im lost..find me??

2009-05-06T11:40:00.002+08:00

NEW LINK!

Hey all you suckers!

I'm ready to give out my blog link. cause i think it has already leaked out. Gorgery has already found out. i have no idea who else too. but this my new, almost old blog ((:

METAMORPHIAHEART.BLOGSPOT.COM

Just dont spam my tagboard.
thankyouverymuch!

Rumour Rant

2009-02-22T15:20:00.002+08:00

if there's a rumour you wanna spread go ahead and spread.
spread yourself in the rumour. if you like the person than go ahead and say you like them and dont put words in my mouth. i dont know whats your fucking problem.. but seriously GROW UP! stop being so childish. rumours are nothing but friendship spoilers. so stop your dumbass lameshit childish acts. you wanna start your little nonsensical nuisense rubbish-like rumour, please spread bout yourself to gain your own popularity. dont talk bout me, i did nothing to you so shut the fuck up gay fuck!!

DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU MOTHERFUCKERS!

back to update

2009-02-17T13:59:00.003+08:00

hellooooo!!
told you i'll be back to update in a while =.=

some asked me for my private blog.... XP
nooooooooooooo! cause i wanna bitch bout you
ya as if.

anyhoooooos..
i had alot going on.
for those who dont know,

Damian & Jas are officially back. =)
for a few long months. till june.
hopefully i can go up America to holiday there (:
i need a job. wahahah! "are you talking shit, laura?"
no i need job. "are you serious???" YES!
hahas. oh well.

K.G. Is having another party in March, i hope.
hmm. alot of DRINKS and FOOD i heard.
hmmmmyumyum!! hahahs. oh well im going to go.

see you ppl around.

2009-01-26T00:59:00.002+08:00

People who knows my private blog, PLEASE DO NOT LINK ME UP!

btw

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

MOVED

2009-01-21T18:07:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD!

i have moved,
but will still update here once in awhile.
and if you really wanna know my blog,
ask if you really care.. and not for fun.

bye.

fuckface memories

2009-01-20T19:13:00.003+08:00

fuckiety fuckiety fuckiety fuck fuck fuck!!

well im going to collect my hair extension tmr.
waiting for cny to come cause i wanna get my angbao
and go online to buy me demoned eye contacts so i can
roam clarke quay to scare babies there! I EAT KIDS!!
HAHAHAHAHAH! oh well, i also hope my clothes and all
will come soon! before cny if not OH TIAN!!! i needa spend
even more cash!!! URGH!! oh wells. FUCK SHIPPING
and DELIVERY! ITS TAKING SOOOOOOO GOD DAMN MUTHA
FUCKING LONG! FUCK!!

oh wells. i think i need love, i've been extremely down ever since
darren & i fought. so annoying, two bestfriends fighting over a dumbass
question and now we arent talking! this so fucking annoying and anyways
im about to say bye to the world after CNY, im going to MIA officially.
i need time to think! so if you git lotsa thing to say to me, better say it fast,
this time its my official mia time. no point calling police ((:

memoirs of fuckface
i'll post some pic tmr. or later tonight.

sick shit

2009-01-20T12:14:00.001+08:00

click on the link below. its horrific!

its not porn, watch the bottom vid.
its 2 girls 1 cup and lotsa shit, i mean real shit!

http://www.thatsphucked.com/post/2007/11/2-girls-1-cup-video.aspx

URGH!!

2009-01-18T11:29:00.002+08:00

JOE is taking me like a broooooooooo~~!!
wth??! im a girl cant you tell the diff??
LOL! im a girl, joe! for gods sake!

anyhoos.. this the dumbass convo, enjoy!

Joe Finch says:
OI u eaten yet?
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
yeah bread
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahas
Joe Finch says:
bread only
Joe Finch says:
u want me to feed u or not
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
er
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahs
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
no need la
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
later my dad kill me
Joe Finch says:
u kno when i talk to u , i dont feel like talking to a gerl
Joe Finch says:
good man
Joe Finch says:
u are jus like my buddy
Joe Finch says:
those crazy boys at my shop
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
IM NOT A BOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Joe Finch says:
i hate girly chats
Joe Finch says:
they keep asking me
Joe Finch says:
joe this , joe that
Joe Finch says:
joe wanna eat?
Joe Finch says:
joe how are u
Joe Finch says:
all so sian
Joe Finch says:
so fake and plastic
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
okay?
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
thats not me
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
i do and say whatever i want
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahas
Joe Finch says:
good
Joe Finch says:
so i can talk rough with u too sucker
Joe Finch says:
i no need to filter myself right
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
what the??
Joe Finch says:
hahhaa
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
yeah
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
just say or do whatever the fuck you want
Joe Finch says:
i told u liao, u are an imp in girls body
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahas
Joe Finch says:
of babe
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
LOL!
Joe Finch says:
suck my balls
Joe Finch says:
hahahaha
Joe Finch says:
wow
Joe Finch says:
finally just type that
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
you can wait long long man
Joe Finch says:
i always fear to type that in front of gerls
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
wait long long
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahas
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
why:?
Joe Finch says:
no
Joe Finch says:
i mean jus type
Joe Finch says:
not doing it
Joe Finch says:
fuck la
Joe Finch says:
with u i can get nasty man
Joe Finch says:
wahahahahhaa
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
okay?
Joe Finch says:
eat shit
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
now i regret what i just told you
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
ass hole
Joe Finch says:
come in my asshole sucker
Joe Finch says:
ok, i overdid it
Joe Finch says:
sorry
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
stop trashing me la
Joe Finch says:
lol
Joe Finch says:
well
Joe Finch says:
my sis onine too
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
cool?
Joe Finch says:
talkig to her now
Joe Finch says:
yea
Joe Finch says:
shes in perth
Joe Finch says:
i better change pic
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
how many sibs you have?
Joe Finch says:
later she thinks i siao
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
you are what?
Joe Finch says:
huh?
Joe Finch says:
what
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
you are siao
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
muhahahaas
Joe Finch says:
i am siao siao
Joe Finch says:
oi bro, what u doing later
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
im not BRO!
Joe Finch says:
arghhhhhh
Joe Finch says:
just get usd to it k
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:

Joe Finch says:
used
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:

fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
im waiting for my friend to reply me
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
she's taking forever
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
and forever is too long
Joe Finch says:
i reply in an instance
Joe Finch says:
lol
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
okay? but you;re not her
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
)):
Joe Finch says:
i not cokparing with er la
Joe Finch says:
her la
Joe Finch says:
i say, i always reply instainly
Joe Finch says:
u dont see me with boobs right
Joe Finch says:
hahahaha
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
not boobs but moobs
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahas
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
LOL~
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
you're gonna kill me, i know
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hhahas
Joe Finch says:
i bite u then u know

Joe Finch says:
ok la i going off now
Joe Finch says:
eyes too tired
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
you old uncle la
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahs
Joe Finch says:
just give me a shout if u bored
Joe Finch says:
i can talk cock with u
Joe Finch says:
bye
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
LOL!
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
but you cant hear me
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
bedok and tampines tooooo far
Joe Finch says:
u dumb ah
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahas
Joe Finch says:
hahaha
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
playing dumb
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahhas
Joe Finch says:
siao
Joe Finch says:
got hp mah
Joe Finch says:
u ah,,, so ting tong
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
i am ah
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
unsound in the mind
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
hahahas
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
okay la
fall face down, fluid leaking out your eyeballs says:
byebye

the rest, you dont have to know. PG13 and NC16 and M18 and R21
AH HAHAHAHA! its censored due to uncouth words. hahahs! and some
lame-ness in the convo.. hahahs. LOL! oh well but all is good. entertainment
is the key to laughter and laughter is a medication too. its all good baby its all good!!

anyways my weekends have rather been dull and colorfool. idk. must the weather
yeah blame it on the weather. and Mr darren bum jia wei is alil unsound in the mind
last night. he was talking crap on sms. drunk and high. LOL! now serve him right,
drink drink drink! headache now. WAHAHAHAHA!! LOL! im so mean, i know right??!
alright whatever. enough of my high moments... now its for even a HIGHER ONE!!!

i found my one year contact lense which has degree and cost 65 dollars
WHO WANNA SPONS ME?! nvm cny than i buy ((: im happy so very happy ((: hahas

2-4-6 fuckface

2009-01-14T11:35:00.002+08:00

well hi dangs!
im gonna rant bout some fucking bitch nowwwww.. wow..
laura's gonna talk shit now.. okay i got my pay after 2 fucking
months and i still need lotsa cash =] money in this world not enough.
aint i right? you've gotta agree with me on this. cause its fuck shit.
btw joe added me on msn, he was so random, smsed me, and online
crapped like nut heads on bullshits.

okay so this one part of the convo

Me: you chi or mal
Joe: chi mix
me: mix with what? choco? soda powder? flour?
Joe: COFFEE
(randomly gave me a link)
joe: stare at the 4 dots and tell me what you see?
(after ahwile)
me: jesus!!
joe: funny right?
me: i think its cute leii..
me: got anymore wicked stuff?
joe: yes. my lile bro down south
me: =.=

im stopping here. so you get the idea now. hahas.
anyhooos, im going to start the shit now.

Dear BITCH,

i think i'm starting to hate you. yah i do. i regret spending money on you.
i regret spending my time on your lonely walks of dark times. i think you suck
right now to me. DO NOT TEST MY PATIENCE, IT HAS A FUCKING LIMIT.
i dont care what you brag to your friends bout me, say whatever fucking shit
bout me, but i care bout what you do infront of me, i'll just tell you this,
interrupt me one more time in my convos, stare at me and i swear, wherever
we are, who we're with, im just gonna embarass you so bad, watch your back bitch,
dont test my patience, i'll make you pay for your fuckface, and maybe you'll never
wanna come back out with us again, and im willing to screw you in public till you cry.
stop acting all so innocent and shit. i hate you and probably you're the first. cause
normally i dont hate, i just dislike. but the more i look at you, the more i wanna
slap you in the fucking face. i wanna bitch slap you senseless. you need a wake up
call, THE WORLD DOESNT REVOVLES AROUND YOU, BITCH~!! and i can say one
thing, stop trying to act cool. you're not. you're just a fucking wanna be, low life scum,
good for nothing, booty licking everyone to gain sympathy and your patheticness act.
FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF!! well i hope you know who you are. cause seriously
watch your back, i wont hesitate to make your life hell.

I gonna forgive you and i wanna FORGET you.
from now on, you're no more my friend, i wont share your joys neither
will you share mine, whoever is invited to my end year craps, you're not.
thats that. im not afraid to say out loud what shit you done, so bear in mind
not to say, "why never invite me?" fuck off okay? good bye bitch, goodbye
to bestdfriends forever memories! I HATE YOU, PEACE OUT~!

Pitch Black Past

2009-01-13T21:54:00.003+08:00

i had a good time at the tattoo convention, passing by you, smiling and waving.
but i think its a moment of dumbfounded-ness in my brain =.= or maybe you're
just another emo boy i've always dreamt of. but no thanks, i think i have enough
emotional lovers, friends will stay good. ((; anyways thank god you dont know my
blog. so this post is going out to you as a secret one.
______________________________________

so anyways my pay should be in tmr.
just talked to mervyn to get the the demond eyed contacts with degree.
bout 60 dollars, very cheap cause its with degree, ((:

so if you want pm me okay, like those crazy colour contact lenses
but aiya i think i wont be bothered with you XP
and im going to get my bed head spray!! so i can do wonders to my dumbass hair!

i wanna be a star when i go for visitation during CNY, be it scene queen or emo chick!
imma get the fake eye lashes, really nice clothes, and some stomping cheapo boots
for that dumbass 3 days! but i'll still look good! so bitches, stay clear from me!

yeah, but seriously i need some place that sells cheap crap and still look good,
but no seriously, money is the problem. DAMMIT! so any fuxxing ways,

imma go off now, i hate blogging cause i got nothing much to blog! havent been
going out lately, everyone suck i mean what i just said! everyone's going home
early like there's some dumbass demon on the loose, =.= what the fucking shit?
yeah~~

12.19 am and its so true

2009-01-12T00:19:00.002+08:00

Chinese reading for 2009 Ox year =]
Daydreaming all afternoon sounds heavenly to the Sheep. This creative, esoteric Sign needs plenty of time alone in which to feed its Muse. Sheep are generally most comfortable in their own minds (which other, more linear-thinking Signs may have trouble deciphering). This Sign makes a great craftsperson or artisan, or perhaps a teacher of New Age studies -- any occupation that allows its mind the full range of freedom. Sheep tend not to be very well-organized, precluding many more dry business endeavors. In fact, Sheep tend not to be very materialistic in general, finding plenty of riches in their own imagination. However, especially when in love, the Sheep can be quite a lavish gift-giver. (im not so sure bout this part....yet!)

