❤BLEAH XD
daddy just got me a hard disk.
and waiting, waiting for my LG VIEWTY
or Samsung F or k 480. YAY!!!

so today overall was a dumb boring day.

woke up at 8, went to drum place to practice.
than head down to suntec to meet daddy..
and finally i got my external hard disk, 250 gb
worth 99.00 dollars. pssst its not a x'mas gift. AMEN!
i want my skate shoooooooooeeess! yahahahahas!
than went to daddy's canteen shop, took latte and seaweed
for tea. yahahahas! freeeeeeeee ((: than head down to
tm to see internet plan, hmm didnt get that cause daddy wanted
the usb internet portal thingy.. )): not the pc.. DAMMIT! if not its mine!
hahahahhas.. but NOOOOOOOO. wtp?! rahh. so anyhooooos.

you never guess who i saw, julian working in M1 shop
and miss ethel koh at suntec SUPERMAN SHOP! i was like ???????
okay?? she looks familiar, is it really her?? so i took a breath and asked her
is it her. she got a shock and we chatted for a while, than daddy was like who
is she?? and i was like? teacher? hahahs. but oh wells.

whatever.... i still want my LG VIEWTY or SAMSUNG!!!
raaaaaaaaaaaah they all loook like a camera.. how nice..
btw, daddy thought sitex was at expo and he argued with me
to got suntec. when we got there, HAHA! HE SAID SORRRRRY!
wowweee.. LOL! but yeah i was always right... NOT!












i feel dead

❤666
i feel so betrayed.
i feel so moody.
i feel so crude.
i feel so violent.
i feel so blue.
i feel so mad.
i feel so tired.

i feel so moody the whole day.
i hate suck up people. i think they suck.
its like... its sick..and utterly gross.
whatever, its not my life and i think i shouldnt
really bring you down as a human. its not my problem.
i shouldn't bother. its none of business. i hate you still.

im so tired. stupid show made me cannot sleep till 7 am
and woke up at 11 to daddy's loud voice. almost killed me
in my sleep, and i was dreaming of ben and jerry's ice cream!
wtp? i was hungry. hahas. hmm. UPGRADING MY LINE!!!
maybe getting new phone if i plead daddy enough.. but a phone is not
what i really want. i want sony t770 cam... something like that. )):
love it man!

btw to me and my handphone. Happy One Year.
Faithful phone ((: never betrayed me once, but
fell very sick twice..)): but its okay now. one more
year im changing phone. i want a gooooood phone.
a good mp3, a good cam. hahahas. so many things.
so little money. sighs.

oh well. okay. im chatting with daddy,
he wants to get new laptop for me through some internet plan thing.
yays for me. and tmr daddy getting me a hard disk thing!
yay!! good good. bigger the capacity means the more i can dl songs!
muahahahahahahhas! kick ass baby! okay enough of bragging.
later he wont buy i paisei. hahahs.

oh well. i think my body is mad cause, i'm like falling sick and than
feels like im not the next minute. aiya.. crazy weather too. no wonder
its my bestfriend. dammit.

rain baby rain. dont ever sun shine!!
weather's so hot, killing me inside.....
LOL! a change of check yes juliet.
hahahs. LOL! seriously i neeeeed
cold weather. im having fits from all
the hot weather.

well.. its crazy. i love one statement
i saw in msn. - seriously, we're all the same!

anyhooos. bout my other post, save me someone. i need help.
im drowning from all that has eaten me. im passing away by the minutes.










im emotionaless.

❤haha!
okay.

hi ppl.
as you can see im pretty much tired and lame at this hour.
im so tired im bout to kill myself and.. idk? just so tired.

okay so came back from a movie and bbq ((:
yeah. i watched quarantine. ((: soooo swwwweeeeet!
for my opinion, i think quarantine is better than rec.
cause there are some hilarious parts, which is good to
enlighten frighten faint hearts like mine. half the time
i was screaming cause the scenes are so shocking, and
the ZOMBIE (not forgetting to mention) they look so
nasty and i think they stink! half the time i felt like puking
cause of the foaming, saliva and blood, and the *puking noise*
eww shit. i feel like doing it now. ew god! sick! but seriously.
i think ya'll should go watch it. its nice. ((:

and than from P.S we headed down for bbq, we ate, played songs,
made big fire, than played captain's ball (YAY!!) i was like the
crazy maniac screaming!!! hahas and i kept disturbing eugene so i
hit the ball away from him catching it.. and zieon got his hands dirty
by all the mud and he asked for a hi5 and i was like no thanks but
you can hi5 with my shoe, its says hi! ((: and oh yah, i swear i cleaning
the mud on every guy thats near me ((: including xiao didi-s ((: hahas
meanie.. yes.. ((: and i kicked AH HOCKS BUTT!! who ask him show me
his butt. but ah hock, if you're reading this, sorry if your pants kena mud )):

but oh wells. i think i had overall a very happy day, i didnt feel so stress like
the other days before. ((: i feel good, but than again happiness last awhile when
im around.. so fuck that.

