❤watching myself die once more..
i just feel so FUCKED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
I JUST WANT TO DIE SO BADLY!!!!
i dunno who i am any more..i just miss him so badly....
because he is an emo..i changed for him..the best times i had with him, he always dropped the worst lines..
FUCK UP I SAY!! love you so much and get back all this shit!!! im just another doormat to you..
now watching myself cry, trapping myself again..watch myself die once more..FALLEN!!!!!

PLAYING YOUR GAME ONCE MORE..HOW STUPID CAN I GET??!!
HOPE YOU'LL JUST GO AWAY..I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU EVER AGAIN..
EVERYTHING I DO I DID IT FOR YOU..BUT ITS ALL A WASTE..
YOUR JUST A DISAPPOINTMENT TO MY LIFE..I'M MISTAKE IN YOUR LIFE

❤
You almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask

I think the chain broke away
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer than that

with my foot on your neck
I finally have you
right where I want you
right where I want you
right where I want you
right where I want you

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way (your own way)
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that (I guess it's ok I puked the day away)
nicer than that (I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way)
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer
nicer

❤
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away, so far away

Never had I imagined
living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive, alive

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together (Together)
One sweet day (And all that I know and I'll wait patiently to see you in Heaven)

Darlin', I never showed you (No, no, no, no, no, no) {I never showed you}
Assumed you'd always be there (mariah: always be there,) no,no, {I thought you'd always be there}
and I took your presence for granted
But I always cared (But I always cared) and I miss the love we shared

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way (Lost along the way)
And I know eventually we'll be together (I know, I know)
One sweet day (And all thatI know is I'll wait patiently to see you in Heaven)

Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Yeah, yeah
Lord, I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way (Like so many)
And I know eventually we'll be together (Yes, I know, I know we'll be together)
One sweet day

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven (I'll see you eventually)
Like so many friends we've lost along the way (I know you're lookin' for a heaven)
And I know eventually we'll be together (Yes, we will)
One sweet day (One sweet day, whoa...)

patiently to see you in Heaven

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say

❤
It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

[CHORUS:]
The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all

All day long
I can hear people
Talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd
(The crowd)
Try as they may
Could never define
What's been said
Between your
Heart and mine

[Repeat chorus twice]

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know
That you need me

[Repeat chorus]

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know
That you need me

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

[CHORUS:]
The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all

All day long
I can hear people
Talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd
(The crowd)
Try as they may
Could never define
What's been said
Between your
Heart and mine

[Repeat chorus twice]

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know
That you need me

[Repeat chorus]

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know
That you need me

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)




I THINK DARREN IS JUST THAT GUY I REALLY LOVE UP TILL NOW..
AND I CANNOT EXPLAIN HOW MUCH HIS SMS JUST MAKES ME SMILE..
I CAN NEVER STOP THINKING OF THAT IDIOT..HAHAS..

WHEN I SEE HIM I CANT SEE OTHERS AROUND..

YTD GOT MY DREAM PHONE 5310!!
HAHAS AT LAST MAN!! PRAISE THE LORD!!
HAHAS..HOPING JUST ONE MORE BLESSING ..
MAYBE MOST OF YOU KNOW WHAT I REALLY WANT
JUST THAT BOY!! AND I'M CONTENT WITH WHAT I HAVE ALREADY..
MAYBE ITS JUST THAT EVERYONE HAS THEIR LIL SPECIAL SOMEONE..
MAYBE MINE IS JUST KEPT DEEP DOWN..COULD IT BE TRUE LOVE??

i cant deny i'm head over heels for him..
hope that this friendship will last till the end..
i know that 199 bottles of Lemon tea is worth
including the tears..anything for him is worth..
he's the exceptional one..only him..
what's said between his heart and mine..
no one can define it..just my guardian angel..

can never let him fall...
never leave him in his needed times...

❤Some lyrics
Just feel that some of these lyrics are really reflecting my life..



