❤12,500 teens!

IM NOT SATISFIED ENOUGH!!

NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!

SHIT!

b i t t e r s w e e t _ d a y

❤where you go? i miss you so...
"Where you go? i miss you so. Seems like its been forever that you've been gone. "



And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone..

your absence makes me feel so alone.
Reminiscing the days we had to share.
Reminiscing the days you waited for me after work.
Reminiscing the days you celebrated joy.

though its been two years now. we've finally moved on.
but still very much miss the days you spent singing your crappy songs.

miss the times you cooked me crappy 3 minute noodles.
missed doing silly stuff together. though you know
you had my heart for at least the most of the part.
though our times is over, and we fell apart. i had the best of you.






well work's good. im getting tired sooon!! i wanna sleeeeeeeeeep!
someone buy me sweeeeeeets!! im having a sweeeeeeet toooooth now!!

❤Ques: HOW WAS THE CONCERT??
One Word, AWESOME!
FUCKING AWESOME!!

they sang

critical acclaim,
afterlife,
unholy confession,
sieze the day,
little piece of heaven,
scream,
beast and the harlot,
gunslinger.


dammit. they are way better than HIP HOP!
sad to say, more tickets were sold ((:
awww whatever!! well. it was fucking niiiice!!
the concert blew my head away!!!
well im so happy!!

5years i waited for them to come, hours of intense queing, 1 and a half hour of screams!!
what more can i ask for, that hell was heaven for me to be in the concert. all the hard
work and sweat was worth it, everything was good! its way better than winning jackpot in toto!
woooohooooooooooo!!! i was happy, and nik and me were walking in the carpark, shouting
singing, headbanging and one person mosh, danced, and went insane!! the concert is insane!!!!

inside, i went insane! i screamed my lungs out,
during scream, i almost cried! i felt so happy!
till i wanted to cry like wtf right? hahahas!!

hmm everything was good! well they promised us they'll come back,
and they said this crowd of fans are loud. even outside we were singing,
they could here it, even the cheers! queing was good! very high spirit
ppl and kelvin was good in bring the crowd's spirit up. and some loud guy!
well had lotsa laughter. hahahs. hmm hardy was nice enough to let me and cheryl
to que with him, happy he's still staying in the company! yay!!! hahahas.


well this much i have to say
but im not recovered from Avenged sevenfold concert yet!
and it wont be soon before long!!

diamonds are rough!

❤I cant wait
I CANT CONTAIN MY EXCITMENT!

Its today, and i've been waiting for them to come since 2006!
im not insane! but i ARE insane!!!! i cant contain my screams!!
its like a little piece of heaven, an unholy confession!!

oh im are really insane!! im getting their official shirt later!
album and all other shit! FUCK EVERYONE MAN! IM GOING
FOR THEIR CONCERT!! THEY SHOULD HOLD IT ON SATURDAY!
THAN SERVICE WILL BE FILLED WITH A7X SCREEEEEEEAAAM!
EH FREE MUSIC BOY!!

i ARE insane, i are insane, i are, are insane!!!
bye folks! see ya'll in the mosh pit!!!

❤everything but HUGE!!
work was good.
boss was wow.
very slack. but okay la
fun.

sometimes i really wonder bout big shot shit bosses.
so what we are just telemarketers? we're just doing our job.
dont have to reply us, "its none of your business." please la
you think we want to bother??

Hardy and Yuansheng got scolded by this arjen blom ytd.
so tdy we called that blom shit, and yuansheng called, so he
wasnt in, than ys like, eh hold on ah, FUCK YOU! and he hung the phone!
fuck sia damn funny. and now everyone is like calling each other's extension
and like, "is this arjen blom?? wanna suck my dick??" and loads of
other fucking shit la. its fucking funny la. but sadly..............................


hardy and yuanshengs last day tmr. so new fella coming in.
wtf?? no fair. i was just begining to have fun!!! and they are going now.
dammit. but was fun though. hmm will be going to concert
with hardy tmr. and both of us cant stop saying "A7X is tmr" x 2000000
like its so long la.. finally


finally, one fucking month ago, it has come!
im so elated! hmm I CANT WAIT!!
gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood!!!!


rahhhhhhhhhhh
fuck ya'll mutha fuckers that aint going!!
ya'll gonna miss this! well well!!
its gonna be good. ppl you shoud go!!

