this is the part where you are suppose to scream! escape in to a world of dreams..❤

Saturday, August 30, 2008 ❤

❤li - BRA

♥LIBRA - THE PIMP
(9/23-10/22)

Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor. Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

is it true?
im caring?
SMART?(wtf)
the center of attention?
HIGH APPEAL?
has the last words?
Good to find and hard to keep?
fun to be around?
GOOD SENSE OF HUMOR?
thoughtful?
Always get what i want?
Loves to joke?
VERY popular??
SILLY FUN AND SWEET ( what in the world?! -_-! )

what is true is im extremly weird.
but i really wonder am i what it says?
or its just plain rubbish?

QUESTION MARK

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

❤

❤let things be on its own

i cant believe its 7 in teh morning and i'm blogging this.
*****YAWNS*****

this my tattoo.

this is xian's tattoo

PRISCILLA will do it soon!
((:

oh well.
it was a nice exprience of how it felt. needle going through.
hahas. now its time to suffer before the peeling starts.
my wrist area is aching. hahahas. HELP!!!

im going back to bed now. thanks to daddy for waking me up ))=

oh well. goodmorning to those that have to wake up early
OR NOT EVEN SLEEPING ((:

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

❤

❤star tattoo

first of all i wanna say this,
FAMILY MEMBERS, if you happen to read this
please dont go and tell my mum or pap! i will
personally slaughter you! and i'll hate your
mutha effing guts! and maybe not talk to you
for your entire effing life. so you decide.

any ways, YAY!! i got my black inked tattoo!
tmr than take photo. i very lazy now. and tired
and everything, but overall im happy.
thanks nikki and kor who payed for me (:
yay thanks! what a wonderful present for
an bday that is stuck with me for my entire life.
swwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet. ((:
oh well.. had a long day today
so imma go to sleep

GOODNIGHT TO ALL EMO/HARDCORE/SPASM FRIENDS!

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

Thursday, August 28, 2008 ❤

❤20th September

cant wait for 20th sep to come.
NO WORRIES NOTHING TO DO WITH MY BIRTHDAY!
(psssst. 25th sep okay okay)
oh well. NO!
hmm. im going to homeclub for some gig
rachael and i are going, going to ask
cassie, claire, kevin and sam if they wanna go
cause i wanna SEE HAWTSTUFF. ((:

btw backbeat is also performing. ((:
yay! oh well. hmm than on the 26th
im going to work for F1 race thing.
oh well clash with the day i wanna
go acid crue to do my tattoo.
SHANE HORINAKA coolest tattooist
ever seen! yesyesyes!

It not FAIR
im not perfect.
im not a perfect daughter, friend, HUMAN!
i can be really stubborn and hard to deal with.
i know im ignorant, uncouth(at times), demanding,bad tempered,
saying/do things i want, go against my parents will.
I can be a whole lot of nuisense

who doesnt have their flaws?

i made my mum and dad cried a whole lot.
coming home late, making mum and pap worry for me
i get into trouble with many things.
i lied, i stolen, got arrested, fought in fights,
hurt my family and friends with things i shouldnt say.
make them cry. i can be a real nightmare

im remorseful and regretful for everything.
im not perfect. and im trying my best to change!
im willing to forgive.

but i think i rather forgive than to revenge and hurt ppl again,
im done fighting, im done revenging, cause even if i want to say
things into your face. the strength of my words are going to hurt
you and i dont want to do all this. So i wish you'd stop talking
behind my back or try to poke me in the guts to insult me just
because you are jealous/aggorant/bitch/behemoth or for whatever reason.
i dont know. what did i do to you. if i were to insult you, i have
a million thing to say more than you got to say bout me.

SO...to err is to be human
i DO NOT deserve all this shit!
i deserve to be happy!
I DO!
so here is a big and nice

FUCK YOU _|_
here go a lil something.