"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been"

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus]
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

[Chorus]
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus x2]
[Chorus]

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

--------------------------


I found your picture in my wallet
Still got your sweater in my closet
I'll bring 'em by
Maybe tonight

And people asking how I'm doing?
But every question still has you in
I say I'm fine
And I never think about you
But you're always on my mind

[Chorus:]
I'm getting over you
I'm getting over you most of the time
If I say it like I mean it
Then maybe I'll believe it like it's true
I'm getting over you

I've been playing all the songs you hated
I called the girl I almost dated
She's not the one
But I'm having fun
And I'm better off without you
And I think it's what I want

[Chorus]

Even if it takes forever
I'll get my shit together
I've been doing be so much better

I'm getting over you
I'm getting over you

I'm getting over you, whoa
I'm getting over you most of the time
If I say it like I mean it
Then maybe I'll believe it like it's true

[Chorus]

I'm getting over you


-------------------------


You know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart

I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together

I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you


I live my life for you



--------------------------------


I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you SAT AND told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"

I sing,
"Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight"


----------------------------------


It took too long
It took too long
It took to long for you to call back
And normally I would just forget that
Except for the fact it was my birthday
My stupid birthday

I played along
I played along
I played along rolled right off my back
But obviously my armor was cracked
What kind of boyfriend would forget that?
Who would forget that?

The type of guy who doesn’t see
What he has until she leaves
Don’t let me go
Cuz without me, you know you’re lost
Wise up now or pay the cost
So you will know

You’re not livin’ till you’re livin’
Livin’ with me
You’re not winnin’ till you’re winnin’
Winnin’ me
You’re not gettin’ till you’re gettin’
Gettin’ 2 me
You’re not livin’ till you’re livin’
Livin’ for me

This is the potential breakup song
Our album needs just one
Oh baby please
Please tell me

We got along
We got along
We got along until you did that
Now all I want is just my stuff back
Do you get that?
Let me repeat that
I want my stuff back

You can send it in a box
I don’t care just drop it off
I won’t be home
Cuz without me, you know you’re lost
Minus you I’m better off
Soon you will know

You’re not livin’ till you’re livin’
Livin’ with me
You’re not winnin’ till you’re winnin’
Winnin’ me
You’re not gettin’ till you’re gettin’
Gettin’ 2 me
You’re not livin’ till you’re livin’
Livin’ for me

You can try, you can try
You know I know it’d be a lie
Without me you're gonna crie
So you better think clearly, clearly
Before you nearly, nearly
Mess up the situation that your gonna miss dearly, dearly
C’mon

You’re not livin’ till you’re livin’
Livin’ with me
You’re not winnin’ till you’re winnin’
Winnin’ me
You’re not gettin’ till you’re gettin’
Gettin’ 2 me
You’re not livin’ till you’re livin’
Livin’ for me

This is the potential breakup song
Our album needs just one
Oh baby please
Please tell me

This is the potential make up song
please just admit you’re wrong
Which will it be?
Which will it be?

-------------------------------


I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Felt like a scene on the cutting room floor
when i let you walk away tonight
Without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh
If you were here right now, I swear,
I'd tell you this

CHORUS:
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all i ever wanted, it comes right down to you (to you)
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls
I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no.
I memorized the number
So why can't i make the call
Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility (ohh)

CHORUS:
Baby I don't want to waste another day, another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted, it comes right down to you (to you)
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable (oh no no)

I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything that i hold in
Is everything that i can't let go (can't let go, yeah)

CHORUS:
'Cause baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted, it comes right down to you (to you)
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable oh no

Don't you know it baby
I don't want to waste another day

I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable


--------------------------------

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

------------------------------

Teardrops On My Guitar

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need and
Everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause its so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

CHORUS
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishin on a wishin star
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She better hold him tight,
And give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
and know she's lucky cause

CHORUS
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishin on a wishin' star
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
Don't know why I do

So I'll drive home alone,
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
and maybe get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do
He's the time, taken up
But there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see...