❤i stalked your dreams
I ARE HAPPY,
met up with niks.
and she might be going to Avenged Sevenfold CONCERT!
YAY!!!!!

will be meeting jasper. so most likely will join him in the concert.

THANKS ONCE AGAIN JASPERUB!!!! LURBEU VERY VERY MUCHOS!!

hmm, i got a unfriendly surprise msg today. whatever.
i dont care, dont bother, dont matter no more. ((:
its all different now. its all over. yeah. i are happy.

hmm. counting down from now 4 more days!
and i cant wait. this is so shiok! i cant contain the
excitment that's bout to explode in me, i wanna scream
out loud im going! but its in the night, and my dad's sleeping,
so most likely he'll throw some chopper at me )):

well its a amusement for me how some ppl can actually
ask e if i wanna ask them anything i wanna know. well
if you got something you wanna tell me, dont ask me
such questions. im not bothered to ask, and i aint afraid to ask..

oh well. i dont really care. dont really bother no more.
even now he msged me, i have no more eagerness to
read. i just get so bored and lazy. im sorry. its all over
unless you change, there might be a 1percent change of
impression of you. but for now. i dont care.


oh well thanks for reading a piece of junk.
i didnt believe, i stalked ghey's dream last night.
how unholy???!

❤Bite To Break Skin
i hate being awake alone.
so damn scary. well its like 1 plus now.
so it really suck. later dad's stall open again
yay. money to go shopping ((:

fucking sick shit. my whole damn body aching!
later interview at 1pm, i needa wake up at 10
so i can watch tv and my computer. mutha fucking shit.
well. trust me, im not okay. im not fucking okay.
so those that aint close to me, PLEASE STOP CALLING ME
or TEXTING ME! its fucking pissing me off!

and please ah. i beg of you, i dont need lame shit coming on my phone
like " hi whats that guys number? i'd like to fix him up" this sick shit!
this my problem and i'll solve it myself. i got myself into this sick fuck
situation, i'll get out myself. i will not mention what other sms came
but i'd love if you ppl stop asking whose he, how old, name?, wtf??
please. you want to know him you could go to the bungee and ask yourself.
i dont need all this. if you are supportive enough, stop asking so much!

and if you reading this you either you are bored or you have shitload time in your hands.
its common sense though.

anywhooos.
im to retire to bed, cause i shit tired, and i'll be dreaming of me hugging zacky v!
and maybe get to make out with him ((: what lame shit!!!!!?
hahahas. thats what you get when im tired, all sorts of nonsense comes out.
hahahas goodbye jerks and darls!

❤i'll start feeding all my addictions

❤Some Awesome Shit
This Dude is awesome!!



this is an asian, and i think he's damn hot!! ((: *winks*



JUst a song most are familia toooo! still by the hot asian dude!



he's always on time!! to all drummer in the making, LEARN FROM HIM!
ASIAN TRAVIS BARKER!! And he's still HAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWT!!



Lady drummer man!! She's good!



She's still fucking core bonish gooooooood! (dan start drooooooling!)



Favourite song, and she did it well!



Senses Fail!



best song for competition and people you wanna hit in the face



Credits to this dude!! he's FUCKING SICK!! sick for covering this song!!
this is my favourite song!!



SUGARCULT'S THE SEX! All time!!
drum cover!!



this the guitar section!

this hottie is hot!!



i still cant enough of him ((: *wink wink!*





well i've got alot.
but go find'em yourself.
the girl is my idol for now!
she's hot thou! DANIEL START DROOLING!!

❤wake the demon in me.

❤Motley Crue Today ((:

❤'Saint is back!

❤motley crue

❤Im done with this shit, and i aint passing the baton. so suck up to it... ((:


the night i tawn with nik and rach.

so anyways. i'm already missing hiiiiiiim!
andy helped me admitted that i like him.
so okay he's got the truth. but i aint going
with him cause its going to fast and i wanna
take things slow. so WAIT!!