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

❤

❤Unglamourous

VERY VERY VERY UNGLAM

went to Sim Lim and City Hall today with nikki.
wow! FUN FUN FUN! oh well.

seriously!! ppl have fashion sense problem.

i shant say anything. but i want to point
out this indian boy i saw in the mrt. i think
his sec2 or something, after nikki left at
eunos, he stand opposite me and stared and stared
at me. i mean like im no being RACIST,
but its irritating cause they way he looked at me
is like he wanted some trouble. SO I STARED BACK AT HIM,
hoping he'll make some noise than i call, daniel and gabby
to come down and kick his black indian ass! back to the story,
than a acsi guy left the same stop at me, so he stand up
and stood infront of me, than the indian boy was WAY SHORTER
than the guy, so anyway the indian boy stood up straight and
stared at the acsi guy, but the acsi guy couldnt give A SHIT
to him! please la. im mean seriously! its dumb to find problem
EVEN IF YOU GOT "MUSCLES" BIG FUCK!! i say!

seriously man! the finding trouble days are so over now.
MATURE UP MAN!!whatever. so DUMB!! act big. but actually NO BALLS!
FUCK OFF LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

FUCK OFF

but overall im happy today!
hahas.

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

Sunday, August 24, 2008 ❤

❤Blunt. Very Very Very BLUNT!

im pissed of right now.

well this post is going to be very blunt.
and i really dont care. cause its GONE TOO FAR!

well if you say meet up on a particular day & place,
everything is planned, DONT BACK OUT!
and than you give a whole lot of excuses.
and on the best note. On the day itself.
pisses me off. and i hate it when i have
to reject my dad for going out and etc.
esp on a sunday.

its really irritating. i dont mind if you told me
the night before. at least i can replan my weekend
ON THE DAY ITSELF?! PLEASE LA!its pissing off.

and now i cant go out. stuck at home. bloody fucking
4 walls! thanks man! so much for making my day.
what a week to start. such a disappointment.
its really disappointing. just have to mess up my day.
even if its a Sorry. can you change the fact im staying
home for the next 5 days. thanks for LETTING ME STAY HOME
TOTAL FUCKING 6 DAYS!

im not going to mention names.
many might know who im talking
about, keep it to yourselves.

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

Friday, August 22, 2008 ❤

❤one more moment

suddenly i feel sad.

what if one day i have a sickness?
forgetting all my love ones and friends?
all the things you done?
all that you gone through..
im so afraid. even im not going to know it.
but looking at it..its horrible fate.

right now.. i want to say
i love you to everyone.

esp MUMMY!
you're so near yet so far.

i've never felt so sad before.
all the beautiful memories i share.
make me happy looking at them
if i can relive the time again!
i miss everyone.

[[ for my other friends.. lexie and gravy..i know its bias.
my other blog. more intamate post for ya'll! ]]
i know i left out some of you. but by monday it'll be done!
((:

i love ya'll
i've spent 3-4 yrs with all of ya'll
i know im a rebellious girl,
hard to look out for. but i know its
for my own goooooood..im sorry for
everything i've done to grieve ya'll
esp linette and cheng jun!
its been a long time!!

enough of my bullshit!
here are SOME of the photos.

me myself and i, always cam whoring.

me and esther baby!

pris and me! horrifying toilet!!

me and rach babe!!

our names are there.

crazy biatches!

just the three of us cam whore-rs!!

class 4-1

craziest ppl you ever meet!

insane class!

me and sher

nette and me

us! being oh so fierce!! cmi.. we burst out laughing!!

cheng jun and me. wee chong being extra-ded!

me and diana!

i kissed a girl?

rach and i. recesssssssssss!!

PTS and me.

me and bern. d&t lesson

us cam whoring!

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

Tuesday, August 19, 2008 ❤

❤choke on this, BITCHES!!!! FUCK EVERYONE OF YOU!!

thought through everything.
some decision is made on my own.
some will feel the sudden change.
some will i will loose as friends.
but i think I need to stand up and
make my decision than too be the shadow.

what am i?
you made me.

the decisions made.
everything that occour
has a reason to start.

"what has happen to me
the past few days?"

arent you ppl asking the obvious.
you wanna know so much, but never
was standing with me on the ground
i fell on. im taking the fall again?

FOR WHAT?!

i think its time for me to stop fighting.
i just found where i belong.I'm coming home
I've been gone for far too long, not the place
i used to call "home" that was history.

if i die today. forget me. forget everything
that has me in it. hanging by a thread.

Take your time im only dying
Patiently, I kneel here dying
Deep inside is where it lies
Don't mind me for im only dying
What got me into this mess that devoured me
Lies and deceitful actions keep promising

I'll slit my throat with the knife I pulled out of my spine.
Maybe when you find out that I'm dead,
you'll realize what you did to me.

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

Monday, August 18, 2008 ❤

❤pictures of black and white, my unfinished story.

does saying goodbye ever means anything to you?