---------------------------------


I found myself today,
Oh I found myself and ran away,
But something pulled me back,
the Voice of reason I forgot I had,
All I know is your not here to say,
What you always used to say,
But it's written in the sky tonight

CHORUS

So I won't give up,
no I won't break down,
sooner than it seems life turns around,
and I will be strong
even if it all goes wrong,
when I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe,
someone's watching over me

VERSE 2

Seen that ray of light,
and it's shining on my destiny
shining all the time
and I won't be afraid
to follow everywhere it"s taking me
all I know is yesterday is gone
and right now I belong
took this moment, to my dreams

CHORUS

So I won't give up,
no I wont' break down,
sooner than it seems life turns around,
and I will be strong
even if it all goes wrong
when I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
someone's watching over me

BRIDGE what does it mean

It doesn't matter what people say
and it doesn't matter how long it takes
believe in yourself and you'll fly, high,
and it only matters how true you are
be true to yourself and follow your heart

CHORUS
So I won't give up,
no I wont' break down,
sooner than it seems life turns around,
and I will be strong
even if it all goes wrong
when I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe...

That I won't give up,
no I wont' break down,
sooner than it seems life turns around,
and I will be strong
even if it all goes wrong
when I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe....


that someone's watching over


someone's watching over


someone's watching over me

yeah yeah oh-OH..


Someone's watching over me...


-----------------------------

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause it's all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it
Nooo

I can't wait to see you
Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes
That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes
And it's a shame that we gotta spend our time
Being mad about the same things
Over and over again
About the same things
Over and over again
Ohh
But I think she's leavin
Ooh man she's leavin
I don't know what else to do
(I Can't go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again (yeah)
And I can't take it (yeah) I can't shake it
Nooo

I remember the day you left
I remember the last breath you took right in front of me
When you said that u would leave
I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything
But I see clearly now
And this choice I made keeps playing in my head
Over and over again
Playin my head
Over and over again
Ohh
I think she's leavin
Ooh man she's leavin
I don't know what else to do
(I Can't go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it I can't shake it
Nooo

[Now that I've realized that I'm going down
From all this pain you've put me through
Everytime I close my eyes I lock it down
I can't go on not loving you]

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can't take it I can't shake it
Nooo


uh uh uh uh
uh uh uh uh
uh uh uh uh
uh uh uh uh
uh uh uh uh
uh

Over and Over again
Over and Over again
Cause it's all in my head


=
=


cause now it is how i feel..
i just feel my world has just been crushed..the guy from my past came back..
the guy loved..i let him go..i just feel its so unfair..oh well..
i cant explaine how i feel..but it all reflect on my life..
maybe i just love Darren endlessly..he is the impact on my life..the one who
let me carry on in life..the guy i look up too turned out to be the one i love most..
hurts to hear that he ain't doing good.. [[it once said..to love a peron is to let go]]
never thought that after letting him go..he was right at the bottom my locked up heart..
when he talks i cover with a smile just to cover it up..but it all seemed crushed..
Life is getting rockier and shakier.. it seems its heading for the Water Fall..
i cant never explain that weird feeling..i know its not the me all used to know..
changed into someone..i dont even know who..some idiot that dont believe in
love, life or death anymore..everything i done..i put my whole heart in it but it
never got appreciate..now its all said and done..for those i've lost..
its a mistake i learn..for those kept close to my heart..are treasured..
maybe its the part and parcel of life.. we must learn..but it all seems so difficult..
even though i know im a rebellious and disrespectful girl..all i want is to have a better life..
but it all seems so out of my reach..i know i must accept what i have..but its the envy-ness
i have..i should have listened from the start..now all these problems are just the start..
i want and end to all my misery.. Maybe I Should Just Fuck Off From This World !!!