I'll get attached before New Years Day ((:
hahahas. ya keep dreaming man!

i wanna go single for exactly a year on 29th November ((:
how sick and wicked can i be?

soooo anyways. My wicked sick nutshell is downloading
cradle of the filth's song. suck on it. its Satanic!!! ((:
whhhhhhhhhhhooooooooohhhhh shiok man! now going to find slayer's song
all time sick songs!!

so the song i just download is hallowed be thy named by cradle of filth.
dammit it sounds damn sick man! its so fucking sick and wicked!
their satanic mantra is even more wicked!

Arch angle. dark angel,
Lend me thy light,
Through death's veil,
til' we have heaven in sight!

keep saying this in the night,
you'll get the goospy bumps.

oh well, i decided. the life i used to lead will stay in my blood forever. ((:
screw yourself if you aint happy. anyway im leaving, never looking back again ((:
not going to stress myself to be the person you want me to be. cause im not
perfect, never will be perfect in your eyes. im done walking this road, im tired.
im going back, back, back, to where i left the life, for others to finish.
but looks like i have to leave this life i lead, being a false pretend. im tired of lying.
lying im okay, lying im leading a better life. i'd stay where i lasted being really
happy being myself. imma disaster that can never be tied down. ((:
i love my life. i know my principle, i've got my values. i know what i want,
and being like this is not what i want. i want something more. i want to be
different from the crowd. and all of you are stopping me. why? WHY SO SERIOUS??
its not like i wanna be a clone of all of you. being so the same? such posers. being
all like, so dull and mono. i dont care if everyone thinks im scary or fierce.
Ever heard of a idiom? not to judge the book by its cover?
im more to than just a girl who loves tattoo and piercings and loud music,
which ass holes call it noise. Fuck you all! cause im consume by them.
anyway i suck at school and church, so whats the point of being there when im being looked
down as a PUNK/SCENE KID who is useless? im only a scene kid what??
i cant do anything for anyone.
so FUCK ya'll cause im smarter than everyone of you mutha fuckers.
who gives a shit what school or collage you came from?
All are hypocrites. life is full of lie. so stop living in your own lie.
come out and see the world. how are you going to stop war and riots??
when all you do is pray or do nothing but insult the government and shitload??
kiss my mutha fucking arse! YA'LL ARE HYPOCRITES TOO!
read the satanic bible and understand the shit loads there!

who gives a shit to small kids too? i was expose to everything when i was small
so why should i give them respect when i never had them? i was more mature then
them when i was younger and so should they, stop acting all cute and stuff, it disgust me ALOT!
and what exposure did i said? what? tell me la! use your brains. if you keep protecting them,
they will never learn the pinch, or understand the things, than if one day they happen
to pass all this, are you gonna be there to protect them? are they going to survive?
im not asking you to not expose them to everything, but learn from others mistakes as well.
this is so common sense. no wonder all they do is complain bout every single shit.
deal with it if you're family is screwed. deal with all the abuse than complain..
deal with all the tears that never stop falling, cause they never will stop. it lives in you.
in your blood. deal with the scars from the past that haunts. you cant do anything bout it.
deal with the death of a love one, and move on,
deal with your parents being divorced, and move on,
it hurts i know. but how long can you keep crying and mourning bout it?
and does it every occour to you, there are ppl worst than your situation.
SO DEAL WITH YOURSELF. DEAL WITH THE LIFE YOU HATE!
DO SOMETHING BOUT IT. THAN COMPLAINING.


if you aint happy with all this shit i just typed, than you might
wanna look at the top left hand side of my blog, and click "leave" cause its my blog
and i can say WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT! and so what?? confront me? come only.
you're more than welcomed man! and cause if you cant deal with what i said, imma say more.
so leave now, if you cant take it ((:





dont push my limit. i can be very unlimited, but do it too much,
i'll turn nasty and i might bring you down with me ((:
DON'T. DON'T misjudge or underestimate my limits.