Just hung the phone with jamie.
jasie's sister. was talking bout
him. feeling down as ever like ytd.

nothing will change the fact.
so forget everything. forget
the past. Forget me. Forget
the memories. When you left,
you took everything except memories.
left me with a deep scar.

i'm just one chapter in your life.
someone meant to be forgotten.
i dont wanna go down memorey lane.

But this is it.

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

Sunday, August 17, 2008 ❤

❤Screwed Up

Ytd want to watch. Money No Enough.
end up not watching cause only got single seats.
)):

today was screwed too.
but its alright.

bro left me for work
leaving me at tekka
with lotsa bangalaaaaaa..
oh my.. i was wearing tube
and i had many pair of eyes
with black skin, starring
at me. damnnnnn! feel visually
molested.. )):

well than waited for rach at
clarke quay for a veryyyyy long
30 min. so hear this band, WOW!!
im in love..with the voice of the
lead singer.. he blew my mind aaway..
anyway than after them i went back
to the mrt area to wait for her..
damn went back. he was gone!!!
dammit! well found them on youtube ((:
HAPPY!!

oh wells contact lens killed me tdy.
spent 23 dollaaaaas on "magic black"
lenses... FUCK!! broke now. so much
for that. dammit.

before that i went to SongFa to
look see look see.. saw daniel..
YAY!! im getting my spongebob and partrick
drawing this sat ((: he better rmb!!
or else.. !! ((: hahas. so crap.

well went home around 8.30 ++
reached home at 10. niceeeeee.

freakinng tired.
HAPPY BDAY CHIN HOCK!!
((:

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

Thursday, August 14, 2008 ❤

❤Time to MOVE ON.

its been long.

well i had time to think over
what im going to do in life.
Am i going to stay this way
for next few months of my life?

i dont know. im just so tired
of life. i dont know what is what
no more. Love is just something
i walked pass it. im over everyone.
SOMEONE asked me what is love to me now?

now its bullshit. i cant feel.
and im afraid. when i see HIM,
my heart beats real fast. but
when i think of him, i dont know..
i dont feel it. maybe im not meant
to love. FUCK IT.

well. im happy and not happy
the way i am living now.

=(

Who am i?? you made me.
When you left, you took everything,
but memories.

he left with memories for me to
rmb. memories that hurt. memories
that make me cry. memories that i
rmb i used to love you and always have.
moments that wasnt meant to last.
to america with your big dreams.

open the box that i kept photos.
looking back at the past. i had fun.
you had fun. we had. all that we had
was once a part of me. but now it seem
so far. the nights i spent with you,
haunted my dreams again. why did you
have to call me? cant you just leave me
to live my own life. you moved on.
but maybe the time i thought of you,
you were so charming. even though
the time we were together was only 8 mnths 09 days.
friendship of 6 yrs. was hard to maintain.

when you made the decision to leave.
i was forced to let go. i wonder how
can you be so good at hurting someone
with words that would kill them a lil
inside. I HATE YOU. i could have not
been bothered bout you. WHATEVER.

thanks for tearing me into two
and ripping me in to three.
all that you ever do.
you have what you want.
leave me alone...

EVERYONE! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE....
))=

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

Sunday, August 10, 2008 ❤

❤Sim Lim Hell yet Heaven

ytd was at marina than to clarke quay
with yi xian rach and pris. well.
crappy place in marina. hahahs..
very crowded sooo. went to clark quay
to eat. i ate only a quarter of hor fun,
for the first meal of the day which was dinner.
something is wrong with my tummy.
i just cant figure out. but anyways
headed basement to get nai cha.
yum yum...!! and cheesy delights.
but still i wanted to vomit...........
sooooo. whatever. was fun!

today. was hell and heaven..
went to sim lim.. daddy maybe getting
me ipod or sony mp4. for my bday.
quite excited! but im still not
looking forward to my bday.
only the gadgets.now waiting for mummy
to call me to ask what i want.
i want a DS light or psp.
or if i want a iphone..
hmmmmm hahahas!

well for all the hurt,
i have to go through ALONE!
MAKE IT UP TO ME!!!

hahas well even a mp3 is fine for me
as long i dont have to use my phone..
im okay with it. hahas.

hmm
saw sherilyn! yup.

well im not feeling good right now.
so imma go to bath (i just got home)
well than off lala land. ((:

blog soon again.
i hope no calls tonight.
((: just grant my wish!!

goodnight folks.
*yawnssssss*

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

Wednesday, August 6, 2008 ❤

❤I wished He'll do that for me.

