❤goodbye goodnight, forever


For now i got to go my own way.
im am who i am, im afraid to change.

im exhausted from fighting, pretending, faking everything
even just a smile. im tired. i just wanna go my own way for now.
i wanna be alone. let me be. stop pushing me to the end of my limit.
I cant breath. i need time.

my life isnt all bout love. so no worries.
but its taken a toll. ever since that XX sep.
my heart just shattered and i feel nothing.
wierd. but i think its over for me. i need to let go.
let go of everything, let them pass me. till i
find that special thing. for now...........















I'M GOING TO FLY HIGH.

❤time flies
i was 16 then, school and stuff..
now i've grown older another year,
times flies fast.

you told me two years,
and now left 2 months.
you'll be back from america (2006)

dammie told me five years
and now we're left with 2 years,
you'll be back from canada. (2005)

one day than one week than a month
than a year than a decade than a centuary.

it was ten years ago, a little strange puppy sitting on my bean bag.
than its been 3 months since my friend left me. left me to weep alone.
i miss her.

time flies. with a blink of an eye, many are gone,
little are left, are you sure you'll live for tomorrow?
why not now? why not today? live for today cause
you dont know what tomorrow has installed for you.

do what you have to do,
make up for the mistake you made, for you dont know
when the person you hurt will leave,
tell the person you love, that you love them, before its too late.

dont regret once they are gone,
for time waits for no man.

live for today.
i'll give the best of me, if you want me to.

❤OFFICIALLY SICK!
Laura is OFFICIALLY SICK

i threw up badly and i'm turning purple now

but im going to give a THANK YOU to E361 and N105
for celebrating my bday for me ((:

hahas. i blushed badly.. )): so paiseh
oh wellly.. imma go bath than sleep
cause im feeling really sick now...
i wanna throw up again but got
nothing to vomit anymore )):
sobbenceeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!





well goodnight folks. laura is going to lala land now.
so GOODNIGHT!

❤Happy Fucking Birthday To Me!!

❤happy time
went out with niks and rach
went to clake quay


Gmax the jap guy wanted to give me a free ride
cause its my bday.. but sorry to say i rejected.
cause i wont go without my bgfs!! XPP!

anyway we went to eat tcc...
yeahhhhhhhH!!! did 2 vids..
wahhahahahahas....
"HUH? HUH EH LUM PA JIAO!"
wahahahahahaha!

im seriously lazy to put the photos up
so i'll do it another day..
btw....im going there tmr ((:

yay imma disturb that jappy guy tmr
hahahas make him take us all up ((:

hehes!!








oh well
secret ......









i find the jappy guy cute
but i still stupidly love hawtstuff...

❤Beautiful in Black, Pretty in Blue

thank you to those that already
have given me bday pressies!!
xie xie ni!



you ask what the fuck is this??
this is my new mp4, yes!
i know. i want my ipod.
but i'll make do with this first.
THANK YOU DADDY FOR THIS!!


tdy went out to lunch with linette
thanks for lunch and the pressie!!!



well! this year isnt a very good bday pressie
for some PEOPLE that crashed and dashed
my pretty lil dream! mutha fucking ass hole!!
it sucks. it really does!! damn! IM NOT HAPPY!

)):










I'M OFFICIALLY OVER HIM!

BUT I STILL HATE HIM!

❤life blog invaders

❤Avenged SevenFold Is In Town!!
CALLING ALL HEADBANGERS

❤commit your crime, in your deadly time
if its another lie, another time.

decit in your own lies
mirror pondering in your face.
"is this who you really are? is this what you really want?"

walking in the streets in the night,
feeling scared and cold, no friends to call,
"what did i do to deserve this"

looking at your phone,
no calls nor texts.
no one for you to share you're life with.

glance on your photo,
not one at the side
no soul mate for you to love.









reflect on your actions,
ponder why friends left you to die alone,
wonder why your fate is such a disaster.

❤crazy colours!
misery loves to dye hair!








TADA!








went on as planned, my hair is in a total chaos!
jet black base, blonde and pink. this photo was
taken without make up cause i just woke up,
so just woke up = look like gui! so yeahhhhhhh!!
((:

nikki straightened her hair. dont look much different
but more mature to say. but prettyyyy-ish!!

pris dyed jet black to cover her white hair,
and did streaks of blonde. nice, but too dark,
i couldnt see her blond-ish!

anyways

I'M LOVIN' IT! ((:


thats all folks.