Perhaps it's that artistic temperament that so often causes Sheep to feel insecure, but the result is that these high-strung creatures need to feel loved and admired lest they start worrying incessantly. For this reason, Sheep tend to have a hard time with romance; anyone who couples up with a Sheep must know, this Sign has a sensitive streak a mile wide and can be subject to bouts of anxiety over seemingly inconsequential things. Sheep need plenty of love, support and open reassurance from their lovers. If a relationship is marked by conflict, the Sheep will often pull away -- either physically or simply by retreating into the safe haven of its imagination.
If the romance is going well, however, Sheep won't hesitate to tell their partner what they need -- and they can be quite insistent about it!(<- not so sure bout this YET) This Sign will definitely return the favor, however; the Sheep has a luxurious side that delights in indulging a lover's every wish. Appearances are also important to the Sheep, which may explain why these folks can spend hours primping and posing.

Sheep would be well-served by learning to relax and let others run the show from time to time. Once they can be certain that their friends and lovers won't be gone when the Sheep returns from its daydreams, life will be a field of daisies.

this is sooooooooooooooo true la. i am everything of what it says.
red is sooooooooooooo true
blue is yet to happen leii....
ah fuck im starting to freak out!
is it good or bad? tag to convince me please!

The Tattoo Scene ((:

2009-01-11T19:24:00.014+08:00

Daryl ((: i think he's cool ((:

reminds me of justin XP

the dreadlock guy who kept

starring at me in the train =.=

I think she's damn hot la... i wanna

tattoo like her if daddy allows =.=

hehes

he looks like someone on tv i seen before

Subway Eat Fresh

i think he is coooool ((:

Nikki's eye candy. but i think he's hot too ((:

he is so funny XP

Started out a tired rushing morning )):

woke up half an hour late, but still reached earlier than schdueled.

met Nikki & Jessica in the train.

btw, joe finds her hawt, and he thinks i brought her to let him see

=.= kanasai.. and he dont believe she's my cousin.. HAHA.. XP

and by accident i hit he's freshly done tattoo. Sorry Joe,

DO NOT GRAB ME! i'm not huggable XP hahas!

okay that was during the convention thing.

met the fake gayboy, than went to macau to wait for rach.

so then, we played card games. yeaaaahhhh. hmm..

so after she finished church, we went straight onto the convention.

walked around crapped around. i had lotsa fun! if only gavin was

going today, i might get another tattoo done.

So anyways, met joe and gang couple of times. so anyways,

rumour has it, Louis is gheyy? apparently i think he is too

hot to be ghey, oh my god! i dont wanna buy that shit!

and on the other shit, the guy with that contacts looks hot too.

i think he's cute, and i'm not trying to hook myself up with him

just wanna make friends, the more i look at his pic the more

i think he looks like wayne. ((: cool shit! maybe they are long lost bros.

so anyways nikki also bought the contacts. ass hole!

well. overall, im happy today.

i've got lotsa photo in friendster. if you wanna see it,

http://www.friendster.com/casketfortheliving

yup. i might be getting one more done as

soon as the ang moh tattooist send me the

A7X drawing ((: i hope he rmbs!! mannnn!!

i think one tattoo is not enough. ((:

oh yeah at the convention, no tattooing of kids under 18,....

wait you aint ready for this!!

WITHOUT PARENTS CONSENT!!

and JOE SAID HE'LL SIGN FOR ME!!

but sadly, laura not enough cash! dammnnnn!

if not i'll go against daddy and do more! wahahahhas!

i feel the temptation of doing another.

maybe my own customed skull or butterfly. ((:

i'll still give 100 times of thinking yet again ((:

tattoo sin

xoxoXOXOxoxo

Let you go.

2009-01-09T00:24:00.003+08:00

You know that little quiz thing where they ask questions and you had to take your answers from the song that's playing on your iTunes or whatever when it's on shuffle mode? I've always thought those were a bunch of crap and people only did them to show off their playlists.So now I'm gonna take some time to show off my playlist here.

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle. (iTunes!)

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS! (Yeah, yeah. I'm sure everyone cheated on this. Like if an uncool song or whatever comes up, you'll skip it until something awesome plays. Bunch of cheaters, you all are.)

4. Tag 10 or more friends
nikki
xian
pris
elsa (alyssa)
jaqq
jasper
all that reads my FUCKING blog!

you can copy from mervyn's blog.
((: the one that is being link ((:

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
I love the whole world - Discovery Channel (=.=)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Going Under - Evanesence

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
My immortal - Evanesence (again?)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Christmas Time - Backstreet Boys (wth?????)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Shake It - Metrostation (shake what???!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Victims of Love - Good Charlotte ( apparently IM NOT!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Im In Love With A Stripper - T-Pain ( er thatsss sooo wrong!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Long Way 2 Go - Cassie

WHAT IS 2+2?
Live Your Life - TI ft. Rihanna (living arent i?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Stranger - Hilary Duff (hahahahha! sorry girls!!!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Something Stupid - Robbie Williams & Nicole Kidman

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Someday I will Understand - Britney Spears (er.. not really)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Play The Future - Urbatronic Chopsticks (oooh cool!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Bust It Baby - Neyo ft. Plies

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Afterlife - A7x (FUCK IM NOT DEAD!)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Walk Away - Paula Deanda (its to all my ex.. XP)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Dancing Dead - A7x ( wow! nice one!)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
I Love To Say Fuck - Murderdolls ( ehhh? quite true >.<)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
My Curse - Killswitch Engage (OOPS!)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Cute Without The E - Taking Back Sunday (hmm. im not like her)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Shakespeare In Love - Layla Kaylif (hope so)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Damaged - Danity Kane (hmm yeahhhh!)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Always Be My Baby - David Cook (aww i love **you.)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Wherever You Will Go - The Call

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Here Without You - 3 Doors Down (apparently no...)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Sleepless Night - Faber drive (no im not scared)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
When You Look Me In The Eyes - Jonas Brothers (aww.... everyone likes me)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Realize - Collbie Caillat (yeah..thats one)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Fighter - Christina Aguilera

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Let You Go - Ashlee Parker Angel (HAHA!)

Tattoo Convention, WHOSE GOING?? I AM!!

2009-01-08T17:30:00.003+08:00

this the shit im talking about baby!!!

tickets at S$18

for Friday & Saturday

11 pm - 1pm for trade visitors only

(no idea whats that)

1 pm - 8 for public ((:

SUNDAY!!

1 pm till 8 fuxxing pm!

wanna tattoo there bitch!

this the part where i can start dreaming too..

- hot heavily tattooed boys and MAN!

- miami's only CHRIS GARVER is there too ((:

fuck me! oh my goddddddddddish!

ANYONE?? wanna sponser me tattoos by chris garver??

i wanna get tattooed by him XP

if only was that Ami James..

aaaahhhhhhhhhh........

i'll melt even more

hahahas.

P.S. Fucking and fuxxing is two total different pronunciation ((;

P.S.S. WHOEVER IS GOING PLEASE CALL ME! OR DROP AN SMS!!

hilarious languages!

2009-01-08T17:18:00.002+08:00

just came back to blog about a hilarious shit!
went into some cheeeennna speaking person's blog.

im sorry man, but its so hilarious! the english is crap, my god.
not to forget the spelling and verbs used. HA, in your face!
and not forgetting WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! im sorry again!
sorry, FERR e rUdeNeSs ii iNsuLteD oN. (^.^) yeaaaaahhh dude!!

its so OH MY GOD HILARIOUS! i was laughing out soooooooooo hard...
and gavin is like yeahhhh duuuuddeee, maaaannn... okay enough of my crap!

today imma have two post about 5 minutes interval.
you'll see why.. ((: TATTOOOOOOSSS BABYY!! ((:
TATTTOOOOO FUCKING CONVENTION!
lets go tattoooo made. well this the part where i REALLY am SUPPOSE TO

SREEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMM!!!

attitude bitch!

2009-01-07T12:07:00.002+08:00

well, everyone is back at school. hahas
for me another year of fuxxing fun! coolness.

hmm. in anyways.
here are some advise for BITCHES that have an attitude problem.

well. you think you so great and mighty starring at everyone with your lan jiao bin.
(fuxx you, hope you get beaten up!)

hope one day someone will teach you a lesson. friends said you used them, ya i agree.
fuck you. just because you think you're a dark horse, im fuxxing afraid of you. so what
bitch?? so what? you got the guts dont just stare at me, the fights i've been into, im not
afraid of you little bitch, and your stares are just snares of a drum, every beat to your face
and you think you so damn cute ah? sorry man, if others think you're so cute, count me
in..not please. you make me wanna puke. and if not act all emo and shit. puhlease la!
you wont gain sympathy can? fuck off man! i really dont care what your background is.
attitude me, my girlfriends. who the fuck you think you are? some bloody rich tai tai
that can order a load of bodyguards to smack us in the face with insult. FUCK YOU back
yet again.

it doesnt matter if where or what your background is. what matter is that you act properly
at the right place and time. and because of your princess-coughs-oh so mighty pms mood,
makes everyone care bout you, please you're not gaining attention. you're making ppl
mad.

so seriously, i hope this school to you is gonna make your life hell. cause you're not the
only princess-oh-so-mighty with a pms mood. the guys there too has it. i hope you just
kinda offend them, so they teach you a lesson. i hope you'll evaluate your choice of making
your lan jiao bin. hope the year 2008 that made hell for a friend will make hell for you too.
i've nothing against you actually, i dont hate you just despise you thats all. but i hope others
will hate you cause you've got a something stuck onto your face thats says stuck up!

the way you talked to my girlfriend, which thats the point i wanna find you and
fuck you upside down! not literally, but verbally, you piss me, bitch. this is not
an "attention" post to your face of lonesome, loathe, low life scum, complete shithead life.
this a wake up call for you. the next time i see you i hope you get what i mean.
and whatever you, watch your mouth, before letting it run. i wont hesitate to smack
you in the face.

Bitch out!~~~

L is for Loser!

