❤Im done with this shit, and i aint passing the baton. so suck up to it... ((:


the night i tawn with nik and rach.

so anyways. i'm already missing hiiiiiiim!
andy helped me admitted that i like him.
so okay he's got the truth. but i aint going
with him cause its going to fast and i wanna
take things slow. so WAIT!!

I'll get attached before New Years Day ((:
hahahas. ya keep dreaming man!

i wanna go single for exactly a year on 29th November ((:
how sick and wicked can i be?

soooo anyways. My wicked sick nutshell is downloading
cradle of the filth's song. suck on it. its Satanic!!! ((:
whhhhhhhhhhhooooooooohhhhh shiok man! now going to find slayer's song
all time sick songs!!

so the song i just download is hallowed be thy named by cradle of filth.
dammit it sounds damn sick man! its so fucking sick and wicked!
their satanic mantra is even more wicked!

Arch angle. dark angel,
Lend me thy light,
Through death's veil,
til' we have heaven in sight!

keep saying this in the night,
you'll get the goospy bumps.

oh well, i decided. the life i used to lead will stay in my blood forever. ((:
screw yourself if you aint happy. anyway im leaving, never looking back again ((:
not going to stress myself to be the person you want me to be. cause im not
perfect, never will be perfect in your eyes. im done walking this road, im tired.
im going back, back, back, to where i left the life, for others to finish.
but looks like i have to leave this life i lead, being a false pretend. im tired of lying.
lying im okay, lying im leading a better life. i'd stay where i lasted being really
happy being myself. imma disaster that can never be tied down. ((:
i love my life. i know my principle, i've got my values. i know what i want,
and being like this is not what i want. i want something more. i want to be
different from the crowd. and all of you are stopping me. why? WHY SO SERIOUS??
its not like i wanna be a clone of all of you. being so the same? such posers. being
all like, so dull and mono. i dont care if everyone thinks im scary or fierce.
Ever heard of a idiom? not to judge the book by its cover?
im more to than just a girl who loves tattoo and piercings and loud music,
which ass holes call it noise. Fuck you all! cause im consume by them.
anyway i suck at school and church, so whats the point of being there when im being looked
down as a PUNK/SCENE KID who is useless? im only a scene kid what??
i cant do anything for anyone.
so FUCK ya'll cause im smarter than everyone of you mutha fuckers.
who gives a shit what school or collage you came from?
All are hypocrites. life is full of lie. so stop living in your own lie.
come out and see the world. how are you going to stop war and riots??
when all you do is pray or do nothing but insult the government and shitload??
kiss my mutha fucking arse! YA'LL ARE HYPOCRITES TOO!
read the satanic bible and understand the shit loads there!

who gives a shit to small kids too? i was expose to everything when i was small
so why should i give them respect when i never had them? i was more mature then
them when i was younger and so should they, stop acting all cute and stuff, it disgust me ALOT!
and what exposure did i said? what? tell me la! use your brains. if you keep protecting them,
they will never learn the pinch, or understand the things, than if one day they happen
to pass all this, are you gonna be there to protect them? are they going to survive?
im not asking you to not expose them to everything, but learn from others mistakes as well.
this is so common sense. no wonder all they do is complain bout every single shit.
deal with it if you're family is screwed. deal with all the abuse than complain..
deal with all the tears that never stop falling, cause they never will stop. it lives in you.
in your blood. deal with the scars from the past that haunts. you cant do anything bout it.
deal with the death of a love one, and move on,
deal with your parents being divorced, and move on,
it hurts i know. but how long can you keep crying and mourning bout it?
and does it every occour to you, there are ppl worst than your situation.
SO DEAL WITH YOURSELF. DEAL WITH THE LIFE YOU HATE!
DO SOMETHING BOUT IT. THAN COMPLAINING.


if you aint happy with all this shit i just typed, than you might
wanna look at the top left hand side of my blog, and click "leave" cause its my blog
and i can say WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT! and so what?? confront me? come only.
you're more than welcomed man! and cause if you cant deal with what i said, imma say more.
so leave now, if you cant take it ((:





dont push my limit. i can be very unlimited, but do it too much,
i'll turn nasty and i might bring you down with me ((:
DON'T. DON'T misjudge or underestimate my limits.

my dad doesnt say anything, so you've got no fucking right.
i may be disappointment, i bum around, the biggest bum in your world.
but MY LIFE is tooooooooo short to be something else and not have fun,
unlike you pathetic LOOOOONNNNNNGGGGG life. im sorry.
my life is short. i may die tmr. and i dont wanna regret not having fun.
so fuck yourself and be like every other people in the world and be pathetic.

i have no sympathy for you life suckers, just cause you cant be that someone,
you pull others to strive to be that someone you cant, just to indulge yourself
in self sympathysm, like " oh i helped them to get there but in the end i get nothing too.."
ahhhhh fuck yourself. cause you're mutha fucking pathetic la! and also when you
try to get one to stop living the life they want, why? are you jealouse that you're at the
top that you cant get down, and it gets quite lonely? so you gotta pull everyone up
with you? and be at the same level of dumbnessy?? im not being against anyone.
but this how i feel so if you feel im against you, like i ALWAYS SAY...... SCREW YOU!
i say how i feel. i do what i want, i've been living a life you wanted me to, i did it,
im tired, im leaving. cause i aint a puppet and i aint dumb like the rest,
being something they can have but taken by all your bloody so called rules!
i respect the religion and rules, but something being so strict, kills one inside and
that makes it harder for one to live life happy. im sorry. but this what i've been through.

im through with all this shit. im fading thinner by the minutes passing.


You've got your commitments,
And I've got mine.
So deal with my rejection
It's a part of life.



and if you actually read this whole paragraph, either you're bored or you've got a shitload of time on your hands. o.O

















I DO WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT!