Saturday, July 19, 2008 ❤
❤Hope You Had Fun Breaking My Heart
TO: Whoever you know who you are.
Thanks for breaking my heart. you had fun didnt you?
9 months looking for an answer. when i thought i could
move on, you came back. but forgiven. friends again.
but broken. thanks for being there but i think i dont
need you anymore. i know what im feeling inside, saying
that i know it hurts, but i'll be fine without you the same
as those lonely 9 months hope you would come back some
day, but its just my wishful thinking.
im broken to do anything. if you are ready to leave again,
go ahead. cause you never needed me anyways. you can
have your way. im not going to look for you yet again.
i think i've done far too much for you and you did nothing
but instead hurting me further in my misery. I've made up
my mind. I need to move on and get far away from here.
Im surely you had everythingto throw it in my face.
Making me fall even deeper into my misery.
Avenging?
No point. I guess what goes round will
come round.its just a matter of time.
Sorry(s)?
I had enough. Its as good as a lie
till you understand a life you caused.
Turning time back?
You never treasured what you have till its gone.
Tears?
I cried enough. for you? i doubt.
Love?
Yours might be just a lie.
Leaving?
You Left. and you never came back.
taking you back, might you do the same?
Assurance?
Time will tell.
Decision?
I've made up my mind. Not to keep breaking
my heart, but lock it inside.
Up to You?
How you want it to be. Every step you take,
you might falter. Which step you do want to take?
A touch of poisen, seals my fate
fate wields its knife to cut the thread
in my perfection I have no want
a folly as fatal as sin
yet eyes still glint with greed untold...
has now become the end of me
have I not earned this, the gift of beauty withing?
Remembering the nights you whispered softly,
"Forever more my heart is yours"
Realize those words have died
As the life fades from my eyes all that I can say is
It may not be too late
Try again, make it perfect, make me worth it..or else, die for all i care
I have to put this off for so long but its never too late
white knuckles clench as red eyes burn
Now I grit my teeth and finish what I know must be
done to kill the memory of you
And you said this would be forever...
Help me sleep without your memory
And my shattered dreams collect dust on what used to be a lie
It haunts me no more and now you're gone, you've left me alone
I wasn't wrong to feel this way inside
"Give me your hand but i realize i just wanna say goodbye
Please understand I have to leave and carry on my own life.
Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light, and I'd hope you might
take me back inside when the time is right."
Goodbye, Goodnight, For Good.
b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y