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
saying, "if you see this girl can you tell her where I am"

Some people try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

Cuase If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "son you can't stay here"
I said, "there's someone I'm waiting for If it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world

Maybe i'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
cause you'll know it's just for you
Im the man who can't be moved

Chorus 2x

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

Tuesday, August 5, 2008 ❤

❤2nd post of the day

well its very clear im not
talking to =[[YOU]]=.
yeah you know who you are.

please stop calling my friends.
you are a pain in me hole.
your on my last nerve.
so FUCK OFF before i screw your
lil face in public and embarass you
there. Damn right i will.

just piss off

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

❤

❤under the transperant roof

last night got a call from carol
was ask to go to kevin gan's house
they were going to watch some movie
marathon till dawn. so got changed,
hopped on the cab all the way to
bukit timah. bloody taxi fare was 20 ++.
WHATEVER..

WE WATCHED:

- step up 2
- one missed called
- harold and kumar
- P.S I LOVE YOU ♥
- meet the spartans

had a great time.
but i didnt watch one missed call.
i was scared so i went up with fed
and d to k's room. man...
he redone his room damn nicely..
i was blown away! he's celing was done into
a glass that can see through.. oh fuck!
that was nice. i wish i was him. only a girl.
haha. well reached home around 9 this morn.
slept till 4 i think. was having a hangover too
the night was crazy man.

havent had a party inna long time man.
and this is one of the best. kevin's
parents rocked. they got us alcohol.
but now they stone. hahahs. well.
i had fun.. this sat most likely we're
going to Zouk or MOS. yayyyyyy!!
lol.. having fun in clubs..
ayeya cant wait.

made new friends. jeral, sharon & mia.
jake was cool. he was so hmmm ((:
hawt. he dropped it like its hot.
got down to the beats with his bboy moves.
i was like AHHHHHHHHH!! WOAHHHHHHHH!!
yape. he is a solo singer. nice voice.
picked up the guitar and he just started singing,
apologize, nice man i tell you.
damn i forgot to ask his number so we could hangout
but i know this sat if we are going out,
i'll see him again. hahas.

it was fun! i had fun. havent laughed so
much till i couldnt breath and my tummy hurt.
yio ming was so funny. lots of jokes and weird
actions from his friends. hahas.

hmm i wished time would stall too.
shh its a secret. i wont say anything.

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

Sunday, August 3, 2008 ❤

❤Festival Of Praise

Living rain, fall again,
over my life, over my land.
living rain, wash my heart again.

well FOP was great.
presence of God was there,
empowering over everyone.

embrace was there for me.
"your mercy saved me"

tears were rolling down
my cheeks. Hillsong songs,
were great, parachute was goooooood!
but i cant deny, DELIRIOUS IS THE BEST!!!
(even though they arent there)

well after service ytd,
was waiting for chartered bus,
bloody mother and daughter talking
bout est and me or smth,
than tell her daughter to talk softer.
WHATEVER! well than daughter push est,
than est hit me, well i said aduuuuuuu.
fat lard turn, est say" SHE PUSH ME!"
well to me, suck up to life your fat
and est is small. faggot!

than the last chartered bus came.
i got on first than est was behind me,
than that bitch got up later.
est was like. "fat what!"

oh ya i almost push mother and daughter
onto the road. i was so pissed and i almost
hit her "OH SO PRECIOUS FAT DAUGHTER"
c'mon man suck up to life, NERD!

well that was almost the whole day.
hmm. woke up by sis, so much for a damn
soft toy, slept at 4 in the morn,
bloody hell, than whatever, watch
water horse, star ship trooper and
meet the spartans, than tonight,
season 3 part one and two of Prison Break
MARATHON! its insane! i got movie fetish!
((:

well that all
still thinking if i should go
visit lex and the rest at singfest.
but so hot..hmm...yup.

lets see i guess..
i wanna watch my taiwan dramas now.
update soon again.!!

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

Saturday, August 2, 2008 ❤

❤Nutty

FOP was great.
FUUUUUUUNNNNN!
hmm. Sang till
i lost my voice.
but Amen! i got
it back todayy!
hmm..im tired..

well photos are with
pris so i'll upload
it later when i see
her online..

all the photos
through the week.
hmm..

i know my post are crap.
they are so short.
well i got nothing to say
yup.

see you soon, fed!
take care!
i want chocs
when you come back
from your trip!

laura xxxxxx

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y