❤When My Summer Fades To Fall


if i had a dream, hold onto you, I'd never want to wake up.

if i told you bluntly i love you all this time.. the days i spent
going out with you the days i talked to you..the things i got
for you..the love that never felt so deep before, would you
never ignore me? would you never avoid me? For all that
i done i never was obsess with you..just want to go the extra
mile for you..just wanted to be where you are..but knowing you
liked her even for a glimpse of her in the crowd..i know i'll never
stand that chance..the look in your eyes..the one you have for me
is just another friend..well i don't want to love you but i can't choose.





today was a mess..sprained ankle couldn't
get off the double deck bed properly..almost
fell in the toilet..went to fetch sarah..walk down
the stairs also almost fell..whats wrong with me??
im feeling the blues,feeling the crappy-ness..
messed up day today..hope tmr go BLUES
with gay boyfriend get that freaking cap
then he can cheer me up with his jokes..
and see jolyn there..so she can pressure me to do
piercings and tattoo and so i dont have to cry
than later go dinner with linette and cher cher's
friends with rachael for dinner..well i've gotta
mood for punching someone or something
and cutting myself and drinking and shafting
pills down my throat. and maybe murder myself
to taste what death in hell feels like and than coming
back to life..and tell the world "HELL YEAH!"
god! this suck! i dont know where else in earth
can i step to..everywhere i go i see his reflection..
i dont want to carry on in circles that never end..
well its not just another day..its fucking pissing me
off nowadays that life just seems so colourful and
everyone around is so glummy and that makes me sick
going to shave one part of my hair like some PUNK SHIT!
well considering if i should do that..well you'll see
the 2006 me..blooming short hair..like some shit..
but shorter than that like some bung hairstyles..
well to live out my dream i have to..but its hard to keep
my long hair back...AHH FUCK!














P.S. I LOVE YOU WAY TOO MUCH.
Chaotic TO Havoc