2009-01-06T17:06:00.003+08:00

fuck you everyone!

im back after only a few days and apparently someone
called G.T. cant wait after a month for me to blog. fuxxxxx..

so anyways. i've been learning nice make up shitszxszxszx
on youtube. duhhhh.. live shows you see. fuxxxx again..
well.. nikki, jason and i have been talking on the phone
for 4 nights in a row. wow wee.. =.= and im talking about,
talking into the wee early mornings like 2 fuxing am.
yupszxszxszxszx...

apparently i just rmbered its my one year
friendship with Jasper Su Jie Long. ((:
happy one year of friendship ((:

and also. today is the day Hardy turns 20? if im not wrong..
and also the day he goes into NS. WTF you say?? yeah fuxxxx right?
i knnoooooww. like whatever right? yeahhh... damnn. anyways..
i cant rmb whose birthday will it be this month. cause i cant be bothered.
im counting down the days till i get ANG BAO.

oh yes got esther's birthday! yeah. well. and also..
i wanna thank jason teo for the near future of giving me
his assets ((: FUXXXX BABY!! im going to be rich.. ((;
i'll keep prophesying that.. and soon it'll come to past ((:
wooooohoooooo. ((: oh and he is in Heart of God. i was like
WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT????!!! you have to be kidding??

oh and another thing. im broke.
officially.. ((:
Do Not Ask Me Out unless... you're willing to pay whatever i want
-evil grin- (:

OH OH OH i wanna thank RICHARD toooooooooo!
for getting me my leggings in hong kong! xie xie ni!!!
but still also creditos to nikki chanmalichan hey hey!!
hehes. jason's dumbass gay habbo joke. LOL!

anyhooos..... i dreamt of surya calling me, and i hang the damn phone
on him cause he sounded like a typical chao ah beng who cant speak proper
english. mumbling under his breathe, so i told him that and he was like.
" im not a ah beng! stop bullying me, imma go one corner and cry now"
awww dont cry emo kid. cheer up!! ((: hahas. im an real ass! beat that!
im the mean queen..-coughs- ass...

well theres alot happening too.

i got my knee injured in a fight last monday
and i doubt its gonna heal.
the fight was a funny one tooo!
malay boy and chinese man ((:
malay boy hits chinese drunk man!
chinese man wasnt so drunk after all..
chinese man go freezer take minced babi out,
went to malay boy's face and smack it down.
LOL!!!! i was laughing the crap out man!
and than i was in the toilet. they fight all the way
into the kitchen. like.. oh my goth! than
i came out to see what happen, i also kena hit.
bastfux! like shit la... LOL!

this sounds familiar right GAAAAAAVVINN??
hahas. thank god it wasnt rioting. if not jialat liao looooo!
hahas. oh well. i got a call! must beeee ((: good day mate!

two thousand and nine

2009-01-01T18:36:00.015+08:00

Happy New Year To One & All!

until the day i die, i'll spill my heart for you

if you'd die right now, you know i'd die too.

rip out the wings of a butterfly for your soul

because i missed us. hand in hand

you were there when my skies bleed violent grey.

dare to say hi in this new year?

my girlfriend. bestfriend forever.

though forever is too short when im with you.

no im not a les. and oh yeah we missed out rachael.

we'll take another one soon! maybe tomorrow ((:

because its 2009,

I'm starting all over again.

I'll fall in love again.

Goodbye 2008.

You caused me so much heartache.

Goodbye. Goodnight. Forever.

Canada to India

2008-12-29T12:43:00.002+08:00

Damiane is going from canada to india for a "class trip"
like wth? i was laughing on the phone soooooooo hard.
he was whining how racist he was.. hahhas. gay fucker!

well.
today is rather a gloomy tired day for me.

just another passerby...

if you see your name or anything you will do, TAG!!

2008-12-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

Rule #1
People who have been tagged must write their answers on
their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question
formulated by themselves.

Rule #2
Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person
whom they were tagged by continue this game sending it to other people.

1.Do you have secrets?
- yeah, but no one knows all i guess?

2. Would you fall in love with a guy younger than you?
- no, even how mature he is, NO

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
- yeah. cause i cant go. fuck that!

4. What if your ex-crush got jealous over you all of a sudden ? How will you react?
- tell him thats his problem suck it if he wants..

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
- no, he's gross.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- I'd rather be loved by someone. At least I'm not the one that's gonna get hurt. ((:

7. Will you forgive the person who played around with your feelings?
- hmm the thing is, should i?

8. If the person you like knows you like him/her, what would be your reaction if he/she said yes?
- er.. happy and like duhh you gotta like me cause im nice!

9. Is there anything that made you extremly happy?
- money and my girlfriends

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- rich!

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- Besides my family, myself.

13. What is/are the most important thing(s) in life?
- Satisfaction.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- Single and rich! As long as I have money i can travel around the world ((:

15. What your favourite colour?
- shades of black ((:

16. Would you give your all in a relationship?
- if he's a good guy.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- neither one..

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- i guess so. why let life be so bitter?

19. Will you confess to the person you like/love?
- er. no. paisei you know??

20. 5 people i'm gonna tag:
1) nikki
2) yi xian
3) pris
4) anyone
5) who breaths ((:

bid you farewell!

2008-12-28T22:49:00.002+08:00

Farewell Sun!!
take care! see in bout 2 years again!
till church meet you again!
XPP

well today is not a good day,
rather moody but all hidden under a wide loud laughter ((:
till i was in the bus, alone, thoughts flooded my mind, but i still
am not sure what i was moody bout. or rather things dont feel the same anymore.
i feel like im drifting away from everything, introvertion is starting yet again.
i have no idea whats happening to me, i cant get to sleep, i cant eat much.
all i want to do is...stone. YAH STONE, for fuck's sakes! and i hate stoning.
fuck! what is wrong with me? i hate it. i hate everything thats happening, so bad!

rather be alone. but i had something else in mind. and no its not r/s,
please. i wanna drink and maybe REALLY drown in my nothing happened sorrow..
or maybe because things are happening around me so fast. i dont know where to start?
i dont know what to do? actually i kinda not care bout it. because im done caring..
actually idk..what the fuck?

gavvyyyyy.. help daddy ask me to wake up at 9 FUCKING A.M every fucking day!
dammit la so irritating.. actually than again i dont care, he's at work, i'll off my phone.
he cant do anything. neh neh ni boo boo! XP dumbass.

well today was also a rather long yet short day. =.=
idk it feels that way. stupid. i think i going to play hotel 626 now..
scare the living shit out of me. fuck i hate horror games. but im
really bored. darren went to sleep already. gavin is mia-ing now.
and fei is idk where she went. "brb i go find food" so long la.
kev is watch his cartoon. so annoying. fine! i shall go play the shit game now.
bye bye.

tonning

2008-12-28T01:25:00.002+08:00

heheh!
nikki: im not angry no worries ((:
gavin: if my hater is there, HELL YES, IM GOING! XPP
elsa: thanks for the comments, appreciated, but think they really no life.
heh heh heh..

well i tonned with nik on x'mas eve night
and someone died at clarke quay river around 5 am and we left at 5.02
freaky.. but i'd love to see the expression on andy.. i think he'd be laughing away.
but whatever. some bangala tried to hug me and nik. so sick.. and some beng sprayed
snow on me, kanasai.. alot of shit la. funny like fuck. very fun

and the weirdest thang.. i realized more than 50 ppl are asking me out on new years eve.
sorry AHHHHHHHHH im reserved already, anyways, always have been =.=
my girlfriends have reserved me for life. so try asking earlier, try harder. well
if you want to see me or whatever shit, i will be at orchard round 4 till late,

places most likely you'll see me at

orchard, somerset, bugis, dhoby and clark quay and BUSTOPS around there.
i'll be waking around, so catch me if you can. ((: ill be in crazy that night, so
happy catching me that night.

and oh yeah gavvy,,
if im not wrong i saw ming at somerset, so im guessing you were there.
and he looked lost.. =.= dont tell him i said that, he'll chew my ass. well..
well i saw ALOT of familia faces. and i think i met them before. they ring something
in my head, and i think its scary, seen so many ppl before but recognise non.. horrid
well imma go to sleep now, im swaying left and right. i think im tired. idk..
my mind is not feeling right. hahahs.

goodnight ass holes!

happy fuckin new year to you,
watch out cause im gonna bash your faces,
i know who you fucking spammers are. ((:
-evil grin- ((:

to the rest of the NICEST people i know

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
(to be)

_l_

HOME

2008-12-26T01:04:00.002+08:00

"Let me go home,

I’ve had my run,

Daddy, I’m done.

I gotta go home,

Let me go home.

It will all be all right,

I’ll be home tonight,

I’m coming back home."

im home already. faster than i thought,

and i know i was wrong in some way.

im sorry bout it. and i hope im forgiven.

i know i am. Im going to do something bout

that chance given to me. ((:

toDAY i reconcile with my dad.

toNIGHT i reconcile with my bed.

i know beddy misses me, cause no

one except me dare to sleep at such

height at home ((: duhh it has to miss me.

LOLs!

sooon i need to top up my card and reconcile with my line number.

how annoying. okay whatever it is, i need my EXcompany to give me

my fucking ass wipe pay before i take a shovel and shaft them in the

graveyard with my crude language. its rather irritating to hear the world

that had to quit by force and not getting paid fast. thats an ass excuse that

the boss is busy.. yeah so i have an ass excuse to my dad, the boss is mad

and he wants to eat our pay and lets go complain that he says no pay for us.

wow i think im in a lets-piss-someone-intentionally mood now.

cause im freaking pissed so highly doubt its my intentionally mood.

((:

goodnight for now.

forget bout tonight,

tmr will be here so soon.

and when i wake up i'll

singing the wicked witch is dead.

((:

goodbye goodnight for now,

2008-12-22T12:48:00.002+08:00

liLsaintVengeance WILL OFFICIALLY BE AWAY
FROM HER CYBER WORLD. ANYTHING JUST TAG
YOUR NUMBER AND GT PASS IT TO HER.
OTHER THAN THAT, liLsaint SAYS, SHE'LL MISS
YOU ALL.

IF NOT YOU CAN EMAIL TO
lilsaint_loserville@hotmail.com
GT will reply to you asap.
sorry if you cant get to me,
i'll try to update my blog and
let you know with my progress of being thrown out.
i'll be staying over ET's house.
((:
i love you readers.
take care.
bye spammers.
Gavin says FUCK YOU intheface.

yours truly
xoxo
liLsaintVengeance
♥

reply to the dumb ass-namelss-cunt

2008-12-21T23:46:00.003+08:00

for your fucking info. please mind what you say.
im not replying to you is because i find you extraordinary
extremely childish ((; you have not fucking life, thats your fucking ass
problem. i give no shit to your ass wipe jack on faggotless shameless
spammer like you, if you think you are WOW good, fuck yourself. ((:

yeah to my readers, if i have,

i've got thrown outta the house, so im going around staying
all over my lovestruck friend's house, ((: for those who wanna
know why, dont bother, its okay, im okay. dont worry.
anything you wanna look for me, leave me your number,
and i'll msg you ((: no worries to friends ((;

Laura is surviving on her wagon of fame ((;
so dont worry at all, liLsaint is doing well,
so will laura. ((: she's doing fine. getting back
on the road of faith!

OH BTW!
in Cell Group, i won a AWARD, (not bragging)
Courage Under FIRE ((:
(wtf is that?)
okay its like(im not bragging) its like i've been through so
much if my readers knows, my parents etc and etc la. so
and i still come to church in faith, staying strong and everything.
but no. seriously. i felt proud for myself for once. really.
i've dont something to shine for God like an ass like me. ((:
so im pretty much proud. my faith is not for a faint hearted.
though i listent to satanic and etc genres to do with emo shit
and metal stuff, i still do put God near my heart though music
is something i might die for. so, yeah. ((: im proud, i've done it,
but i still aint satisfied, its just another battle won, there's a long war,
i'll fight, though at this time, being kicked out, like was ytd, saturday,
i still find myself going to church and kicking ass, i can the FUGLY devil
im not backing down, fight me till the very end, i'll fucking kick his ass.
cause 2000 yrs ago, Jesus has won the battle *coughs* WAR! so
now its X'mas. you wanna try make me backslide? TRY HARDER BITCH~!
try harder. im stronger than you think i am. i have my own mind.
though i do whatever i want, i know where i stand, i know what i am,(not everytime)
but yeah i know. im stronger then the pretty face, black clothes and a pretense,
FUCK YOU!

im much better now. thanks,
and i also wanna thank linetter for putting me up on sat night,
thanks, and sorry for the trouble. thank you
and ZZ thank you for everything, I will stand in the gap((:
and i hope there will not be rumours bout me and Shang Xuan.
i hate this, though good friends, its impossible to think otherwise.
i already love someone 2 years ago. and if he's not to long, i'll
wait here all my life for him. i maybe emotionally attach to him,
but i know, he's someone who'll take care of me, though he's not the
typa guy every good girl wants, i'm willing to forgive all the things he done.
im okay with it. im blinded by love. but i dont care. so stop makeing nonsense
because of a rumour i lost a friend once, and im not gonna loose another.
i've suffered enough with rumours, im not posting this to get attention
or whatever the shit is, to proof myself crap and shit, NO, rumours
break friendship, so i think i'd make it clear. And its not the darren tan
alice and cj cell group know, its Darren Tan Jia Wei, I Love. and never gonna
give on him, i believe through my light, he'll turn to god, and i know i'll marry him ((:

hun, if you are reading this(which i highly doubt so, cause you in camp now, so
you are sleeping cause you said goodnight to me already.) LOVE YOU BABY!
goodnight jerks, fuck you if you're a spammer, please die, thank you! ((: MUACKS!