anyhoooos. i will upload the pics soon, i hope. im so lazy.. hahahs
i think i'll be quite dead for awhile. i need to get away from the world.
so yeah, i feel so dead inside now. i feel like im lifeless like seriously,
only because one of my bestest friend in the world, ALEX, is so sick,
im getting out of my house and being very nice to cook pasta for him.
yes i know some of you are like " ehhh you bias sia!!" ya ya ya whatever..
get really sick and maybe i'll cook for you other than that go to hell! hahas.
i got a feeling he's got anorexia. home sick for bout a month and everything,

hun, please look after yourself, you already so skinny, now even skinner!
my heart pain you know, like, seriously i almost cried, i felt so sad for alex.
i thought he'll be happy that he's getting away from the world and everything,
but little did i expected, he turned out to be homesick, i guess its still US that
keeps his world go round and i think without alex, gavin, kevin, KG, daniel,
nikki rachael, carol, xian, i am nothing now. its really them that colour my world ((:
retards and risk takers that stayed with me through the thick and thin and slippery ((:
really thankful. and of course i have many wonderful church friends not forgetting!
but yeah.

my heart is really broken seeing alex like that. i dont want anything to happen to him,
if not i really dont know what am i going to do. )): i hope he'll feel better! ((:
ALEX! WE'VE YET TO GO U.S. TO SEE A7X SO YOU BETTER BE ALIVE
OR WHEN I REACH HEAVEN AND SEE YOU THERE, I'LL SO KICK YOUR
PATHETIC ( maybe dont even have) ASS! yeah! rmb this man! tag me if you see this
which i doubt you will. cant even play your psp properly. bleah.. get gavin to read you.
he knows how my accent will go.. HAHAHAHAHA -historical laughters-...

thinking back, i and kg dont really know each other like till a few months ago.
even though i partied the biggest party at his home 2 years ago..
amazingly we look almost splitting twins.
like he's got the handsome look and everything but he's still gay in my opinion
cause there's only one me in this world, ya! hahas. yeah whatever. but it was that
bbq where he lent me his bike and thought me some tricks with it, which i still cant
master. thats bad. i think its because im afraid of falling again and fracturing my wrist..
so i guess so. yeah.. im pretty much tired and..

OH YEAH i think i'll be changing my line to prepaid or can say use both.. hahas.
need to maintain my bill man. man dingo at home is pissed like shit.
and i dont wanna offend my dad, cause i'm left with one month
to prove to daddy im worth going back to school and i will study properly again.

i told myself, laura you need to wake up, you needa do something. yeah i have to
change. i think im becoming worst im terms of temper and my limits cant stretch
much and i get agitated alot. and worst of all, i've become really quiet when im at
home with my family, i just dont wanna talk to any of them like, i feel there's nothing
my dad needs to know bout what is happening to me, the shit around me thats going
on. idk, i think at some point i hate my dad for thinking he really knows me, which
i doubt he even knows what im thinking. i feel so unsecured at times at home. like,
im in my own world, blogging, dairy-ing when all he thinks, i've fallen and not bothering.
like fuck! im trembling, im trying to bring myself to term with what has happen in
the past few years, which i think i've yet to forget. kenny and his dearest that committed
suicide, the friend that i know who will be there for me till the very end. so much
memories. im holding onto everything with my strength and everything i got.
and all daddy can say those shit to me? like do anyone REALLY REALLY know me!?

no one knows who i really am when im alone, maybe the exception of alex.. cause
he's insane enough to almost bang my gate down. ya..i've only left with my eyes
to see what the rest of world is giving me, and keeping my mouth shut to wait for
karma cause im tired of fighting back and im left with very little emotions to toy with,
i am already sick of how the world is treating me, well i may be invisible to my family,
fair enough, im the odd one out like nelson is, one drug addict and another emo.
yeah so what my whole family is book smart and shit? like i give a fucking damn
to any fucking shitlings in my entire family. please! i am who i am and like i always
say, life's too short to be someone else.

seriously i've got enough shit from dickheads and my family. well if i could exchange
one thing, i wanna exchange my life for me to be a immortal. i dont wanna live this life.
no one fucking understands me. everyone thinks im a punk/scene/emo kid that
dont give a shit, you know what? i am a human with feelings, i deserve respect too,
do i get that? but nooooo, you're a sad kid who deserve to die!! i get family members insulting me (i wont name names, but you fucking know who you are!)
get friends telling me shit, i get dickheads busting around ith fake accounts,
but you know what? i aint gonna fall back, you may think i would just shut my mouth
because i am afraid? I AM NOT. cause what goes around comes around.

im not saying aceing your studies is bad, what im trying to say is,
doesnt mean you're the best, you can look down on ppl like me or anyone worst
than you and i are. seriously you ppl have too keep your fucking pile hole shut!!
you dont know how much we are bleeding inside because of loved ones dying and
the trauma we go through everyday. i can safely say i am not the bad ass i used to be,
but mean to some ass thinking they are"high and almighty" ya _l_ you in your face!

some ask what is holding me on, i can safely say is God, e361, my retard friends...
and memories i dont wanna lose. i can say that i am foolish at times, but i think
im breaking inside, i feel no love, no emotions, no life. call me which ever you want,
though i laugh and smile alot, its only because i dont wanna spoil anybody's day and
if i were to be myself, no one in the world would dare sit next to me in the train. it
happened once. i am not "fake" nor either can i say i am "real". i am just following
whats right for me to be respectful to others. but some thinks im otherwise..

im not posting to gain any sympathy, well i dont fucking need that cause i dont know
what the fuck is that, cause in this world, anything can be real and fake.
i've gone through what most kids dont want their parents to do.
i've gone through my gangster days, i've gone through being casted aside,
i've gone through every fucking shit i doubt no one wants to go through.
you think im strong? hah! hell no!

i think its very clear. some just dont understand, some just dont care..
some just love to think every otherwise. yeah, i have friends coming up to
me and say that im really wise at some point of a situation, why am i still stuck
in a "trend" like that, answer is simple, the world cant change for you, only you
can change for the world. but should i be the one to start when no one listens even
if you're screaming at the top of your lungs till your throat's sore like hell? no one
is gonna listen. im tired of trying to reason things out, im tired of standing still,
im tired of sheltering those in need (thats the reason why i shoooo alot of pple of,
i dont wanna listen to your fucking crap.) im tired of all else, i need a break.
i need a shoulder to cry one. im tired of all this shit that going round, im tired..
im tired im tired, im tired of your complainings and
whinning how life suck(though it really doesn't seem to me..)

how bout me? whose gonna listen to me? whose gonna kick ass with me?
i know alex, kev,gav, kg, carol and daniel will. i know nikki rach and xian will.
(i love love love them!)

i know of friends who use my name to get"discounts" (not for shop use)
i know of friends who try to be friends with me cause of idk what dumb reason
i know of friends who be friends with me cause they got no others to go to.

you know what? i hate you!
i hate you for causing my life miserable!
i hate you for using me!


its leaves me to say this _l_ YOU






usually i dont bother... not this time
hope i will blog soon..

❤fall face down, fluid leaks out your eyeballs!
BITCH, I HATE YOU, LEAVE ME ALONE!

im feeling

blue

angry

upset

disappoint

but most of all,
i feel Betrayed!

what the heck did i even do to you?

run your mouth when I'm not around
it's easy to achieve, you cry to weak friends that sympathize
can you hear the violins playing your song?
those same friends tell me your every word.

i hope all you ever do now, is die!
i fucking hate you! you bloody slut! fucking hoe!
daughter of a whore! you fucking suck!



Seventeen aint so sweet afterall!

Well she never was the best
Yeah at following the trends
Stayed one step above the rest
And even though it seemed

Like the world was crashing on her
Didn't let it hold her down
hold her back oh
worry you'll show them

There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
There's a scream in your voice
And I hope you will be heard
There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
Until you're heard, you're heard

Seventeen is just a test
Yeah and I would recommend
That you live with no regrets
And even if it seems

Like the world is crashing on you
You shouldn't let it hold you down
Shouldn't hold you back oh no, woah oh

Don't worry you'll show them

There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
There's a scream in your voice
And I hope you will be heard
There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
Until you're heard, you're heard

