❤trouble and happiness
im so over darren..he is so shit..hahahs
ah whatever..dont think im getting anywhere thou..
ever since nicholas appeared, everything felt much brighter..
hahahs...you could say i like him..but i dont think its time for me to get into relationship..
and i just dont want to hurt anyone.. cause i know
drowned in jas's life and i know everyone blamed him for what happened..till today..
even thou if everything felt as thou its settled..but i know shawn hates him to the core..
and i know the cut wei shu and jas gave me cant be healed..even thou its over between ma and wei shu (w.s) i know i still have him in my heart.. its been9 months since we broke..and he still care
bout my life and i still care bout his thou..even if he use 'her' as and rebound girl..but i cant possibily forget one and a half year with him that over a night..i still miss him at times..he's affection is something i dont want to forget even as a sister..he and i know, we still have that look in
our eyes that we still want to be together..but i know his gonna hurt me all over again.. and its gonna bring all the past back..but me and w.s are just friends..and i know he's still waiting for the answer..on the other hand iwan is starting to freak me out..my gosh..i'm about to go bonkers..
im really going to go mad.. everyone is asking me to give iwan an chance..im not sure thou..i know his a nice guy and stuff..he treats me much better of than jas..but its so hard to love someone you dont even like.. im still thinking should i go for it? if i go for it i wonder what will aishah say..im afraid to be with another malay again..hahahs..im not racist okay?? its just that im not sure..most guys i know are jerks and i dont want to get hurt again..i guess single is the best.. !! headache..daniel and me are in the same situation hahahs !!! he said we both match each other..so we stead..hahas but its meant to be a joke la..hahahs..that mad fella is bonkers..hahahs.. its soon daniel's bday !! me and carol saving money to get that ass a converse shoe...he abit too much la..but last year he opened chalet for my bday so it cant compare to that shoe..plus all the food is bought by him and there was buffet by him too..hahahs..dan's too nice to me..hahahs..but we know each other for almost half our life..knew him like i was 9 yrs old..hahahs.. i love him !!! hahahs !!!! go dan !! happy 19 soon !!!