P.S. if i cant like you up now, i'll link you soon! sorry for late replies too.
love you ppl! thank you, YOU!

chinkies

2008-12-17T23:54:00.002+08:00

hellooooo.

okay rant rant rant.. amanda deleted her blog.
FUCK YA'LL SPAMMERS! fuck you _l_

well fuck you!
and fuck you still!

hmm. well. whatever in their face!

okay. jeremy had call me, and..
im feeeeeeeling supreme depressed..
i feel so sad. i feel 40 kinds of sadness.

well im had a reflection on my life.
he said he thinks im living life on the fast lane.
idk what he means. but i think i really have no
care in life. im not afraid of dying or living,
love or unloved, sadness or happiness.
i'm dead inside. i dare to be a bitch to everyone.
i dare to tell anyone and everyone off.
and im seriously dead over everything.

idk? im turning very zombie like..
very introverted. like a freak. i refuse
to go out. till friends shout at me, i refuse
to listen to anyone. i refuse to do anything
unless its daily or something LIKE MY ROUTINE.
other than that i think im dead. im so fucking dead.
i need school i need to do something. NO.
i need to go to so a quite place to think.

though i feel so depressed. idk what i really feel.
after watching leap years using dvd. (i know, slowwwwwwww)
i did cry. i did feel sad. but at the same time, i feel dead.
i dont know what im feeling inside. its like i wanna be loved,
but than again i wanna be my own bf/gf. what the fuck is wrong with me?

entirely i think im a freak. i hate myself. i hate everything i know.
why cant you ppl just play along with me. why tell me? why ask?
i dont know anything of whats going on. i hate it. i haaaaaaaaaaatee
all the fucking shit i hear from my dad. i hate all the shit i have to let go.
i hate all that everyone is expecting from me. i hate all of you.
i feel all the sadness at this age. wtf? is this suppose to happen?
is this meant to be my destiny? i hate feeling sad inside and pretending
happy outside. i hate all this.

i hardly use hate. im using it now because you told me bout life.
i fucking hate this!

Dead shit never stop haunting my living,
if i had a chance to turn back time, i'd never
wanna know anyone. i wont wanna go through
all this, i hate my inner trance going on...

Fuck Everything I Stand For.
Who Am I?
- I Don't Know

the fallen liLsaint.
i've been riding on my nick for very long.
im pretty tired. i need to find who i was
two years ago, but memories seem faded from photos.
i dont remember anything, i need to be laura again.
saturday i was me. i was happy, the happiness i havent
felt in months. the emotion was better than my birthday cakes
and muffins and pies. better than gold given to me. better
than money that was given to me on cny. better than presents
on x'mas. better than any colour you find in a crayon box.

but now its fading. happiness comes to stay for awhile,
while, sadness stays for very long.. i cant breathe the taste
of dead air inside of me. the plague that contributed to me by
all broken promises, i need to tear down this steadfast wall,
for restrains in my life are useless, the taste of salvation is far
from what i remembered.

im 17 and wondering in a world thats new to me.

a new world of feelings. will 18 be better? or maybe

i should just die.

though i have haters and what nots.
my life might be bitter to you, but i have much
better friends and life society than you will ever have.
i know myself than anyone else to judge.
im not perfect i have my flaws but im much more
compassionate than you'll ever be.

for ppl who dont know me, thinks im fierce,
you look at me, you get intimidated, cause i dont
smile at you cause i dont know you,
thus you tell my friends that i have a fierce look,
i'm like a demon trapped in a human body.
get to know me before you start your horrendous rant bout me.
my past maybe blissfool. my future is bleak. my present is still living.
so stop trying to put me down because of my appearance.

what you see is not what you get.

dont believe try asking my friends around me, be it
my girlfriends, my cyber friends, my bff-s, my church friends.
ask them before you fucking judge me. if you find i treat you differently,
apperantly i do, to some ignorant menapaustic coackroaches.
ask yourselves why? i did nothing to you, you did something that
makes you look like a fool, trying to manipulate me with your looks,
thinking i would be afraid of you after you saw my BLACK face, so hard
trying to intimidate me. YAH try harder. i aint afraid of you wild ass.. =.=

or for the other shytlings that thinks im fierce, you tell your friends also mine,
to tell me to not look so fierce. =.= so my friends tell me you dare not say hi,
well if i LOOK so hard to say hi at, than dont say hi. i dont need to be acknowledge
that liLsaint is here. i dont consider myself a big a shot or something, yeah. i do not
need your spastic sarcasm remarks, and your wanting to say hi. so stop your rant
bout me, kiss my ass for fuck's sakes.

16 years..

2008-12-17T14:18:00.003+08:00

"If you are not too long,

I will wait for you my whole life"

In love letters, most words used aren't "love"

it's "miss"..

I miss you.

i'll be waiting for you.

xoxo

Laura.

adrenaline of going blonde

2008-12-15T20:30:00.003+08:00

well today was a great day though i my girlfriend had a rather annoying friend.

oh well back to the day, i was late for the first time (i guess)
cause i was talking to shang xuan, kev and a couple of new friends,
and eating at the same time, so i forgot the put on my make up too
(Laura, are you serious?) ya i am. i forgot. so i rushed with my make up..

and than left the house to meet niks. well, went to sim lim, and i had
many ppl staring at me, for fucks sake? idk why? but thank god nik
was with me to tell them off. well cause i wasnt paying attention to stares.
im not bothered though. i got kinda used to it. hahas.

moving on,went to mos, say thing INDIE LIAN! yeah INDIE LIAN.
she had blue indie geek specs, dress like a typical skinny ah lian. =.=
i didnt notice her, was niks. she's a pretty observant young lady.
so, than i was like HUH? OH PUH-LEASE MAN! SO FUGLY CAN???
yah with a ah beng wanna be oh so cool shyt guy. i was like =.=
"are girls this days just so despo that they needa flirt with weird guys..?"
im not judging but its my view. im seeing it everywhere, maybe
because im so used to be with myself alone, im my own girl-boyfriend,
so i dont see why i need a men so thats why im saying this. hahahas.
LOL! but seriously. its happening everywhere, its scaring me.

anyhoos, lets move on.. than went to niks house!
OH MY GOD, her dog is louder than me. =.=
he barked like freaking loud like a really huge dog,
which is quite scary. but i wont deny he's cute.
i wanna go sayang him, but he looks scary, worst than darren..
no actually darren more fierce. compared to a dog, i'd die for a dog.
lol dont hate me cause you aint me. XP

well, its sad cause her dad came back and whacked the dog to ask
it so shut up, kinda a heartache for me, i felt guilty, cause i shouldnt
have gone in. really. i felt so guilty, maybe was because of tyler, i miss her.

okay okay, later i get emotional again.
than went to meet some terrance/terrenece guy friend of niks.
i think he's okay looking far from what "nerd" i expected, but rather annoying.
he first asked if i was a malay cause i spoke in malay. okay fine with that.
than he said i and nik was lesbians. LIKE HELLO! wow. im so lesbian cause
nik walked me home, and she gave me flying kiss and i gave her one back.
wow, so i must be lesbian to hug her. what concept man. nice one. i was taken back
for awhile cause i was like, you judged me before you even have any knowledge of who
and what i am. and i really hated his guts, and i think i dont quite think he's a very
nice guy. though im judging him from what he said, im pissed. but im not here to point
this fella, he's just a PASSERBY like every spammer in my blog and email. some hater,
i guess. cause im tooooooo scene for them. fuck it. yeah WHATEVER IN YOUR FACE.

than came home had a good dinner. so damn shiok!
i wonder if shang xuan will be jealous my dinner was just campbells soup.
but lunch was SUPERB! ((: i loved lunch alot. ((:

oh wellsy, enough of my bimbotic crap. im dead tired with my headache and
tired feet and lose brains yaking at my dad. laughing over a show like a nut brain.
blahh. now there are some disturbing kid thats talking to me. how irritating.
what donny guy. like whatever la. so irritating, with a irritating pic. kanasai!

oh well goodnight now.

i miss my botak baby

2008-12-14T23:26:00.003+08:00

i wonder how are you.

i miss you, you little botak kid!

(hope you'll never see this, if not you'll kill me)

hahahs.

i wanna see you nowww,

or at least be a gentleman and wake up

and MSG ME, YOU FOOL!

rant rant rant..
can you people keep you comments to yerself?
so fucking idiotic and senseless and pathetic.
=.=. like shut up man! shut the fuck up!
shut your pathetic fucking mouth up. you think
you so bloody good looking, show us your pic la
dumkfuck. you suck, you fucking suck,
you're worst than a duck! so shut the fuck up!

you haters dont know how irritated i am right now.
so fucking lame, so fucking hilarious,
you titfaces have issues to attend to. so STFU before,
my ah lian-ness comes alive, and maybe i'll fucking
hunt you down, im not fearless, but you unleashed a
anger in me which i buried a long time ago, so be fucking afraid!

FUCK YOU,

MOTHERFUCKERS!

I FUCKING HATE YOU TOOO!

YOU FUCKERS DESERVE TO EAT

SHYT!

_l_ YOU!

contraDICK!

2008-12-13T01:18:00.003+08:00

dear darren,

you're sadly mistaken for my boyfriend by a 12 yr old kid,
like =.=? i wished you know. hahas. you'll be away for two weeks,
i'll be lonely and would you let this poor soul,let her mind wonder
into a world of darkness again?? okok LOL! before you kick the
shayt outta me, i was joking.

anyhooos..
to the dicky inky part.
so sick of spammers already!!

hello to passerby.

i was woken up by K.G bout your little schem bout me
contradicting myself.

basically idk who you are, cause you named yourself "passerby"
so i think either you are free or lame or mostly bored.

i doubt im contradicting myself cause, i said " SCENE KID AS YOU MAY SAY"
yah, and i claim im not. yes true. i dont deny that fact.
but the sentence scene kid as you may say, have alot 2 meaning,
either you think i am or its other ppl's view.
so i guess my bestfriend carol already say, you are contradicting yourself too.

please be carful with what you say. it makes you look dumb.
and if you gonna tag hate stuff. HAH! go ahead! i dont care..

and PUHH-LEASE... if you wanna spam or tag, USE PROPER ENG!
"ur contradicting urself u say u not a scene kid and in ur
video u claime ur not/ so arnt u saeing u r?"

what the fuck are you trying to say? sound so lame??
yeah have some basic respect by leaving your fucking name.
i dont need PASSERBY-S in my life, you pple just bring trouble.
and you ppl think you are so good in bashing ppl however you want
which i think its childish and narrow thinking.

1. i dont see whats wrong being a scene kid and not going to gigs,
2. i dont see why "ugly" ppl cant be happy together with their stead.
3. i dont see whats so skinny to be has scene trend gotta do with it.
4. i dont see why spammers say some ppl have no future... etc.
5. i dont see why spammers LOVE (and i mean LOVE) to aim at the chest.
( its sick or either you're flat ((: suck on it if you just hated what i said ((: )

yeah its just some rant thats going on in my cyber world of friends.
but seriously, dont you SPAMMERS have something else to do?
and also i have another theory.

instead of hating, why not start accepting? why be so bitter? isnt it crap?
dont you have enough of problem in your life, at least this life time? why
bring so much hatred into your saddened life?

probably its love.

2008-12-11T23:35:00.004+08:00

SHAYT!

avenged sevenfold for life!

alesana for the winning!

im falling down,

im singing out,

Save me!!

maybe i loved you, but not enough.

i ignored you this whole period. i falled

face down, and fluid is leaking from my eyeballs.

im sorry im not daring enough to step up.

im sorry i did foolish things to say i hate life.

im sorry now i cant look after you, i got to deal with myself.

btw my loveliest best joker, idiotic friend and a "crush"

stupid darren tan jia wei. GOODBYE for 2 years.

goodbye lover,

what to do when your bestfriend is your crush and you can do nothing bout

it, but say goodbye to him cause NS snatched him away. )): ass wipe!

bye bye darren lover..

see you in offically 2 years.