Relax girl, turn down the lights
No one can see you shining
Relax girl, it'll be alright
No one can stop you if you try
Point of rhythm is to follow it in time
To listen to the beating in your mind
Remember if you seek then you shall find
Woah oh

There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
There's a scream in your voice
And I hope you will be heard
There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
Until you're heard, you're heard

There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
There's a scream in your voice
And I hope you will be heard
There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
Until you're heard, you're heard

...until you're heard...

the perfect song for me!
so yeah. you're not going to affect me bitch!
@#$%^&*!

so what if i have a colourful hair? so what if i have facial piercings?
so what if im different? its not affecting you? so just take your pathetic
life and find something to do and stop hanging around my neck and
run your mouth when im not around! i dont need this shit from you!

go to hell bitch!!




and as for Jacky, people please keep him prayers!

he fall and is having a slip disc.. )): my idol is sick in the back!

RAHH! WHY EVERYONE AROUND ME FALLING DOWN!

Get Well Soon, IDOL!!!

Jia You~!
(you still owe me alarm ring beats!! -evil intentions- maniacal laughter!-)

❤a tale of two person
Mervyn cut his hair. yeah. kinda disappointing..
cause my idol just cut his hair sooooooo freaking short!!
and its sad! no more hawks up!! its hair down )):

next one.
I DONT BELIEVE I PULLED THROUGH
5 DAYS OF THE ASIA CONFERENCE. Prais the Lord!

next..
im confuse between zz said bout the guy, ____y and OTHER weird one!
i hate hang messages. get straight to the damn point. but like i even care..
but i've been thinking more bout ____y.. cause he's more spiritual. but
pig that aside. i really dont know!!!!
X)

next..
i laughed so much today, i think im going to die of laughter..
inside joke! a funny one too. those that went for the wake (nothing to do with it)
had a good laughing time! ((: im glad i went!

next..
my mind is whirling, as in.. im so tired till i even think im walking on air..
and when the train is infront of me, my body is moving to side when im at the platform!
and im getting short tempered and i cant type for nuts! dammit. what the pig!

next..
i think very sooooon.. i'll die. die of all that gavin crapped with me!
btw, ALEX SEETOH the smelly toe is back! yay! i've got a skinny
bouncer to walk me home again!!!! yay yay yay! at last! and i've got many many
sea shells. and i dont know why.....? i think imma paint them and stick
it on alex's nose, face, eyes. mouth and MOOBS! ((: hahas. oh well.
he's sick so he cant send me home)): get well soon. he's very sick )):
fuck. i thought we could hangout on wed, by then i'll regain my energy((:
but he's not feeling good. nvm i've got maybe 2 years here so i'll treasure
my boy bestfriendS! and my lovely carol tooooo! i miss you girl!!!

and also my true true true girlfriends!!!
i love you babes!!

well pretty much my life today is insane. i laughed like a mad person today
almost fell to ground cause i cant control my leg. im f-ing'sane!
and today one indian guy in the train keep looking at me. im not racist but
yeah seriously its annoying that ppl keep looking at me and a dumbfuck guy
asked me for my number cause he said im cute. and im like i dooooo not associate
myself with the word cute and i told him attached. oh my god!! !%#$^&*!
he's not bad looking but.. seriously.. f-off man!
you've got a drop dead hideous gorgeous look!
really! oh my!! and ask if i was waiting for my bf to come fo the prom..
im like er... no? why do i wanna go to a prom in jeans and jacket? and in the
first place why the heck do i even wanna go to a damn prom?? yeah!

an answer for SOMEONE whose probing me,
why i dont wanna go into a ______________ :
rahhh. hais.. so much thinking till i think its scaring me and i dont have
the courage to go into anymore _______________ yeah. i've no energy
for that. as much as i wanna find a stable boyfriend, im gonna break down too!
for as much as i know, i think im going to void that for a very long time...
im so used to being with myself almost a year now, doing my stuff alone. its
gonna be weird if someone just step into my life. i think i've turned into a freak!
im feel scared of myself at times too.

i've been quieter. Like more introverted. I've always been an obvious extrovert,
drawing my energy from the people around me, and I used to HATE being alone.
But after a year now, I've become much more withdrawn
and I'm starting to prefer spending time alone.
I used to be quite the hyperactive kid, going crazy
and doing stupid things on a regular basis, but now..lifeless..kid.

i can predict, its gonna be a dull week for me this week.
so if you happen not to receive my msg, replies from msn or f-ster,
please do not bug me! i'll be very annoyed! yeah.. do not prob who
are the ppl i never mention names, i'm not obligated to tell you.
so if you really wanna know, please jump down 13 stories high!

seriously, you really wont wanna piss me off.. cause im not in a very
good mood, and im pmsing like a bitch! yeah. yeah..

but overall i had a disturbing day. very disturbing one.
gross too. shyt and all. eww what the pig man! but yeah

im going to retire to bed before i pass away, my head is spinning
and i feel im walking on air. my eyes are drooping . its tearing too.
yeah.