❤hey hey!!
pple.. - LILSAINT - is back !!

back to who i used to be..back to that wild shit..hahas
anyway work was shit today..having fever all the way..
body aching..i wanna sleep once i bath ..

any way short post..

to those girls who have their hearts broken by guys who dont know how to respond when you say you want to break..they are pathetic ball-less guys!! (ah boi say one) hahahs..and worst if your friends just ask what happen or something..than he ask you to delete him off..PLEASE DO IT!! THEY HAVE THIS SERIOUS HUM JI DIESEASE!! LOLS.. HUM JIU SI HUM..

if any of you know who the FUCK im reffering to and you BUAI SHONG..
PLEASE feel free to tag my tag board.. and not enough..go look for my number and come scold me bah..
pathetic soccer ball-less ass hole !!



BTW I"M OVER SOME PPL.. LOLS :)

thanks for reading this piece of JUNK >.<
love ya budd ass-es..

❤WOW!!
close to midnight now eh??
hahas..im dying !! rahhhhhh!! pissed pissed pissed!! ah boi help me
kena scolding from JASON TEO..wah zi piang oi!! sua la sua la..
ask if i threatening him? blah blah..gav they all ..include malik..include ah boi..
all not happy the way he talk to me la..plus say them..WHY MUST JOIN GANG???
please lor..we like we want he care ah?? fuck up !
LOLS
i dont care YOU read or not..happy or not..MY BLOG MY WORDS MY CURSE!!
sibei suai ah..
give mummy scold me on msn for being with an unknown shit hole!! LOLS??
she was like? HUH? you siao ah?>? give darren and nicholas hurt liao siao you still so bu guan..
wah you damn steady la..JASON TEO this kind of guy pah le ye suan le..she was like sua la sua la..
whack him only dirty our hands..better he go hell la.. talk to him so nicely ..answer you with attitude..pua chee bye!!
than Ah boi kor call me..say..SEE HIM ONE TIME WHACK HIM ONE TIME AH..nah bei ..bully my mei..
break le jiu suan le..ask to be friend than give attitude...
LOL
than lex call and told me lots of shit la..
hahas..like now you single right..can be mine soon..blah blah blah..wah..he think i what sia..
LOLS..he seriously is nuts...than he said..dont ever think of him again la..think of me..i cuter..
i more emo.my hair more style..more colour..( the minute he said that i was picutring a CLOWN!!)..i skater..skate boarder..biker..eh?! what else can you get in one package?? (like hello lex..you ain any package..you're a dumb shit..from the toilet bowl!!
SORRY LEX IF YOU READ THIS BUT ITS THE FACT !!HAHAS
so sian la..i laugh and laugh till i was tearing and my stomach pain la..bastard sia he....SKATER BOY??
KA PUI AH !! emo is emo la..but im so over it..hahas than again maybe not..LOLS..
hais..nothing much to say la..given up in everything besides church..hahas..not holy okay?!
LOLS!! MY SKINNIES SHOULD BE COMING IN THIS FRI!! hahas
im gonna be so broke!! ahahas..i need my bank account !! BENNNNN!!!!!!! KORRR!! MY ALLOWANCE?? HAHAHS IN ADVANCE CAN ?? LOL!!
later you smack me sia..dont want dont want..ahahsokay lahs..i want to oink oink le..
LOLS LOLS!!

hugs and kisses to my IDIOTIC GAYS!! hahas..you know who you are!! LOL!!

❤
TRUE story of a couple conversation.


girlfriend: dear, i'm going out to settle problem now.
boyfriend: WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO SETTLE PROBLEM WITH THAT KIND OF PEOPLE? WHAT KIND OF FRIENDS DO YOU HAVE HAVE? ALL YOUR FRIENDS NOW HOW TO DO IS TO FIGHT, AND FIGHT, AND FIGHT...
then,
girlfriend: %*#(&^(@^%&@()@
boyfriend: @%&(&@(@
girlfriend coulden take it anymore, so she said

girlfriend: i think we should end our relationship, i want a break.
boyfriend: okay, wait i go do something.

what a reply from a boyfriend
and let me tell you who is it, its JASON & LAURA.
goodness, if i'm the girlfriend i will just smack him mannzxzz.
laura, you can find a bettre guy luh!~ :D




esther you post it in your blog??!!

hahas guess what ben said??
SEE HIM ONE TIME WHACK HIM ONE TIME..
siao lor..than malik also say must CALL ME GO TOO!!
LOLS??!
siao la
hahas thanks for posting!!
love and misses!!