my dad doesnt say anything, so you've got no fucking right.
i may be disappointment, i bum around, the biggest bum in your world.
but MY LIFE is tooooooooo short to be something else and not have fun,
unlike you pathetic LOOOOONNNNNNGGGGG life. im sorry.
my life is short. i may die tmr. and i dont wanna regret not having fun.
so fuck yourself and be like every other people in the world and be pathetic.

i have no sympathy for you life suckers, just cause you cant be that someone,
you pull others to strive to be that someone you cant, just to indulge yourself
in self sympathysm, like " oh i helped them to get there but in the end i get nothing too.."
ahhhhh fuck yourself. cause you're mutha fucking pathetic la! and also when you
try to get one to stop living the life they want, why? are you jealouse that you're at the
top that you cant get down, and it gets quite lonely? so you gotta pull everyone up
with you? and be at the same level of dumbnessy?? im not being against anyone.
but this how i feel so if you feel im against you, like i ALWAYS SAY...... SCREW YOU!
i say how i feel. i do what i want, i've been living a life you wanted me to, i did it,
im tired, im leaving. cause i aint a puppet and i aint dumb like the rest,
being something they can have but taken by all your bloody so called rules!
i respect the religion and rules, but something being so strict, kills one inside and
that makes it harder for one to live life happy. im sorry. but this what i've been through.

im through with all this shit. im fading thinner by the minutes passing.


You've got your commitments,
And I've got mine.
So deal with my rejection
It's a part of life.



and if you actually read this whole paragraph, either you're bored or you've got a shitload of time on your hands. o.O

















I DO WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT!

❤Letter To W.S.
everything found, was you.
everhthing lost, was you.
everything was you.
forgetting was never you.

you're at the back of my mind.
last thing i dont wanna lose,
is the memory we shared.

looking back, i very much enjoyed our friendship.
but the future of our friendship seems bleak.
even though we have seperated our ways, i treasured
this friendship.








P.S. Everyone's changing, but memories, they dont.

❤The Bitch Is Back
i are back!!
after 2days of not eating and 1 and a half day of no proper sleep!
arse to ass man! power to the gudegarrrrr!!
dammn it. i still are tired..

one of the best and bittersweet tawning.
so we met many weirdo and andy pop the question alr
so i was like "you are so hilarious!!! HA-HA-HA!!" whatever!!
House bunny was so funny so after the show we head down to
clarke quay by walking, almost a freaking hour... walking in circles....
the best roadmap, mr brent. ((: hahahs. oh well. best man!!
but in the end we got there. and all the shit..
so morning came. bloody weird ang moh was like, HI MY NAME IS JOHN.
WHO GIVES A FUCKING SHIT TO YOUR NAME?? LIKE, -HELL-OOOOO??
you lame shit man.. and i was like in the morning getting this mutha fucking shit??
wow?? what a way to start the day having a weird shit talking to me.
and i was like freaking shocked?? and frighten,.. so i wasnt my friendly self..
so choke on that if you aint happy. fuck yourself. hahahas. or the bark of the tree. ((:

oh well.. i are happy. and shit up. but WHATEVER!!
my new hairstyle is like wow!! and its power to the gudegarrrrr!!
power baby!!! like stepping onto the accelerator ((: with full speed!!!
hahahs. LOL! A7X is coming and i are HAPPY!!

Liza is getting married on the 8th of november.. and i are invited!!
yay! cool shit man!! havent see her in a long time!! hahas! bloody shitzz!!
i love miss her! my sister man!! hahah!! oh well.

damn shiok. ((: so im having a power packed fun!! A7X headbanger!!
and i are getting the shirt so fuck yourself if you aint happy ((: i are going
die also still go. Stop me and you're dead! hahahas!! ((: oh well..
24th OCTOBER here LAURA COMES!!!

M.Shadows, Synyster gates, Zacky Vengeance, The Reverend and Johnny Christ ((:
They ROCK MY WORLD OFF TO INSANE!!
i really need to mutilate my insanity ((:
i are really insane and are mad! and idk how many of ME are going ((:
aye aye!! i do really need to mutilate insanity!!


oh well. i gtg sleep. cause i lack of sleep.
i'm alil fever-ish. cause i havent eaten in 2 days
and not enough sleep but lotsa soft drinks so i
think my body's immune system isnt working like
the speed of light ((: so goodnight ya'll!