P.S. screw alex for being sick.. eat more grass, it'll make you healthier
and also the faster you get well the faster you can send me home.
my house is begining to be very unsafe. with all the ____ around,
i get no peace. so noisy and nonsense-ishful! yeah. get well soon!
for the record, i miss you alex!! get well soon!


Goonight loves and eyeball fluid dreams to ya'll.

its late. gavin if you're reading this, please go sleep.
i dont want you to die of not sleeping. fyi two days
you've not been sleeping! i cant stay up anymore longer
to accompany you my friend. tooooo tired!! -hugs- sleep now!

❤endless thoughts drips from my soul.
things arent turning the way i want.
did i do something bad? was i bad?

the dream that never stop haunting me..
living the way i want, is it wrong?
tell me.

im so tired. let me go, cause im letting you go.
reaching out, but im never catching your hand.
fall deep into thoughts i can never find the answer..

im tired.

hope you're happy, im falling.
hope you're fine when im dead.
cause you never realised im dead inside.
i feel no angst when you told me that.

i hope you know im already dead inside by all that you damage in me.
i love no one cause of all the things you did,
i feel no guilt for what i've done cause you done the same.
blame yourself for me treating you cold.



P.S. dont just msg me, call me. hate me, i dont care.
you're a NO BODY! so if you really hate me...
go get a life and stop finding faults from the past.
it gets you no where. learn the mistakes. but i think
i forgot, you're perfect in your own eyes. but to me
you're a disappointment to me. all the promises you made are lies


indeed. you're not one to fear but one to be stepped and trempled on!

❤2 days down, 3 to go!
ASIA CONFERENCE WAS A BLAST!

but i still prefer EMERGE!
this asia conference, im not feeling it.
im not feeling the vib, the beat.

the preaching and everything was good.
the main message is to win over the lost
in asia and revival and everything.
touching the world with God's love.
but seriously, im still not feeling it.
i guess its because its more for adult.
so cannot toooooooooo rock & hip!

hmm tmr gotta wake up at 5.15...
than meet linette at 7.30.. yawns!
yup. im not feeling it. but feeling tired!
i've never woke up few days in a row at 5 ++
just to do my hair. dammit! so lame..
die! tmr idk what to where...... boring!
hahahs.. hmm.. so ya. see ya'll after asia conference!










should i give you up after 2 years now??

November baby ----- DARREN TAN JIA WEI!
and you know i still love you.. so here's a dedication for you!
ass wipe! stupid maria! do my house chores now!! hehes!

❤Koukasen
Romaji

Hon no sukoshi mae ni te ni ireta you na mirai wo
Omoide to issho ni marumete nage suteta

Mada saki wa nagai yo nimotsu wa mou ii yo

I am dreaming of a girl rocked my world
Nanboku e tsuzuku koukasen
Kono saki ni wa kitto aru to
Sasayaiteru

Yukkuri to katamuku ashimoto ni ki wo tsukete
Omou yori anata wa zutto tsuyoi kara ne

Miminari ga yamanai na kimi no koe ga mada kikoeru yo

Nanokunen mo mae ni tsuketa kizuato nara nokotte
Kienakutemo ii sa itami wa mou nai kara ne

Chi no nijinda ashiato oite ikareta kioku mo
Dare ni datte aru daro kakusu tsumori mo nai kedo

I am dreaming of a girl rocked my world
Nanboku e tsuzuku koukasen
Kono saki ni wa kitto aru to
Sasayaiteru

Her name is Laura


English
Not so long ago, I thought I held this future in my hands
But then I crumpled it up along with my memories and threw it away

It's still a long way, but I don't need any baggage

I am dreaming of a girl who rocked my world
The elevated railway that runs from north to south
Whispers
That she's surely up ahead

Look down slowly and watch your step
You're so much stronger than you think

The ringing in my ears won't stop. I can hear your voice again
I've still got these scars from a million years ago
It doesn't matter if they don't disappear, cause there's no more pain

Everyone has bloody footprints and memories left behind
I don't mean to hide them

I am dreaming of a girl who rocked my world
The elevated railway that runs from north to south
Whispers
That she's surely up ahead

Her name is Laura



the song is nice and im going crazy..
i want HIM to sing this to me.
but i know its a wishful thinking.
nice song though. ((:
thats all for tdy ((:

❤


am i rocking shit or what?



its just my wishful thinking. i've got your gun on my head.
me face down against your floor.

