spoke in malay. okay fine with that.
than he said i and nik was lesbians. LIKE HELLO! wow. im so lesbian cause
nik walked me home, and she gave me flying kiss and i gave her one back.
wow, so i must be lesbian to hug her. what concept man. nice one. i was taken back
for awhile cause i was like, you judged me before you even have any knowledge of who
and what i am. and i really hated his guts, and i think i dont quite think he's a very
nice guy. though im judging him from what he said, im pissed. but im not here to point
this fella, he's just a PASSERBY like every spammer in my blog and email. some hater,
i guess. cause im tooooooo scene for them. fuck it. yeah WHATEVER IN YOUR FACE.

than came home had a good dinner. so damn shiok!
i wonder if shang xuan will be jealous my dinner was just campbells soup.
but lunch was SUPERB! ((: i loved lunch alot. ((:

oh wellsy, enough of my bimbotic crap. im dead tired with my headache and
tired feet and lose brains yaking at my dad. laughing over a show like a nut brain.
blahh. now there are some disturbing kid thats talking to me. how irritating.
what donny guy. like whatever la. so irritating, with a irritating pic. kanasai!

oh well goodnight now.

❤i miss my botak baby

rant rant rant..
can you people keep you comments to yerself?
so fucking idiotic and senseless and pathetic.
=.=. like shut up man! shut the fuck up!
shut your pathetic fucking mouth up. you think
you so bloody good looking, show us your pic la
dumkfuck. you suck, you fucking suck,
you're worst than a duck! so shut the fuck up!

you haters dont know how irritated i am right now.
so fucking lame, so fucking hilarious,
you titfaces have issues to attend to. so STFU before,
my ah lian-ness comes alive, and maybe i'll fucking
hunt you down, im not fearless, but you unleashed a
anger in me which i buried a long time ago, so be fucking afraid!

FUCK YOU,

MOTHERFUCKERS!

I FUCKING HATE YOU TOOO!

YOU FUCKERS DESERVE TO EAT

SHYT!

_l_ YOU!

❤contraDICK!
dear darren,



you're sadly mistaken for my boyfriend by a 12 yr old kid,
like =.=? i wished you know. hahas. you'll be away for two weeks,
i'll be lonely and would you let this poor soul,let her mind wonder
into a world of darkness again?? okok LOL! before you kick the
shayt outta me, i was joking.

anyhooos..
to the dicky inky part.
so sick of spammers already!!

hello to passerby.

i was woken up by K.G bout your little schem bout me
contradicting myself.

basically idk who you are, cause you named yourself "passerby"
so i think either you are free or lame or mostly bored.

i doubt im contradicting myself cause, i said " SCENE KID AS YOU MAY SAY"
yah, and i claim im not. yes true. i dont deny that fact.
but the sentence scene kid as you may say, have alot 2 meaning,
either you think i am or its other ppl's view.
so i guess my bestfriend carol already say, you are contradicting yourself too.

please be carful with what you say. it makes you look dumb.
and if you gonna tag hate stuff. HAH! go ahead! i dont care..

and PUHH-LEASE... if you wanna spam or tag, USE PROPER ENG!
"ur contradicting urself u say u not a scene kid and in ur
video u claime ur not/ so arnt u saeing u r?"

what the fuck are you trying to say? sound so lame??
yeah have some basic respect by leaving your fucking name.
i dont need PASSERBY-S in my life, you pple just bring trouble.
and you ppl think you are so good in bashing ppl however you want
which i think its childish and narrow thinking.

1. i dont see whats wrong being a scene kid and not going to gigs,
2. i dont see why "ugly" ppl cant be happy together with their stead.
3. i dont see whats so skinny to be has scene trend gotta do with it.
4. i dont see why spammers say some ppl have no future... etc.
5. i dont see why spammers LOVE (and i mean LOVE) to aim at the chest.
( its sick or either you're flat ((: suck on it if you just hated what i said ((: )

yeah its just some rant thats going on in my cyber world of friends.
but seriously, dont you SPAMMERS have something else to do?
and also i have another theory.

instead of hating, why not start accepting? why be so bitter? isnt it crap?
dont you have enough of problem in your life, at least this life time? why
bring so much hatred into your saddened life?

❤probably its love.