"YAWNING IS CONTAGIOUS! SO IM GOING TO YAWN!!!"

❤Genetic Design For Dying

❤Ticket Outta Loserville
we're going on the bungeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

oh well. tmr is diana's birthday.
going for the chalet. OH WELLS!
yay!! hahahs.

hmm
monday went out to sell niks guitar..
sooooooooo.. hmm nikki brought us to brent's bro's
restaurant, hmm wayne doest look a thing
like brent. seriously. hahas. i was like :O shock!!
She treated us to dinner hahahas. lol!
oh wells lotsa laughter and a cup of beer.
hahaas. wayne is cute ((: hahahas. he's got
the MAN look! hahahas. LOL! like whatever la..
next one will be rach ((: i've done it so its your turn babe-a-lious

well tmr im tonning outside. mid night walk from clarke quay to city hall
to orchard maybe.. hahas. LOL! imma have fun tmr.
so whoever want to bring me down,
JUST SHUT UP! its not going to affect me and
fuck yourself if you're gonna piss me off, cause im not
bothered by you anymore. keep making yourself a fool!
hahahas. big piece of shit. you pissing shit!


btw pray i get my job sooooo got stash. ((:
oh well im lazy now. so imma go off. update again!

((:

❤update!
i are angry.
like what the hell is wrong with you?
what the FUCK did i DO TO YOU?!
motherfucking bitch?! Stop talking
behind my back! like what i wanna
do with my life is my problem!
stop telling me who i should be
stop telling me what i should do

i am not your puppet!
MY LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE SOME ONE ELSE
so FUCK YOURSELF!

IF YOU DISLIKE ME,STAY MILES AWAY!

LIKE MOVE OUTTA EARTH TO JUPITER!

you got a something a against me just tell it
in my face. dont have to behave all so lady like
wanna act cute when ppl just find you HUGELY DISGUSTING!
(im sure all of you know who im talking bout)

well its fucked up you're life's screwed.
its not my fault your life's screwed.
so stop bitching behind me, its not my fault!

A Song For You And Your Pathetic Lil Soul
To Feed On.

SHUT UP BY SIMPLE PLAN

There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you

You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right

It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do

You think you're special
But I know, and I know
And I know, and we know
That you're not

You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
Is gonna bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
You'll never bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be

(Don't tell me who I should be)

And don't try to tell me what's right for me

Don't tell me what I should do

I don't wanna waste my time

I'll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say is gonna
Bring me down

Bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
You won't bring me down
Bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
You won't bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up














YOU SHOULD JUST SHUT UP!

AND SEW YOUR MOUTH UP!

❤SHUT UP!

❤abressions left to scar the heart.
well ytd was a lil fruitful day, cause,

LAURA HAD HER BIBLE STUDY AT LAST! yay for that!
hmm... so went to meet couple of ppl...

than rach join us later.. and some left. not really.
so anyways. the jap dude took my number. im
not going to explain everything, ya so choke on that.
im lazy. i wanna sleep. but something triggered me
yesterday to become really annoyed by guys now.

really annoying. so ya. i really am annoyed.
and i feel really sad. cause wrong guy just
keep coming up to me and the ONE i love
will never be at the end for me. so whatever
it is. im annoyed and now im hungry.
so screw ya'll cause im going to sleep.
im tired! and OH YA!!!!!!

My loveliest, darlingest, precioustest, dearest PHONE!
is under service! and i wannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnna cry!!
cause im using a lau cock cock phone! knnbccb! hahaha
oh well only can collect it on monday. bloody motherfucking
ass wipe center!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
fuck fuck fuckiety fuckiety fuck! FUCK YA'LL esp the one
who talked to on my phone.. Stupid GLENN HENG (i dont know your cheeena name!)
ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! ANGRY AH! bye la
i want to sleep alr!













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