❤
photos as promised..
got somemore. buuuuuuuut...
there are some still with est.
so yah.

Make over magic.. ((:



the hair is so rocking right?
i did with the make up tooo ((:



she's trying to be FUNNNNY!



i know this reminds you of KEVIN GAN!
when he was gay! hahahas



sarah being lame..
i miss you lovely!



during my bday celebration ...



our dinner/supper and what nots



a total off 87.60 cents.. ((: how wonderful ((:




yeah so pretty much thats all i have unless you wanna see more
of my face alone and the unglam things i do with my party ppl.
but yeah. pretty much im always on my own.. so our own grown
photographer is holding on to my photos so... anyways im hungry now..
going to the kitchen to find something to bite ((:

seee ya'll!

❤smoke some weed or something.
Basically this my last post on what emo/scene kid really is.
and what i wanna mention. yeah to AB and AL who arent
involve in this shit, im sorry but you gotta suck on it.
you're beloved friends screwed this up and world war 5
is a bout to break loose. so yeah.

Haters should just shut up and smile!

yeah i agree. please. you ppl dress like one
and deny you're a wanna be. please. jesus christ!
grow up and get a grip of yourselves. stop acting
like a bunch of monkeys.

oh yeah calling us emo. isnt chinese song all bout
love, and all you think is bout love? yeah. emo aint
all bout love. try being in our shoes for one year,
go through all the shit we've been and oh yeah, most emos',
dont listen to chinese songs and we speak absoloute english.
and we dont go all the time, "KANNINABEICHAOCHEEBYE".
but we go like, "fuck, cunt,how,whore, slut, bitch, mutha fucker, etc"
yeah. so please. stop your dedicated philosephy on emos.

FYI, you ah bengs and ah lians, ripped off our scene clothes
with all the skinny jeans and small clothes, yeah please. suck up
to the fact, and btw, start listening to brutal music and understand
why we are like that, every show we go to, we watch our backs,
yeah, so get your fucking facts right first, emo is love, i dont deny.
but we dont go to the extent of how you shitters go.

much said, what is emo? the real fact.

Close enough to punk and rock. Emo is now know for it's more emotional state of mind.
Instead of the anger hard-core way of expressing one-self , Emo has taken a new tole on the
twentith century of expressing yourself. From the music with strong emotion and feeling,
unlike hard rock or this is more of an alternative way to let your feeling be known.
Emo is not only a classification or a type of music it's also taken over the way one expresses
themself by dressing.

yeah so you rippers/haters, shut up and smile.
i dont want to have to go through this piece of shit yet again.
than again i dont mind telling ya'll in the face over again.

we emo/scene kid did nothing to you, so leave us alone.
you needa enlighten up. take a chill pill, coolaid,
smoke some weeds or do something, yeah?
stop acting like the world revolves around you.

go to a show, understand what it means to be one.
its not just fashion, but is a state of mind.
and.. basically..

WE DO WHATEVER THE FUCK WE WANT!
you can do the same! just stop hanging around our neck!

you rippers, as mentioned above, ab and al,
yeah piercings, you ripped them off too from us.
so yeah posers are more like ya'll, and using our
quotes for your picture addictions, you ripped them too.
so yeah. posers are meant for your labeling. yes? yes.

heres a video for you to understand what other metal head said.



and yeah. if you happen to be a ah lian/ah beng passerby,
i reeeeeeaaaally DONT CARE. its the fact. and i seeeerriiioussly doubt
you can do anything bout it, yeah. so if you gonna tag or something, its
shows how much a furid kid you are, how small your capacity is. so in chinese
its called XIAO QI (however the fuck you spell it) but yeah. and seriously
take life to another level, ya'll are behaving in such a way, at the other end
of the train i hear you shouting "KANNINABEICHAOCHEEBYE"? yeah.
you wanna act big and shit, but you know what? people find ya'll a nuisense.
yeah, so think bout what i wrote. UPGRADE yourselves.