❤Single yet again! Free bird..
may i announce to ya''ll..I'M SINGLE ONCE MORE..
headache this morning sia..went to meet Gav this early morning down my house..
that idiot cant stop calling me to wake up..seriously felt like shit last night..
now jane doesnt want to talk to me..hais let it be..hope it will cool down..
LOLS?? anyway..after getting my ben n jerry's..gav called..alex..called..
laughing on the phone like nuts..gav got a phone call from his house phone..
he went to pick it up.it was sabrina i guess?? he was like HA HA HA..on the other side..saying
some crap bout his Daniel sort of RAPED OR MOLESTED him?? er right?? so i was "alex who want to rape him,.his not hot or anything la..lex was like YEAH MAN!! LOLS!! than gav picked the phone said hi..we were like right?? than lex said..dan wants to rape you? his dick will just fall of man!! hahahas!! so damn mean la..like fuck..than started asking me..how was i feeling and stuff.i was like GREAT MAN!! CANT BE ANY BETTER..LOLS..

Girl : lets break.
boy : Let me do something first..
girl..angry..
boy..fuck care..
in the morning..
boy msg girl..and still can talk like friends..like nothing happen??

how the hell am i not suppose to be mad????!
pissed i tell you..any bf would say..break for what??over small matters..
in the end i get a ' let me do smth first..' i'm so pissed..i cant take it anymore man!!
is like he can still ask me to eat..blah blah blah..wow..fuck la..giving up hope on guys la..
just want one guy who can show me not all guys are jerks..someone like darren..maybe better..
someone in church..who is holding God's word highly..and not take my words for granted..
i dont care what 'YOU' going to do..what you wanna do..go US and stay there for good..your pasar..
now i just want to focus on my vision for my life..for God..so i can into eternity with Him..
His love and mercy has saved me..i want to give back my all..even ifits a special calling..

I cant undo the past..but change my future for the good..its better to look farward as tghe bible says not to look back..whats in the past is in the past..

"Heal my heart and make it clean.
open up my eyes to the things unseen..
show me how to love like you have loved me..
break my heart for what breaks yours..
everything i am for you kingdom's cause..
as i walk my life with you into eternity.."

I will move..since we are like that we are like that..i wont ever disturb you anymore..
you can move to the states..get a new life there..i will be on my way to the calling of christ..
my vision.. my dreams..not nothing will stop me from serving mow..STRIKE FORCE HERE I COME !!
Coming back to the heart of God.

I know my prayer answers are on its ways..

this week i was blessed with worship..
tears in my eyes could nont stop over flowing.
asked God for and over flowing financial blessings..
let friends around me get well..it really came through..
im so glad..i guess i have gone to the next level in Christ.
God is good. Life is tough..
I'm letting go of everything for the kingdom of God is mine..
felt God telling me to let mummy and daddy's fault go..
forgive my dad..and forget the past hurts for when i go to heaven
he'll take all my earthly hurts and tears away..
and when i go back to heaven he'll throw the biggest party for me.



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❤your guardian angel by the red apparatus jumpsuit., Made me realise i still love him
was in office today...than this song was on..my guardian angel..and i rmb very clearly around 5 months ago..i was in love with darren tan jia wen..and rmb all his msges..the cute ones and the lame ones with the POKKA LEMON TEA..made me rmb that i drank all the 199 bottles in 3 weeks because of him..kept every bottle i drank..but when i told him about my feelings for him..knowing his background and stuff..i told him i dont mind all that..but he turned out to have fallen for someone else..i threw them all away..cry myself to slp..cry in school.i never ask for stead..all i asked was to let me be his guardian angel..this is the song that i rmb everything..even now..im still cant forget him..the one i care most is him..worry the most is also him.. i really dont know what to do...someone tell me okay???