❤Lazyness
okay, had a great time ytd.
came home, my mood down
falled straight away, fucking
dad scolded me, okay whatever..

im f-ing lazy to upload the photos.
so i'll do it some other time.
anyways. im staying at home the
whole day again, fucking shit
im fucking broke, dammit,
ass hole, okay enough of my
vulgarities, anyway, i wont
see jasper till 29th sep. wow
way past my b-day.
anyways im not bothered to
celebrate my bday, just want to
sleep, yeah, friends please dont
be an classic arse hole!



DON'T BOTHER!

❤rip it off!
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Laura
2. girl
3. babe

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. laura
2. liLsaint
3. -

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. My hair
2. My eyes
3. My tattoo

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. My temper
2. Bitch slaps
3. -

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. I'm chinese
2. I speak eng
3. I eat pork

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. Pervs
2. Ghosts
3. Insects

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. Music
2. Friends
3. Cam whore

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW
1. Tees
2. Skinnys
3. Retard look.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTES
1. Avenged SevenFold
2. SecondHand Serenade
3. Bullet For My Valentine

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW)
1. Hearts Burn Into Fire - BFMV
2. Bite To Break Skin - Senses Fail
3. My Heroine - Silverstein

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE, IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER.
1. I love HAWTSTUFF
2. I'm a total bitch
3. I'm not a cam whore

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. The Eyes
2. Body Physique (i dont wanna hug lards or a bag of bones!)
3. A nice face (i dont go out with monkey faces)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. hanging out with my friends
2. Being with fun people
3. being a total lovable bitch (7 days a week, but part time)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. Drink
2. Be Crazy
3. Sleep

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED
1. Hairstylist
2. Make-up artiste
3. -

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. New York
2. Aussie
3. Mexico

THREE NAMES YOU LIKE
1. Sushi
2. Lard
3. Poop

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Be a successful bitch
2. Tell him i love him
3. Get rich.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. I put on make up
2. Look at hunks ((:
3. Stares into the mirror alot and takes lotsa photos!

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. I'm loud
2. I dont sit properly
3. I drink beer

THREE PEOPLE YOU ARE TAGGING TO DO THIS QUIZ
1. Niks
2. Xian
3. Pris

❤ I CAN'T WAIT!
cant wait for that date! 20thsep
cant wait to see him!



SIMPLY CANT WAIT!!!

❤fantasy fight!
well went out with nikki yixian prisi!
hmm suppose to go for rue's bday, but
most of alex's friends and him cant go,
so i didnt go. oh well.

went to the pennis...sula! (heyhey)
yeah.. so anyway. than pris got her
skinnys, than headed to the entrance
to meet xian, while walking there
this nikki chan shi min, damn mean!
scold the shuai ang mo, "MO PAING!"
bastard sia.. the angmo boy was like smiling,
and i was like -_-" hahas!

oh well than headed down to marina,
smsed mummy if got stash, but she on mc.
damnnnn.. so anyways than head to the
arcade. wow. played poool than PARAPARA!
wahlau... fucking AH LIANS (2 again) stare stare stare
fuck them la.. ass wipe! the wet ones for the elephant!

than went tp mac.. talk bout BOYS for pris..
hmm not bad.. hahahas.. hooked her up
with some guy. so lets see their progress as it
goes. hmm nikki fixed the ipod. so shiok. but the
ipod is the extrem old model. but like WHO CARES?!

oh well. than went home. pris and nik went to pick my sis.
yah.. lotsa fun.


Happy Birthday CASSIE & CLAIRE(tdy)

Happy Birthday ELIZABETH (12 sep)

Happy Birthday RUE (14SEP)

❤congratulations, you made me hate you!
STOP BEING SO THICK SKIN!

im sick and tired of the same thing you do!
stop asking me, as if i care! i dont! i really DON'T!

❤4bia
hmm. we watched 4bia.
oh my god! damn scary la.
the footage's are extremly
disturbing!

EXCIDINGLY AND ACHINGLY
DISTURBING!!!

damnn! but i was laughing my ass off too!!
me and nik... oh my god.. kept hiding under
our jackets.. LOL! anyways, i screamed
excidingly loud.. and ppl were just laughing.
half way the show, cause to scary,
I NEEDED TO PEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
but i held my bladder cause i didnt want to miss a thing.


its a must watch la. very nicely shocking!
((:




rating for the show: 3.5 stars

❤lets drift on.
going out to watch movie with nikki later..

❤love'em!
had my bak kut teh at last.

❤Escaping the Fate
WRITE ME AN ESCAPE
& ESCAPE WITH ME.







I can't hold on any longer,
im hanging by a string.
my mind is in a whirl,
my emotions are fading,
my life is just exhausted.

"let me go, of all that the past wrote
let me go, of the future that is predicted,
let me go, let my hand go. let me fall,
fall into a sleep i'll never have to wake up to.
A dream that's so peaceful and quiet."









what more is there to say?
write me an escape, love.
& escape with me, my love.

❤shake it! bounce it, crank it!
lets start from ytd.
hip hop class was good.
but i started having
gastric. hmm, yes i know
im not taking good care
of myself again! right whatever.

some stupid 2 ah lian point middle
finger at us after they left the bus.
wanna act ah lian, dare not point
at us when they were in the bus,
play irritating techno so damn loud
some more say, "uncivilised" HELL-O
man! look at yourself first. almost kena
scolded by some malay guy, but they didnt
really care. Please man. this 2 stupid ah lian
are worst than dumb blondes and bimbos!
damn. they were making a spectical of'em self.


oh well, whateverrrrrrrr~~~!

yong zhi, to my suprise was
our dance instructor. i came into
the room i was like :O
HEH!! YONG ZHI!!!!! lol!
he was hilarious with his movements,
reminded me of Nic***** P***
so yeah. about the same humor.
oh well. hahahs.

anyway. left around 9.10 pm
than errr went to tm to eat mac.
lol!

oh well today SUCK
suck so bad. i went home.
anyways im extremly moody too!
btw THANK GOD! when i went home,
less than 5 min, it started raining!
WOAH! what a good decision.
hahahs. oh well,

overall, today suck so bad.

❤Happy Ending.
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning,
stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen,
I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning,
something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong,
I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on
This is the hardest story that I've ever told

No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love [repeat]

I feel as if I'm wastin'
And I'm wastin' everyday

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.

❤Write me an escape
i think i've grown up, but not enough.
i think i've matured , but not enough.

i think i still need lotsa guidience.

its been very long since i've really
been serious with life. ever since
quiting courts, i've been monkeying
around, maybe when my this next job,
i'll be more serious. no la, its HAVE TO!!
got no choice. but i pray by the grace of god,
i'll have a good job. AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

anyhooooooooos!



Notice me, take my hand
are we strangers?
carry on without me
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small that I make believe,
that you are here.
It's the only way I see clear
what have I done,
but you seem to move on easy,
I may have made it rain, please forgive me.
My weakness may have caused you pain,
but now, at night I pray that soon your face will fade away..











I wanna wake up from this nightmare-ish chapter.
I dont wanna linger around with all this hanging around me.
hope your face will fade away......

❤I Love Your Vampire Heart
I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

❤keep bragging!
really. some friends i know seriously should DIE!
you wanna brag bout something you've done shamelessly
and you think you are A SOMEONE!! c'mon man! i cant help it
but give the face of "WHAT THE FUCK?" is that all you know??

and kaninabeichaocheebye fuck the person that called
d and was like "a! fuck your mother/father!" and included
some off us and i wont say more, and he hung the phone.
if you dare to call and say all this show yourslef la.
pua chee bye, if i found out who are you, im so going to
kick your arse to hell!

and i never used hokkien vulgarity for so long in my blog,
so it shows how much the ah lian-ness in me is about to
break free(ooh backbeat's first single)anyways,you can see
how angry i am! i am so about to murder that effing mutha fucker!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! if you happen to be my friend, you
better not let me know who you are cause im so going to
murder you,





THEY SAY I'M COCKY, AND I SAY:

"WHAT?! YOU AINT BRAGGING MOTHERFUCKER

IF YOU BACK IT UP!"


to hell with your arse!

❤purple blood clot
shit imma get into trouble.
dad said if he found any tattoo on me
OH SHIT!!! FUCKING SHITTER HEAD!
IM FUCKING DEAD! dammit

suggestions ppl!!!!!!!!!










I NEED HELP!!!


please help!

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