But still, I DONT CARE!

yeah like the other day, i went to the mall with sylvia,
i had a group of KIDS, seriously, grow up! calling me
pink head/pink hair or something. yeah, FUCK YOU!
i seriously dont see if i know you. and yeah my name is LAURA
not PINK HEAD. and btw, i've only a strip of pink and blonde.

so please..
take this as an lesson to learn. cause ppl think you're fucking hilarious.
yeah. so leave other lives alone. and stop shouting in public, if you don't
wanna look stupid, when your kind is already being look down on. yeah.

P.S. Emo? im never one to start with, I'm a SCENE KID, with an
metal head. ((:

rmb to watch the vid to understand what a metal head said.

so till then when you understand
FUCK YOU!

❤i dont do cute stuff ((:
i hate hello kitty and doremon and all cute stuff.
cute-ness scares me. yes im stereotypical. but i think
its a scare!

i are scene and emo. yes. so screw you. literally i consider my brains
metal, wait not really. but a lil of it. i do talk in sense and i are wise at times.
even though im not good at studies but seriously im wise in a way, i do have
my high and intense moment. well screw you. im insane too. yeah

say whatever you want. you may know me but i dont know you, it doesnt matter.
i dont hate you, but you're a crackerass bitch, a skank that stinks.
well its just too bad im more popular than you and thanks for the comment
you gave to me and my bestfriends. well fuck you. you have gave your
time to us, which makes us more popular. but anyhoos. you suck too!

yeah to haters, beggers can choose.
and also, mind your coarse language.
you know, it offended me lots.
yeah if you wanna play with my vocab.
three word, bring it on, BIIIITCH!

you're just so low lifed, nothing better to do,
lame, stereotypical, hoe, cunt, (if you're a girl).
basically, you suck.. you dont know how much
i think you are bored looking up videos to des us,
make shit comment bout us. but you know what,
it made us popular, and it made my day,((:
so to your intellectual thicket, think twice before
commenting something, because right now, it made you look stupid,
not to those that you commented but others think you're lame. ((:

congratulations to you, you tried so hard, you still dont fit in.
try harder my dear. but still i can say, you'll never be as good as us.
never will be. NEVER, BITCH! well, with you think i said something wrong
bet you've got my number. so dont hide in your shell behind your computer
screen and act like a big fuck, yeah. im not a gangster B.T.W, and also i think
i know who are you, so yeah. Just come out. If its a battle you want, its a war i 'll bring.

say whatever you want, you'll never bring me down, do something to better
to bring me down. i dont need this shit bout you. I may have the stares outside,
"OH!, she's a scene kid!" yeah yeah yeah fuck you! i look way nicer that ya'll
will ever be, so keep your comments to yourself , infact dont share your thoughts!

yeah
so
screw
you!

❤fool again..love again.. its you
well. im so bummed up. )):
work sucks really bad. they ask me not to go work tdy.
will i not go tmr, than tmr, than, the next day, and another?

i really loved work. why do bad things keep happening to me?
why everytime i start to love something, bad things just keep
rolling in. the "sunshine" just dont stop. this f-up!

i so bummed up about it. so i slept all the way till 1.30.
i felt so shit. its worst than getting sick, very depressing.
i've just start to love to go work, and this. ahhhhh..
say whatever you want, it aint gonna cheer me up.
find me another job. )): soon!

oh well i should give a round of applause to FRANKINSTEIN~~~
you seriously dont even know either both of'em and you wanna crap
in other's blog. please baby.. you seriously are insane! yeah..

oh wellsy.. im really bored imma go back to sleep if not my mind
will wander around than think excidingly too much and maybe
i might just explode into zillion tears again. oh wells.



liLsaint.

❤kickstart your heart
Evan is so funny. LOLs he loves penguine from madegascar??
the one with the weird weird eye? hmmm??? i wonderrrrr?

tomorrow is Monday, and im loving it!!
i miss su, hardy, edwin, work and the office,
but most of all i miss my PAY! - angry face!-

O.o
hahas! LOL! hmm. asia conference is coming up, should i ask _____y_
im afraid. hehes. oh well. if that "vision" appear again, i will msg him?hmm.. we'll see.. whateverrrrrrrr...

tmr gotta go work and im optimistic bout it.
so happy with work. its a overwhelming respond
from a girl who extremly hate to work. but its all
different now ((: hahas. i guess its the growing up
or should i say " the HAVE TO grow up" process?
well. i feel mature in work now. not like i wanna slack
all the time. i just wanna work. i feel so dead not working.
it feels so, boring. yeah... hahahs. oh wellsy. im addicted to work ((:


take care ppl.
laura wont be around so soon ((:
im indestructable. ((:
kickstart my heart, baby.
im in love with you again ♥

❤"blah blah blah". is all i can hear coming outta your mouth
hmm. its crap. the job is too good to be true. idk?

im really committed to BDMI. i dont really want another job.
i find it stressful and i hate being stress minus depress minus emotional.
yeah. but its looking really stress-full! headache man!


oh well today is Liza's wedding day. im not sure if i should go, by myself. so paiseh!
another new couple starting a whole new chapter of journey!!

hmm. oh well im really tired, imma go back sleep again!