PLEASE RMB OUR BET AND YOUR PROMISES,

IF NOT....HAHAHAHAHA..

I'LL KICK YOU TILL YOU DIE,

AND THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN DO BOUT IT ((:

i miss you, your msges and mostly,

i love you "chao ang mo ah beng"!!

im sorry bum, i caused you to worry for me so much,

until you wanna vomit blood, well this 2years you'll

be "away" like i promised, i'll look after myself.

and i hope you wont change into a real ah beng.

if not i'll never talked to you again!

aite so ya'll have seen my crush and what shyt is going on.

im going to watch tv now. BYEBYE!

P.S. I LOVE YOU

and maybe always will.

take care hun.

Sweetheart, You are sadly mistaken.

2008-12-11T00:29:00.003+08:00

if i had 3 wishes:

1. go back to school.
2. orange my hair
3. lotsa money coming to me.

newyearseve video coming soon!
((: watch what shit i'm going to do during new years eve!
im going to spray can ribbons on bengs and trip lians!! ((:

FEAR ME BIATCHES!

2008-12-08T18:15:00.003+08:00

so this dumb ass spammed a whole lot of crap on my email.

a reply for that ass hole!

2008-12-08T16:08:00.003+08:00

S . T . F . U

heres a video done by me

in my opinion 'bout scene and emo kids.

sorry bout the vid quality!

comment and i'll try to another one.

if i can get to do better video on this sub,

i might put in on youtube.

so tell me how it goes

P.S. if you're a passerby, if you ever see me on the street,

dont say hi. i'll freak out ((:

leave me breathless when you fall into my eyes

2008-12-08T00:21:00.005+08:00

close my eyes and let my mind escape into a world of dreams.

but im not waking up, closing my eyes and keeping them shut,

cause the next part isn't going to be a very pretty sight.

Forgetting about tonight, tomorrow will be here so soon.

Beautiful, you know you leave me breathless when you fall into my eyes

Every time I look at you I can't believe how magical you are

The stars belong to you my angel

My heart belongs to you my angel

Run away with me into a world where time seems to not exist

There is just no reason for you to let life bring you down

Please come with me and let me show you,

the smile on my face will show you.

If I should die before I wake

Pray no one my soul to take

If I wake before I die,

Rescue me with your smile

To die is to know that you're alive

And my river of blood won't run dry

I never wanted to lose you, no

But a cold heart is a dead heart

And it feels like I've been buried alive by love

Not all knight in shining armour can make your dreams come true,

they are not quite as charming as they may seem.

M.I.A

2008-12-05T23:41:00.004+08:00

kinda need to get away from the world.
i'm physically tired and pretty much emotionally too.

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

i really dont know.
im seriously tired.
i wanna die. i dont wanna live anymore.
i hate this life, i hate what im going through
and people around doing things to make it worst.

such feelings,
being doubt at. i dont understand.
could what was said be a lie, to cover the lies up?
only God and owner knows.

such words,
piercing through the heart,
highly doubted by trusted ones.
what more was i to say or do?

Was my dad's birthday, what a great way to start.
i thought would be a great day, but i guess not.
thanks though. i really appreciated it alot.

such question was not found in years.
now i know what i am. i wish you well.

i dont need a explanation, i dont need an apology.
im not gonna be jesus to give my right,
but i'll bury what was asked, i shall leave it behind.
But things are gonna change.

P.S. do not assume yourself.
cause im not answering anyone's dumbfuck questions.
you wanna tag in my blog go ahead and start ranting at
me, yeah whatever, in your face. im not giving a bull crap.
im not in the mood to deal with any shyt so dont push it.
suck on that. dont call or sms me and ask me bout this
post. im not going to entertain your question and im not
going to hesitate to fuck you over the phone, try your luck,
cause when im not in a mood, dont bother trying.

*thank you darren! you still suck at this bet.
i will win! you're such a loser la. so much advantages.
ASS WIPE, IN YOUR FACE

"I fucking pity these people who never knows whats going
behind the fucking smoke screens and yet they wanna laugh
at how pathetic i am. I think im way fucking stronger and classy
than u because i chose my paths and my decisions when some of u ,
the decisions are already made and u have to pretend to be content.
Just a rant on how some people can be so hypocrite." - Jester Bunny

Oh my god! i worship her in alot of ways. like she's so fucking
realistic la. and she's like my idol for reality. so thumbs up to her!
((:

okay enuf of my rubbish but yeah. pretty much i that all im goin to say.
but like i said if you wanna rant at me, try your luck. im not bothered.

cause usually i do.. not this time.

timmy turner

2008-12-02T13:34:00.002+08:00

dont i deserve a chance to go back school?

what is your problem? sigh.. even if i blogged, dad wouldnt know
what im going through. nevermind. no one needs to know.

usually i care.. not this time..
im not bothered anymore. its their fault..

all i hear is blah blah blah coming outta your mouth

2008-12-02T00:03:00.002+08:00

well basically its midnight now and im pretty much watching catdog ((:
i knowwwwwww like WHAT THE HELL LAURA??! are you for real?

yes. im bored and its one of the best show ever. i love catdog, hey arnold
yeah. old shows are really nice. i miss alot of shows too.. just that i cant rmb
them. so what if im a hardcore metal music lover? i have my sentimental
cartoon state of mind too. ((: oh well. its crazy. i have been sleep 4 or 5 am everyday
ever since that dumb show. I NEED A SWITCH OF TIME!! im turning into a
nocturnal alien soon! and best ever can be.. its really quiet in the night, boring too..
no one to really chat with. i really hate where i'm at.

my friends have exams, attachments.. no one for me to poke at..
its really quiet. as the tv keeps on talking, the time passes even faster
and with a blink of and eye, its already 5 and im still not sleepy..
always trying to force myself to sleep, but things just keep rolling into my head.
and thats when i wonder, is that when i start to be introverted. i feel like a freak!

i feel im becoming mad soon. and soon i'll see myself in IMH. i think im pretty much
crazy. i feel i need to get away from the world. idk.. i need to go to school. i need to get
busy! if not im really becoming mad, i need to find a job! i do i do i do!! but i hate it
when everyone ask me, are you 19? fuuuuuuuuuuuck! im 17, SEVENTEEEEEEEEEN!!
it really piss me off cause like i know im like living my american life, im not like any of them!
i am young!! and i look young. so screw ya'll! and btw,

JOE IS FARTING ON THE PHONE!!
and HE WANTS TO SHYT! like er? thats sick!

oh yeah i heard a couple of shyt stories, which is kinda sick.. -_-"

im not telling you cause its sick and its damn ORIGINAL LA!
like the sickest of the sickest will do that. i know gav is daring
enough to EAT the challenge ((: i wonder why?? cockcroaches..
flys..grinding everything you see.. oh god. you are sick!!

so any ways im hungry, imma go off now, to see what i can eat.. ((:

Normally i love to be awake in the middle of the night..not this time

cause i had a bad day

2008-12-01T21:01:00.002+08:00

im SO SORRY i didnt answer most of your calls.
im not feeling well. fever is back with a bang and i woke
up with my contact lenses stuck in my eye causing
infection. like wtp?! i was sleeping like a log. i know a couple of
calls and msges came in, but im seriously too tired.
and my eye hurt.

btw thanks for tagging back my dearest bestfriends i could ask for!
Gavin and Kevin.
Martini's, thanks letting me know im not alone in this mess ((:
thank you very much.

So now we know that this Uncle Tan A.K.A : OI is a random spammer!
yeah and that still dont piss me, its makes me pity you more cause i think
you're friendless and lonely. yeah take yourself you IMH cause they have
really nice nurses to interact with. i bet you are just sad. yeah. if you really
have a problem with me, tell me in my face. not behind you're computer screen,
in my tagboard(though its and open blog). yeah whatever. dont your mama
teached you bout this thing called RESPECT?! learn to respect others.

TO Uncle Tan?

2008-12-01T12:49:00.003+08:00

i dont know who the fuck you are.
but seriously, if you're a spammer you should seriously fuck off.
stop doing lame stuff. and i do not go to geylang. yeah.

BTW FYI, im still a virgin, and yeah, why the hell would i want
to destroy my body for a nobody? DUH??! and if you're a hater,
you know what? thanks for taking time to come my blog and give a damn
bout what i said and try to bring me down, but guess what?
you're wasting your time. and you're mad! either you are a psychotic on the loose
or you're a real maniac ((:

but actually im not pissed at you, i actually pity you.

i think you're just lonely and bored. you should really find a job.

P.S. This is your IP address: 203.127.182.2

whatever the hell you wrote in my tagboard can go to the
police, and i wonder what will happen to you ((:
and OH YEAH, you've got a name dont you?
type it down, dont bee a coward and write all this things
behind you computer screen. i dont see what you're getting at.
JERK! you just stinked my tagboard. ((:

BLEAH XD

2008-11-30T19:18:00.002+08:00

daddy just got me a hard disk.
and waiting, waiting for my LG VIEWTY
or Samsung F or k 480. YAY!!!

so today overall was a dumb boring day.

woke up at 8, went to drum place to practice.
than head down to suntec to meet daddy..
and finally i got my external hard disk, 250 gb
worth 99.00 dollars. pssst its not a x'mas gift. AMEN!
i want my skate shoooooooooeeess! yahahahahas!
than went to daddy's canteen shop, took latte and seaweed
for tea. yahahahas! freeeeeeeee ((: than head down to
tm to see internet plan, hmm didnt get that cause daddy wanted
the usb internet portal thingy.. )): not the pc.. DAMMIT! if not its mine!
hahahahhas.. but NOOOOOOOO. wtp?! rahh. so anyhooooos.

you never guess who i saw, julian working in M1 shop
and miss ethel koh at suntec SUPERMAN SHOP! i was like ???????
okay?? she looks familiar, is it really her?? so i took a breath and asked her
is it her. she got a shock and we chatted for a while, than daddy was like who
is she?? and i was like? teacher? hahahs. but oh wells.

whatever.... i still want my LG VIEWTY or SAMSUNG!!!
raaaaaaaaaaaah they all loook like a camera.. how nice..
btw, daddy thought sitex was at expo and he argued with me
to got suntec. when we got there, HAHA! HE SAID SORRRRRY!
wowweee.. LOL! but yeah i was always right... NOT!

but overall today is fine.

i feel dead

666

2008-11-29T23:50:00.002+08:00

i feel so betrayed.
i feel so moody.
i feel so crude.
i feel so violent.
i feel so blue.
i feel so mad.
i feel so tired.

i feel so moody the whole day.
i hate suck up people. i think they suck.
its like... its sick..and utterly gross.
whatever, its not my life and i think i shouldnt
really bring you down as a human. its not my problem.
i shouldn't bother. its none of business. i hate you still.

im so tired. stupid show made me cannot sleep till 7 am
and woke up at 11 to daddy's loud voice. almost killed me
in my sleep, and i was dreaming of ben and jerry's ice cream!
wtp? i was hungry. hahas. hmm. UPGRADING MY LINE!!!
maybe getting new phone if i plead daddy enough.. but a phone is not
what i really want. i want sony t770 cam... something like that. )):
love it man!

btw to me and my handphone. Happy One Year.
Faithful phone ((: never betrayed me once, but
fell very sick twice..)): but its okay now. one more
year im changing phone. i want a gooooood phone.
a good mp3, a good cam. hahahas. so many things.
so little money. sighs.

oh well. okay. im chatting with daddy,
he wants to get new laptop for me through some internet plan thing.
yays for me. and tmr daddy getting me a hard disk thing!
yay!! good good. bigger the capacity means the more i can dl songs!
muahahahahahahhas! kick ass baby! okay enough of bragging.
later he wont buy i paisei. hahahs.

oh well. i think my body is mad cause, i'm like falling sick and than
feels like im not the next minute. aiya.. crazy weather too. no wonder
its my bestfriend. dammit.

rain baby rain. dont ever sun shine!!
weather's so hot, killing me inside.....
LOL! a change of check yes juliet.
hahahs. LOL! seriously i neeeeed
cold weather. im having fits from all
the hot weather.

well.. its crazy. i love one statement
i saw in msn. - seriously, we're all the same!

anyhooos. bout my other post, save me someone. i need help.
im drowning from all that has eaten me. im passing away by the minutes.

im emotionaless.

haha!

