❤i know this sucks la..but you asked for it !!
today went to watch 881 !! omg im in love with the show !!!
hahas got alot cute "ah bengs" !! hehes..any way it was the hokkien songs that moved me to tears la..especially the " ye ren ye ban" it has the meaning there and i was crying like shit till my eyes super uber red!! ahh !! my contacts were blue manz.. but it a must watch show !! even i recommend it !! has to watch..its very touching la... 881 yo ah yo !!! ROYSTON TAN ROCK MY WORLD !! MR CUTIE !!
any ways..

im about to change my blog url..so ppl if you cant find my blog..this the hint... verticallyfa**** (not the four letter word hor!! )btw its around next week i think..yup..should be la..whats there to rise up?? better down..hahahs..no point too..leaving this church..woah !!! FREEDOM YO!!! can go back my places where i always hangout and let free !! back to the OLD SWEET LIFE OF LAURA !!
yay !! rejoicing like hell, beotch !!! waiting for the right time now..maybe this month maybe next..not november..im leaving for good mans !!cant take the pressure anymore..than got more time earn money than can go aus !! change venue liao..i want to be happy..

and yet CELL GROUP keep on pressurizing me.. I'M SORRY IF THIS SUCKED LA!! COS YOU PPL MADE MY LIFE SHIT OKAY?! yea.say to me be more like JESUS yet you can say to me in my face and your attitude is like not far from mine...what?? i come in church happy..next minute kena scolded infront of alot members..FUCK OKAY?! say i give you attitude please lor..my head la..say i give attitude?? i come in happy than kena scolded just for being late than say me?? obviously i TU LAN right ?? tell me you still can smile?? if you say you can i can say this BULLSHIT !! btw if you think im gossiping sorry hor!! this called a blog open to outsiders..btw i did not say name of anyone.. (: (its the CG NOT THE CHURCH NOTHING TO DO WITH CITY HARVEST PLEASE !!)

i dont mean to say all this la..i am grateful for all that you all done for me..but i cant swallow what you tell me in my face on friday and saturday infront of quite alot of ppl..
i admit i from N.T so?? look down on me la? i pai kia, vulgar, violent, a rotten apple, bad family background?? what can i do?? this is the chosen destiny since i was born!! can i blame my parents for my upbringing?? no you know !! i try so hard to change, but i cant do it anymore..the more i try the more i lose myself..i lose my self being.. the more i will struggle.. yet i try to keep my cool in church..i emo is got reason..do think i like it?? no you know..the feeling suck..i cant say it out..i keep them in my heart.. i dont want ppl to see the saddest state of my heart..but you ppl keep pushing me to change..i keep my cool, i have never shouted at anyone of our cgm..dont push me to tell of you all to fuck off you know..i have my limits one..in the first place do you all know me very well?? i attitude is a way of telling you enough is enough ..yet you all push it..dont tell me its not enough..cause i got many other thing to do on saturdays..but i chose church..i have enough already la..its a way of saying i quit this family..i quit everything i've done..in CGL's eye, CGM's eyes..IM NEVER GOOD ENOUGH!! i hope i said this made you all happy..i quit doing this JOb.. I QUIT !! i'd be a fool saying i'm happy changing..the fact is its not me.. you can say i have serious emotional problems..you know what its you ppl who are !! late only scold until like shit okay!!!

next time scold me REMEMBER PLEASE DONT ONLY SAY MY ATTITUDE PLEASE MENTION MY BACKGROUND, MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS I MIX WITH OKAY???
REMEMBER HOR..SAY EVERYTHING I AM..SAY INFRONT OF EVERYONE ELSE !! DONT TELL ME YOU ARE SORRY..DONT BOTHER ASKING ME COME BACK..I LOST FAITH IN THIS CELL GROUP...MARK MY WORDS..ITS NOT COMING FROM THE EMO ME..ITS COMING FROM THE ORIGINAL ME..PROPERLY TAKE CARE OF YOUR CGMs DONT PUSH THEM.. !! DONT SCOLD THEM INFRONT OF OTHERS !! THIS IS CALLED RESPECT OTHERS THAN OTHERS WILL RESPECT YOU..PPL GOT FACE AND FEELINGS ONE..DO YOU LIKE ME SCOLD YOU INFRONT OF YOUR FRIENDS?? OR EVEN IN PUBLIC?? NO RIGHT?? RESPECT MAN !!! IT PISSES PPL OFF RIGHT?? DUHHH!!HELLO! PPL, HAVE SOME RESPECT FOR OTHERS LA..DOESN'T MEAN YOU GOT AUTHORITY MEANS YOU CAN GO ROUND SCOLDING PPL INFORNT OF 0THERS LA..SAY PRIVATELY OR SOMETHING LA..PLS LA PAI TUO LA !!

If any of you members not happy with what i said feel free to CONFRONT me in PUBLIC :)
i welcome you with open arms..

- if you think i was "gossiping" its called a blog btw..
- if you think i have serious emotional problem thats just me (not depression)
- if you want to go ask the HEAD of our cg, all by means..he can come to my face and talk to me..
- if you think im bitchy or something..well thats your fucking problem..oh well..
- if you got anything "GOSSIP" bout me SAY IT IN MY FACE !!