❤its gonna be friday ((;
TGTIF!!!

aitesy.. im back to replying tagboard.
well ya'll should stop spamming my tag board and phone. ((:

kev: my tagboards dead, you could reply for me.
im lazy, and i DO NOT EMO one corner, i EMO everywhere.
what lameshit is this?? -_-" and okay, i love you too!

gavin: okay baby boyyyyy. replied okay?

frank: you should really stop that squeel pig thing. its bugging me, to squeel
ass hole! and stop singing the song i made. wipe ass! go on and spam,
i swear to hell i'll delete my tag board. ((:


oh well here goes this shit!

SU is so cute. oh my god. she's like this cutesy lil girl..
oh my god. went out to lunch today, had a hard time finding
a seat so we went to BK. wow fatastic. so i da pao my burger
and went near by to sit at the park to eat with su. hahas.

we couldnt stop laughing. (inside joke) hahahas.
oh god.. and her bf is extremely different from his cover.
seriously never judge its book by its cover. hahas.
he's uber friendly ((: oh wel..

i finish doing data entry, so im back to doing call survey..
dammit..hahas. oh well.. so bullshit men, ahhhh..
hmm. tmr is friday.. and im glad. ((: can sleep.
now imma tell you a secret..


i think i like my _____'s..... character, and i want someone like him,
with he's character cause he's like a fucking gentlemen!
oh god, i think im going to die a old spinster..sob.. expectation too high now.
dammnnn how man? i hope there'll be someone out there like him ((:
hahahas

P.S. im not in love with him.. only his character. get it straight!


any way tmr three hours of work. thank god for that.
than going down to tampines to meet est. which i'm still unsure.
so many things to do, so little time and money.. fuck

and im tired. oh well. imma get some sleep soon.
so good night ppl... ((:

i need a goodnight sleep, working at 9 tmr ((:

❤cause everyone needs love.

❤this small hours..

❤Do Not Prob After Reading

Weekends on young and angry streets
We meet, drink 'till trouble found us there
Living life as without a care
We've had our fights, been black and blue
Its true, I've even gone to jail for you my friends
Bet your life that I'd do it again

(Until the End)

Don't change the way you think of me
We're from the same story
Life moves on, can't stay the same
But some of us, are worry, yeah

While some have gone their separate ways
Theres some still caught up with the past
and scared to move on, you're missing most of your life
They say its hard to stay the same
When some fail, while other men seem to gain, but friends
I'll be with you here until the end

(Until the End)

Don't change the way you think of me
We're from the same story
Life moves on, can't stay the same
But some of us, are worry

We're all falling forward
With no signs of slow
'Cause I'm moving faster
Thats all that I wanted
I wanted

You know its hard
Its passing by
Memories
Be out all night
To reminisce wont bring you back
Just look ahead and hold on tight

We're all falling forward
With no signs of slow
And some moving faster
Thats all that I wanted
I wanted

Don't change the way you think of me
Oh yeah

Until the end
Until the end
Until the end
Until the end

❤fucking bullshit!

❤vein liquid
well its been 4 days since i blog?

yes kev.. tagboard dead.. you could help me reply.
im so lazy to think nowadays. hehes. my bad love.

well im staying home today again cause some shit
are all in malaysia. and i cant go cause the boss at
home doesnt allow me too. so its crappy. and couple
of other shitlings keep rejecting me to go out. either
exams or work, okay im like whatever alrights.

well its getting in my brains. im so lazy to go to work.
well but i too cant wait to go to work, new friends,
new addictions. now im feeding those addiction.
well. i seriously think my new friends are fucking similar
to me. we listen to the typa song and we crap everything
and anything, like wow. what more can i ask for?
i wanna hangout with them sooooooooon...!!

but even if that, it doesnt mean i've forget my girlfriends!
its that ya'll are busyyyyy and im bored, so i've gone to find
new ones. yeah man!! we'll go out soon. ((: