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i'm still sad bout what has happen.. but guess what..i'm getting along each day of my life..trying to forget him and stuff..everything that has happen in the past are just bullshit to me now.. every little thing i do i still rmb him..so i've deleted his number and msges..changing number again soon..alex was like "eh what the fuck la!! how many time you want to change?? got nothing better to huh?? that guy call, he call la..his blody pasar..!!" hahas..alex is so damn lame can??! hahas..yea..im being who i was suppose to be..anyways i dont want to talk bout him already..i'm suppose to forget him..

talking bout FOP.. i did not go on sunday just to avoid someone..lame!! anyways..jump and jump until my leg pain sia!! hahas ... shawn and jill, alex and dan went i didnteven know !! wtf la..never tell me if not i sit with them..hahas.. than on saturady after FOP i went to take bus 12 la..pack like shit than at this stop one fucking old bloody shit woman keep asking me, esther, su and cherlyn and some other youngsters to go up..bloody fuck!, no space nvm..tell them no space still ask us go up! wah piang i tak boleh tahan i sh0ut say damn loud la.."lan jiao la, no space how to go up..the meter spoil dont understand huh?! nah bei!! .. lol.. at that time i was tired and cranky..kinda agitated and wasnt really in the mood due to me getting really tired..lols..hhahas..that woman stare at me la..i was like about to shout at her.. but i told myself to control my fucking temper..

than when got space liao..me and esther set together la..every song i play i almost want to cry..bloody shit..lols..aiya..whats the point of crying when everything is said and done..that's what i told myself..everynight feels so different now..i wonder issit because i left him or because i changed me..i really wonder what made it this way..hahas.. but i learnt my lesson..its okay..i'll just take it as another mistake..

i'm going to be a history maker in this land, im gonna be a speaker of truth to all man kind !!
i coming back to heart of God..
its late and dark, i'm going back Home..
i've lost everything, my self being,
the control of my emotions..
and now, i'm going to lay my life back at the altar..
another mistake is another level of faith and strength that i have to build to get over..