2008-11-28T23:44:00.004+08:00

okay.

hi ppl.
as you can see im pretty much tired and lame at this hour.
im so tired im bout to kill myself and.. idk? just so tired.

okay so came back from a movie and bbq ((:
yeah. i watched quarantine. ((: soooo swwwweeeeet!
for my opinion, i think quarantine is better than rec.
cause there are some hilarious parts, which is good to
enlighten frighten faint hearts like mine. half the time
i was screaming cause the scenes are so shocking, and
the ZOMBIE (not forgetting to mention) they look so
nasty and i think they stink! half the time i felt like puking
cause of the foaming, saliva and blood, and the *puking noise*
eww shit. i feel like doing it now. ew god! sick! but seriously.
i think ya'll should go watch it. its nice. ((:

and than from P.S we headed down for bbq, we ate, played songs,
made big fire, than played captain's ball (YAY!!) i was like the
crazy maniac screaming!!! hahas and i kept disturbing eugene so i
hit the ball away from him catching it.. and zieon got his hands dirty
by all the mud and he asked for a hi5 and i was like no thanks but
you can hi5 with my shoe, its says hi! ((: and oh yah, i swear i cleaning
the mud on every guy thats near me ((: including xiao didi-s ((: hahas
meanie.. yes.. ((: and i kicked AH HOCKS BUTT!! who ask him show me
his butt. but ah hock, if you're reading this, sorry if your pants kena mud )):

but oh wells. i think i had overall a very happy day, i didnt feel so stress like
the other days before. ((: i feel good, but than again happiness last awhile when
im around.. so fuck that.

anyhoooos. i will upload the pics soon, i hope. im so lazy.. hahahs
i think i'll be quite dead for awhile. i need to get away from the world.
so yeah, i feel so dead inside now. i feel like im lifeless like seriously,
only because one of my bestest friend in the world, ALEX, is so sick,
im getting out of my house and being very nice to cook pasta for him.
yes i know some of you are like " ehhh you bias sia!!" ya ya ya whatever..
get really sick and maybe i'll cook for you other than that go to hell! hahas.
i got a feeling he's got anorexia. home sick for bout a month and everything,

hun, please look after yourself, you already so skinny, now even skinner!
my heart pain you know, like, seriously i almost cried, i felt so sad for alex.
i thought he'll be happy that he's getting away from the world and everything,
but little did i expected, he turned out to be homesick, i guess its still US that
keeps his world go round and i think without alex, gavin, kevin, KG, daniel,
nikki rachael, carol, xian, i am nothing now. its really them that colour my world ((:
retards and risk takers that stayed with me through the thick and thin and slippery ((:
really thankful. and of course i have many wonderful church friends not forgetting!
but yeah.

my heart is really broken seeing alex like that. i dont want anything to happen to him,
if not i really dont know what am i going to do. )): i hope he'll feel better! ((:
ALEX! WE'VE YET TO GO U.S. TO SEE A7X SO YOU BETTER BE ALIVE
OR WHEN I REACH HEAVEN AND SEE YOU THERE, I'LL SO KICK YOUR
PATHETIC ( maybe dont even have) ASS! yeah! rmb this man! tag me if you see this
which i doubt you will. cant even play your psp properly. bleah.. get gavin to read you.
he knows how my accent will go.. HAHAHAHAHA -historical laughters-...

thinking back, i and kg dont really know each other like till a few months ago.
even though i partied the biggest party at his home 2 years ago..
amazingly we look almost splitting twins.
like he's got the handsome look and everything but he's still gay in my opinion
cause there's only one me in this world, ya! hahas. yeah whatever. but it was that
bbq where he lent me his bike and thought me some tricks with it, which i still cant
master. thats bad. i think its because im afraid of falling again and fracturing my wrist..
so i guess so. yeah.. im pretty much tired and..

OH YEAH i think i'll be changing my line to prepaid or can say use both.. hahas.
need to maintain my bill man. man dingo at home is pissed like shit.
and i dont wanna offend my dad, cause i'm left with one month
to prove to daddy im worth going back to school and i will study properly again.

i told myself, laura you need to wake up, you needa do something. yeah i have to
change. i think im becoming worst im terms of temper and my limits cant stretch
much and i get agitated alot. and worst of all, i've become really quiet when im at
home with my family, i just dont wanna talk to any of them like, i feel there's nothing
my dad needs to know bout what is happening to me, the shit around me thats going
on. idk, i think at some point i hate my dad for thinking he really knows me, which
i doubt he even knows what im thinking. i feel so unsecured at times at home. like,
im in my own world, blogging, dairy-ing when all he thinks, i've fallen and not bothering.
like fuck! im trembling, im trying to bring myself to term with what has happen in
the past few years, which i think i've yet to forget. kenny and his dearest that committed
suicide, the friend that i know who will be there for me till the very end. so much
memories. im holding onto everything with my strength and everything i got.
and all daddy can say those shit to me? like do anyone REALLY REALLY know me!?

no one knows who i really am when im alone, maybe the exception of alex.. cause
he's insane enough to almost bang my gate down. ya..i've only left with my eyes
to see what the rest of world is giving me, and keeping my mouth shut to wait for
karma cause im tired of fighting back and im left with very little emotions to toy with,
i am already sick of how the world is treating me, well i may be invisible to my family,
fair enough, im the odd one out like nelson is, one drug addict and another emo.
yeah so what my whole family is book smart and shit? like i give a fucking damn
to any fucking shitlings in my entire family. please! i am who i am and like i always
say, life's too short to be someone else.

seriously i've got enough shit from dickheads and my family. well if i could exchange
one thing, i wanna exchange my life for me to be a immortal. i dont wanna live this life.
no one fucking understands me. everyone thinks im a punk/scene/emo kid that
dont give a shit, you know what? i am a human with feelings, i deserve respect too,
do i get that? but nooooo, you're a sad kid who deserve to die!! i get family members insulting me (i wont name names, but you fucking know who you are!)
get friends telling me shit, i get dickheads busting around ith fake accounts,
but you know what? i aint gonna fall back, you may think i would just shut my mouth
because i am afraid? I AM NOT. cause what goes around comes around.

im not saying aceing your studies is bad, what im trying to say is,
doesnt mean you're the best, you can look down on ppl like me or anyone worst
than you and i are. seriously you ppl have too keep your fucking pile hole shut!!
you dont know how much we are bleeding inside because of loved ones dying and
the trauma we go through everyday. i can safely say i am not the bad ass i used to be,
but mean to some ass thinking they are"high and almighty" ya _l_ you in your face!

some ask what is holding me on, i can safely say is God, e361, my retard friends...
and memories i dont wanna lose. i can say that i am foolish at times, but i think
im breaking inside, i feel no love, no emotions, no life. call me which ever you want,
though i laugh and smile alot, its only because i dont wanna spoil anybody's day and
if i were to be myself, no one in the world would dare sit next to me in the train. it
happened once. i am not "fake" nor either can i say i am "real". i am just following
whats right for me to be respectful to others. but some thinks im otherwise..

im not posting to gain any sympathy, well i dont fucking need that cause i dont know
what the fuck is that, cause in this world, anything can be real and fake.
i've gone through what most kids dont want their parents to do.
i've gone through my gangster days, i've gone through being casted aside,
i've gone through every fucking shit i doubt no one wants to go through.
you think im strong? hah! hell no!

i think its very clear. some just dont understand, some just dont care..
some just love to think every otherwise. yeah, i have friends coming up to
me and say that im really wise at some point of a situation, why am i still stuck
in a "trend" like that, answer is simple, the world cant change for you, only you
can change for the world. but should i be the one to start when no one listens even
if you're screaming at the top of your lungs till your throat's sore like hell? no one
is gonna listen. im tired of trying to reason things out, im tired of standing still,
im tired of sheltering those in need (thats the reason why i shoooo alot of pple of,
i dont wanna listen to your fucking crap.) im tired of all else, i need a break.
i need a shoulder to cry one. im tired of all this shit that going round, im tired..
im tired im tired, im tired of your complainings and
whinning how life suck(though it really doesn't seem to me..)

how bout me? whose gonna listen to me? whose gonna kick ass with me?
i know alex, kev,gav, kg, carol and daniel will. i know nikki rach and xian will.
(i love love love them!)

i know of friends who use my name to get"discounts" (not for shop use)
i know of friends who try to be friends with me cause of idk what dumb reason
i know of friends who be friends with me cause they got no others to go to.

you know what? i hate you!
i hate you for causing my life miserable!
i hate you for using me!

its leaves me to say this _l_ YOU

usually i dont bother... not this time
hope i will blog soon..

fall face down, fluid leaks out your eyeballs!

2008-11-25T13:59:00.004+08:00

BITCH, I HATE YOU, LEAVE ME ALONE!

im feeling

blue

angry

upset

disappoint

but most of all,
i feel Betrayed!

what the heck did i even do to you?

run your mouth when I'm not around
it's easy to achieve, you cry to weak friends that sympathize
can you hear the violins playing your song?
those same friends tell me your every word.

i hope all you ever do now, is die!
i fucking hate you! you bloody slut! fucking hoe!
daughter of a whore! you fucking suck!

Seventeen aint so sweet afterall!

Well she never was the best
Yeah at following the trends
Stayed one step above the rest
And even though it seemed

Like the world was crashing on her
Didn't let it hold her down
hold her back oh
worry you'll show them

There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
There's a scream in your voice
And I hope you will be heard
There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
Until you're heard, you're heard

Seventeen is just a test
Yeah and I would recommend
That you live with no regrets
And even if it seems

Like the world is crashing on you
You shouldn't let it hold you down
Shouldn't hold you back oh no, woah oh

Don't worry you'll show them

There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
There's a scream in your voice
And I hope you will be heard
There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
Until you're heard, you're heard

Relax girl, turn down the lights
No one can see you shining
Relax girl, it'll be alright
No one can stop you if you try
Point of rhythm is to follow it in time
To listen to the beating in your mind
Remember if you seek then you shall find
Woah oh

There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
There's a scream in your voice
And I hope you will be heard
There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
Until you're heard, you're heard

There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
There's a scream in your voice
And I hope you will be heard
There's a fire in your eyes
And I hope you'll let it burn
Until you're heard, you're heard

...until you're heard...

the perfect song for me!
so yeah. you're not going to affect me bitch!
@#$%^&*!

so what if i have a colourful hair? so what if i have facial piercings?
so what if im different? its not affecting you? so just take your pathetic
life and find something to do and stop hanging around my neck and
run your mouth when im not around! i dont need this shit from you!

go to hell bitch!!

and as for Jacky, people please keep him prayers!

he fall and is having a slip disc.. )): my idol is sick in the back!

RAHH! WHY EVERYONE AROUND ME FALLING DOWN!

Get Well Soon, IDOL!!!

Jia You~!
(you still owe me alarm ring beats!! -evil intentions- maniacal laughter!-)

a tale of two person

2008-11-24T23:18:00.003+08:00

Mervyn cut his hair. yeah. kinda disappointing..
cause my idol just cut his hair sooooooo freaking short!!
and its sad! no more hawks up!! its hair down )):

next one.
I DONT BELIEVE I PULLED THROUGH
5 DAYS OF THE ASIA CONFERENCE. Prais the Lord!

next..
im confuse between zz said bout the guy, ____y and OTHER weird one!
i hate hang messages. get straight to the damn point. but like i even care..
but i've been thinking more bout ____y.. cause he's more spiritual. but
pig that aside. i really dont know!!!!
X)

next..
i laughed so much today, i think im going to die of laughter..
inside joke! a funny one too. those that went for the wake (nothing to do with it)
had a good laughing time! ((: im glad i went!

next..
my mind is whirling, as in.. im so tired till i even think im walking on air..
and when the train is infront of me, my body is moving to side when im at the platform!
and im getting short tempered and i cant type for nuts! dammit. what the pig!

next..
i think very sooooon.. i'll die. die of all that gavin crapped with me!
btw, ALEX SEETOH the smelly toe is back! yay! i've got a skinny
bouncer to walk me home again!!!! yay yay yay! at last! and i've got many many
sea shells. and i dont know why.....? i think imma paint them and stick
it on alex's nose, face, eyes. mouth and MOOBS! ((: hahas. oh well.
he's sick so he cant send me home)): get well soon. he's very sick )):
fuck. i thought we could hangout on wed, by then i'll regain my energy((:
but he's not feeling good. nvm i've got maybe 2 years here so i'll treasure
my boy bestfriendS! and my lovely carol tooooo! i miss you girl!!!

and also my true true true girlfriends!!!
i love you babes!!

well pretty much my life today is insane. i laughed like a mad person today
almost fell to ground cause i cant control my leg. im f-ing'sane!
and today one indian guy in the train keep looking at me. im not racist but
yeah seriously its annoying that ppl keep looking at me and a dumbfuck guy
asked me for my number cause he said im cute. and im like i dooooo not associate
myself with the word cute and i told him attached. oh my god!! !%#$^&*!
he's not bad looking but.. seriously.. f-off man!
you've got a drop dead hideous gorgeous look!
really! oh my!! and ask if i was waiting for my bf to come fo the prom..
im like er... no? why do i wanna go to a prom in jeans and jacket? and in the
first place why the heck do i even wanna go to a damn prom?? yeah!

an answer for SOMEONE whose probing me,
why i dont wanna go into a ______________ :
rahhh. hais.. so much thinking till i think its scaring me and i dont have
the courage to go into anymore _______________ yeah. i've no energy
for that. as much as i wanna find a stable boyfriend, im gonna break down too!
for as much as i know, i think im going to void that for a very long time...
im so used to being with myself almost a year now, doing my stuff alone. its
gonna be weird if someone just step into my life. i think i've turned into a freak!
im feel scared of myself at times too.

i've been quieter. Like more introverted. I've always been an obvious extrovert,
drawing my energy from the people around me, and I used to HATE being alone.
But after a year now, I've become much more withdrawn
and I'm starting to prefer spending time alone.
I used to be quite the hyperactive kid, going crazy
and doing stupid things on a regular basis, but now..lifeless..kid.

i can predict, its gonna be a dull week for me this week.
so if you happen not to receive my msg, replies from msn or f-ster,
please do not bug me! i'll be very annoyed! yeah.. do not prob who
are the ppl i never mention names, i'm not obligated to tell you.
so if you really wanna know, please jump down 13 stories high!

seriously, you really wont wanna piss me off.. cause im not in a very
good mood, and im pmsing like a bitch! yeah. yeah..

but overall i had a disturbing day. very disturbing one.
gross too. shyt and all. eww what the pig man! but yeah

im going to retire to bed before i pass away, my head is spinning
and i feel im walking on air. my eyes are drooping . its tearing too.
yeah.

P.S. screw alex for being sick.. eat more grass, it'll make you healthier
and also the faster you get well the faster you can send me home.
my house is begining to be very unsafe. with all the ____ around,
i get no peace. so noisy and nonsense-ishful! yeah. get well soon!
for the record, i miss you alex!! get well soon!

Goonight loves and eyeball fluid dreams to ya'll.

its late. gavin if you're reading this, please go sleep.
i dont want you to die of not sleeping. fyi two days
you've not been sleeping! i cant stay up anymore longer
to accompany you my friend. tooooo tired!! -hugs- sleep now!

endless thoughts drips from my soul.

2008-11-20T23:45:00.002+08:00

things arent turning the way i want.
did i do something bad? was i bad?

the dream that never stop haunting me..
living the way i want, is it wrong?
tell me.

im so tired. let me go, cause im letting you go.
reaching out, but im never catching your hand.
fall deep into thoughts i can never find the answer..

im tired.

hope you're happy, im falling.
hope you're fine when im dead.
cause you never realised im dead inside.
i feel no angst when you told me that.

i hope you know im already dead inside by all that you damage in me.
i love no one cause of all the things you did,
i feel no guilt for what i've done cause you done the same.
blame yourself for me treating you cold.

P.S. dont just msg me, call me. hate me, i dont care.
you're a NO BODY! so if you really hate me...
go get a life and stop finding faults from the past.
it gets you no where. learn the mistakes. but i think
i forgot, you're perfect in your own eyes. but to me
you're a disappointment to me. all the promises you made are lies

indeed. you're not one to fear but one to be stepped and trempled on!

2 days down, 3 to go!

2008-11-20T23:19:00.002+08:00

ASIA CONFERENCE WAS A BLAST!

but i still prefer EMERGE!
this asia conference, im not feeling it.
im not feeling the vib, the beat.

the preaching and everything was good.
the main message is to win over the lost
in asia and revival and everything.
touching the world with God's love.
but seriously, im still not feeling it.
i guess its because its more for adult.
so cannot toooooooooo rock & hip!

hmm tmr gotta wake up at 5.15...
than meet linette at 7.30.. yawns!
yup. im not feeling it. but feeling tired!
i've never woke up few days in a row at 5 ++
just to do my hair. dammit! so lame..
die! tmr idk what to where...... boring!
hahahs.. hmm.. so ya. see ya'll after asia conference!

should i give you up after 2 years now??

November baby ----- DARREN TAN JIA WEI!
and you know i still love you.. so here's a dedication for you!
ass wipe! stupid maria! do my house chores now!! hehes!

Koukasen

2008-11-17T14:51:00.003+08:00

Romaji

Hon no sukoshi mae ni te ni ireta you na mirai wo
Omoide to issho ni marumete nage suteta

Mada saki wa nagai yo nimotsu wa mou ii yo

I am dreaming of a girl rocked my world
Nanboku e tsuzuku koukasen
Kono saki ni wa kitto aru to
Sasayaiteru

Yukkuri to katamuku ashimoto ni ki wo tsukete
Omou yori anata wa zutto tsuyoi kara ne

Miminari ga yamanai na kimi no koe ga mada kikoeru yo

Nanokunen mo mae ni tsuketa kizuato nara nokotte
Kienakutemo ii sa itami wa mou nai kara ne

Chi no nijinda ashiato oite ikareta kioku mo
Dare ni datte aru daro kakusu tsumori mo nai kedo

I am dreaming of a girl rocked my world
Nanboku e tsuzuku koukasen
Kono saki ni wa kitto aru to
Sasayaiteru

Her name is Laura

English
Not so long ago, I thought I held this future in my hands
But then I crumpled it up along with my memories and threw it away

It's still a long way, but I don't need any baggage

I am dreaming of a girl who rocked my world
The elevated railway that runs from north to south
Whispers
That she's surely up ahead

Look down slowly and watch your step
You're so much stronger than you think

The ringing in my ears won't stop. I can hear your voice again
I've still got these scars from a million years ago
It doesn't matter if they don't disappear, cause there's no more pain

Everyone has bloody footprints and memories left behind
I don't mean to hide them

I am dreaming of a girl who rocked my world
The elevated railway that runs from north to south
Whispers
That she's surely up ahead

Her name is Laura

the song is nice and im going crazy..
i want HIM to sing this to me.
but i know its a wishful thinking.
nice song though. ((:
thats all for tdy ((:

2008-11-16T10:43:00.015+08:00

am i rocking shit or what?

its just my wishful thinking. i've got your gun on my head.
me face down against your floor.

i look so punk as ever.

bestfriends do craziest stuff forever

old school phone!

mad fella

i know i look like KG but please.

im not his sister!

emo....

some just never understand

mad people doing mad stuff

(psst. im talking bout the one in the center) ((:

i are macho.. not!

i miss you..

2008-11-16T00:25:00.008+08:00

photos as promised..
got somemore. buuuuuuuut...
there are some still with est.
so yah.

Make over magic.. ((:

the hair is so rocking right?
i did with the make up tooo ((:

she's trying to be FUNNNNY!

i know this reminds you of KEVIN GAN!
when he was gay! hahahas

sarah being lame..
i miss you lovely!

during my bday celebration ...

our dinner/supper and what nots

a total off 87.60 cents.. ((: how wonderful ((:

yeah so pretty much thats all i have unless you wanna see more
of my face alone and the unglam things i do with my party ppl.
but yeah. pretty much im always on my own.. so our own grown
photographer is holding on to my photos so... anyways im hungry now..
going to the kitchen to find something to bite ((:

seee ya'll!

smoke some weed or something.

2008-11-13T18:06:00.005+08:00

Basically this my last post on what emo/scene kid really is.
and what i wanna mention. yeah to AB and AL who arent
involve in this shit, im sorry but you gotta suck on it.
you're beloved friends screwed this up and world war 5
is a bout to break loose. so yeah.

Haters should just shut up and smile!

yeah i agree. please. you ppl dress like one
and deny you're a wanna be. please. jesus christ!
grow up and get a grip of yourselves. stop acting
like a bunch of monkeys.

oh yeah calling us emo. isnt chinese song all bout
love, and all you think is bout love? yeah. emo aint
all bout love. try being in our shoes for one year,
go through all the shit we've been and oh yeah, most emos',
dont listen to chinese songs and we speak absoloute english.
and we dont go all the time, "KANNINABEICHAOCHEEBYE".
but we go like, "fuck, cunt,how,whore, slut, bitch, mutha fucker, etc"
yeah. so please. stop your dedicated philosephy on emos.

FYI, you ah bengs and ah lians, ripped off our scene clothes
with all the skinny jeans and small clothes, yeah please. suck up
to the fact, and btw, start listening to brutal music and understand
why we are like that, every show we go to, we watch our backs,
yeah, so get your fucking facts right first, emo is love, i dont deny.
but we dont go to the extent of how you shitters go.

much said, what is emo? the real fact.

Close enough to punk and rock. Emo is now know for it's more emotional state of mind.
Instead of the anger hard-core way of expressing one-self , Emo has taken a new tole on the
twentith century of expressing yourself. From the music with strong emotion and feeling,
unlike hard rock or this is more of an alternative way to let your feeling be known.
Emo is not only a classification or a type of music it's also taken over the way one expresses
themself by dressing.

yeah so you rippers/haters, shut up and smile.
i dont want to have to go through this piece of shit yet again.
than again i dont mind telling ya'll in the face over again.

we emo/scene kid did nothing to you, so leave us alone.
you needa enlighten up. take a chill pill, coolaid,
smoke some weeds or do something, yeah?
stop acting like the world revolves around you.

go to a show, understand what it means to be one.
its not just fashion, but is a state of mind.
and.. basically..

WE DO WHATEVER THE FUCK WE WANT!
you can do the same! just stop hanging around our neck!

you rippers, as mentioned above, ab and al,
yeah piercings, you ripped them off too from us.
so yeah posers are more like ya'll, and using our
quotes for your picture addictions, you ripped them too.
so yeah. posers are meant for your labeling. yes? yes.

heres a video for you to understand what other metal head said.

and yeah. if you happen to be a ah lian/ah beng passerby,
i reeeeeeaaaally DONT CARE. its the fact. and i seeeerriiioussly doubt
you can do anything bout it, yeah. so if you gonna tag or something, its
shows how much a furid kid you are, how small your capacity is. so in chinese
its called XIAO QI (however the fuck you spell it) but yeah. and seriously
take life to another level, ya'll are behaving in such a way, at the other end
of the train i hear you shouting "KANNINABEICHAOCHEEBYE"? yeah.
you wanna act big and shit, but you know what? people find ya'll a nuisense.
yeah, so think bout what i wrote. UPGRADE yourselves.

But still, I DONT CARE!

yeah like the other day, i went to the mall with sylvia,
i had a group of KIDS, seriously, grow up! calling me
pink head/pink hair or something. yeah, FUCK YOU!
i seriously dont see if i know you. and yeah my name is LAURA
not PINK HEAD. and btw, i've only a strip of pink and blonde.

so please..
take this as an lesson to learn. cause ppl think you're fucking hilarious.
yeah. so leave other lives alone. and stop shouting in public, if you don't
wanna look stupid, when your kind is already being look down on. yeah.

P.S. Emo? im never one to start with, I'm a SCENE KID, with an
metal head. ((:

rmb to watch the vid to understand what a metal head said.

so till then when you understand
FUCK YOU!

i dont do cute stuff ((:

2008-11-12T12:54:00.004+08:00

i hate hello kitty and doremon and all cute stuff.
cute-ness scares me. yes im stereotypical. but i think
its a scare!

i are scene and emo. yes. so screw you. literally i consider my brains
metal, wait not really. but a lil of it. i do talk in sense and i are wise at times.
even though im not good at studies but seriously im wise in a way, i do have
my high and intense moment. well screw you. im insane too. yeah

say whatever you want. you may know me but i dont know you, it doesnt matter.
i dont hate you, but you're a crackerass bitch, a skank that stinks.
well its just too bad im more popular than you and thanks for the comment
you gave to me and my bestfriends. well fuck you. you have gave your
time to us, which makes us more popular. but anyhoos. you suck too!

yeah to haters, beggers can choose.
and also, mind your coarse language.
you know, it offended me lots.
yeah if you wanna play with my vocab.
three word, bring it on, BIIIITCH!

you're just so low lifed, nothing better to do,
lame, stereotypical, hoe, cunt, (if you're a girl).
basically, you suck.. you dont know how much
i think you are bored looking up videos to des us,
make shit comment bout us. but you know what,
it made us popular, and it made my day,((:
so to your intellectual thicket, think twice before
commenting something, because right now, it made you look stupid,
not to those that you commented but others think you're lame. ((:

congratulations to you, you tried so hard, you still dont fit in.
try harder my dear. but still i can say, you'll never be as good as us.
never will be. NEVER, BITCH! well, with you think i said something wrong
bet you've got my number. so dont hide in your shell behind your computer
screen and act like a big fuck, yeah. im not a gangster B.T.W, and also i think
i know who are you, so yeah. Just come out. If its a battle you want, its a war i 'll bring.

say whatever you want, you'll never bring me down, do something to better
to bring me down. i dont need this shit bout you. I may have the stares outside,
"OH!, she's a scene kid!" yeah yeah yeah fuck you! i look way nicer that ya'll
will ever be, so keep your comments to yourself , infact dont share your thoughts!

yeah
so
screw
you!

fool again..love again.. its you

2008-11-11T14:49:00.002+08:00

well. im so bummed up. )):
work sucks really bad. they ask me not to go work tdy.
will i not go tmr, than tmr, than, the next day, and another?

i really loved work. why do bad things keep happening to me?
why everytime i start to love something, bad things just keep
rolling in. the "sunshine" just dont stop. this f-up!

i so bummed up about it. so i slept all the way till 1.30.
i felt so shit. its worst than getting sick, very depressing.
i've just start to love to go work, and this. ahhhhh..
say whatever you want, it aint gonna cheer me up.
find me another job. )): soon!

oh well i should give a round of applause to FRANKINSTEIN~~~
you seriously dont even know either both of'em and you wanna crap
in other's blog. please baby.. you seriously are insane! yeah..

oh wellsy.. im really bored imma go back to sleep if not my mind
will wander around than think excidingly too much and maybe
i might just explode into zillion tears again. oh wells.

liLsaint.

kickstart your heart

2008-11-09T22:35:00.003+08:00

Evan is so funny. LOLs he loves penguine from madegascar??
the one with the weird weird eye? hmmm??? i wonderrrrr?

tomorrow is Monday, and im loving it!!
i miss su, hardy, edwin, work and the office,
but most of all i miss my PAY! - angry face!-

O.o
hahas! LOL! hmm. asia conference is coming up, should i ask _____y_
im afraid. hehes. oh well. if that "vision" appear again, i will msg him?hmm.. we'll see.. whateverrrrrrrr...

tmr gotta go work and im optimistic bout it.
so happy with work. its a overwhelming respond
from a girl who extremly hate to work. but its all
different now ((: hahas. i guess its the growing up
or should i say " the HAVE TO grow up" process?
well. i feel mature in work now. not like i wanna slack
all the time. i just wanna work. i feel so dead not working.
it feels so, boring. yeah... hahahs. oh wellsy. im addicted to work ((:

take care ppl.
laura wont be around so soon ((:
im indestructable. ((:
kickstart my heart, baby.
im in love with you again ♥

"blah blah blah". is all i can hear coming outta your mouth

2008-11-08T13:15:00.002+08:00

hmm. its crap. the job is too good to be true. idk?

im really committed to BDMI. i dont really want another job.
i find it stressful and i hate being stress minus depress minus emotional.
yeah. but its looking really stress-full! headache man!

oh well today is Liza's wedding day. im not sure if i should go, by myself. so paiseh!
another new couple starting a whole new chapter of journey!!

hmm. oh well im really tired, imma go back sleep again!

its gonna be friday ((;

2008-11-06T20:52:00.002+08:00

TGTIF!!!

aitesy.. im back to replying tagboard.
well ya'll should stop spamming my tag board and phone. ((:

kev: my tagboards dead, you could reply for me.
im lazy, and i DO NOT EMO one corner, i EMO everywhere.
what lameshit is this?? -_-" and okay, i love you too!

gavin: okay baby boyyyyy. replied okay?

frank: you should really stop that squeel pig thing. its bugging me, to squeel
ass hole! and stop singing the song i made. wipe ass! go on and spam,
i swear to hell i'll delete my tag board. ((:

oh well here goes this shit!

SU is so cute. oh my god. she's like this cutesy lil girl..
oh my god. went out to lunch today, had a hard time finding
a seat so we went to BK. wow fatastic. so i da pao my burger
and went near by to sit at the park to eat with su. hahas.

we couldnt stop laughing. (inside joke) hahahas.
oh god.. and her bf is extremely different from his cover.
seriously never judge its book by its cover. hahas.
he's uber friendly ((: oh wel..

i finish doing data entry, so im back to doing call survey..
dammit..hahas. oh well.. so bullshit men, ahhhh..
hmm. tmr is friday.. and im glad. ((: can sleep.
now imma tell you a secret..

i think i like my _____'s..... character, and i want someone like him,
with he's character cause he's like a fucking gentlemen!
oh god, i think im going to die a old spinster..sob.. expectation too high now.
dammnnn how man? i hope there'll be someone out there like him ((:
hahahas

P.S. im not in love with him.. only his character. get it straight!

any way tmr three hours of work. thank god for that.
than going down to tampines to meet est. which i'm still unsure.
so many things to do, so little time and money.. fuck

and im tired. oh well. imma get some sleep soon.
so good night ppl... ((:

i need a goodnight sleep, working at 9 tmr ((:

cause everyone needs love.

2008-11-05T21:07:00.004+08:00

Find myself in the deepest corner, of the darkest hour.

I find all the pieces i broke, tried mending it,

but seems that all i've done, its all in vein.

well i see to be eating the whole day, seriously.

i have to go on a diet before my bbq.

well nikki rach xian and me have opened a end-year bbq.

its open to everyone and anyone.

love the sentence,

" I'm sure we'll wake up dead, but I still love her.

Hold your hand with mine, in this picture perfect light,

there's one last chance for us.

Tonight, I hold your hand with mine, so everything is fine."

if only someone would tell me this. i'd be glad.

cause everything is happening so fast.

it feels like "GOODBYE I'M FALL FAST!"

i need some one to tell me this so i can breathe for a minute.

"If a quick and painless death

came and meant something so much more

than all the rest,

hold my hand and don't forget to breathe

there's nothing left for you,

there's nothing left to leave.

On three we're jumping from this ledge

this buildings tall

I'm sure we'll wake up dead

but I'll still love you. "

my face is diguised in a veil of fear.

well i've been pondering on what would it be like

for me to be when i grow up.

im afraid. im scared.

i know i wont be able to survive in such

hypocritical society.

I dont wann sit and watch my heartbeat fade with every breath.

I watched my lips turn blue, my eyes went cold and all,

I felt the panic and tried to breathe. Is this happening?

a picture worth a thousand words.

it meant so much to me, even if i got a tattoo to my wrist,

its a feeling that cant be missed.

i know my scars wont heal tonight,

i know memories never dies.

Society sink their teeth and bite the blood,

that drains the life inside of me,

that fills their soul with love and hate,

and all those things they need to breathe.

My body dies but still my soul remains eternally,

in search of Caspian waves and shallow graves explain why me?

I know it's all just a bad dream now.

So now midnight's here. i"m all alone.

They use this fear. It's all just a bad dream.

And I can't seem to...Wake up from this.

i feel broken.

it seems i'm lying dead from dreaming,

covered head to toe in blood.

i wanna be drunk for night, so i dont have to sober.

this small hours..

2008-11-04T21:00:00.005+08:00

"When we met You said we were the same,

You know that we're different, we're different,

And all the times you promised me that

Everything would work out in the end,

you were gravely mistaken.

"I miss being in love.

i miss going crazy over someone.

i miss being in love. "

liLsaint..........

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Do Not Prob After Reading

2008-11-03T22:45:00.003+08:00

woke up early to day, 7.15AM! got ready for work.

met aunty pam outside my gate. went off with her

together for work. to my surprise i didnt know that

she did not know what happen to my family. WOW??

yea i know right? amazingly awesome. ((:

well. whatever. after we reach tangjong pagar, we splited,

i waited for price hardy's arrival. like freaking 15 mins.

and some dumbshit emo kid cant quit starring at me.

whatever alrights? yah. so any way was at work. so now

the company is flooded with Avenged Sevenfold Freakfans!

like i knowwwwwwwww right? haha. so anyways. su, wan and

a new guy all hardy's friends. and later when i knocked off

worked, hardy's gf came in to work, and im like HEY WOW SHIT!

this is insane. so anyhooooooooos, went home had my dinner

and i cant stop eating, i've been feeling so hungry the whole day

after lunch. i shouldnt have ate, cause i know it'll happen. hahaha.

but oh well hardy and su wanted me to eat, okay fine, i give in.

yeah. oh wells

anyhoooos i gotta say whats on my mind,

Somethings bout you, to me, just dont feel the same.

arent bestfriends suppose to be nice to each other??

well i feel different bout you now.

looks like everytime i call you out, you give me tons

of excuses. well i'm not naming them, but if you happen

to read this im sorry, its just how i feel.

im sorry if you feel hurt. but i dont think you should be acting this way.

yeah i know you have other friends too, but you call yourself my girlfriend

and rejecting me almost past one month of not going out?

your attitude has changed, i dont wanna assume is your school mates,

but im sure its them, even talking to our other girlfriend,

she find you've change. im not against your friends.

if they not happy or whatever, they are welcome to look up for me.

an advice to you, be yourself.

dont be someone you're not. you look stupid.

Avenged Sevenfold - Until The End.

Weekends on young and angry streets
We meet, drink 'till trouble found us there
Living life as without a care
We've had our fights, been black and blue
Its true, I've even gone to jail for you my friends
Bet your life that I'd do it again

(Until the End)

Don't change the way you think of me
We're from the same story
Life moves on, can't stay the same
But some of us, are worry, yeah

While some have gone their separate ways
Theres some still caught up with the past
and scared to move on, you're missing most of your life
They say its hard to stay the same
When some fail, while other men seem to gain, but friends
I'll be with you here until the end

(Until the End)

Don't change the way you think of me
We're from the same story
Life moves on, can't stay the same
But some of us, are worry

We're all falling forward
With no signs of slow
'Cause I'm moving faster
Thats all that I wanted
I wanted

You know its hard
Its passing by
Memories
Be out all night
To reminisce wont bring you back
Just look ahead and hold on tight

We're all falling forward
With no signs of slow
And some moving faster
Thats all that I wanted
I wanted

Don't change the way you think of me
Oh yeah

Until the end
Until the end
Until the end
Until the end

this is a song for you, i feel its meant for you.

bet your life, i do it again.

i wont change the way i think of you,

but i hope you realize you're changed.

fucking bullshit!

2008-11-02T22:03:00.002+08:00

this is so fucking bullshit.

i just woke up, like its 10 now.

and so bullshit. expected like 12 or something.

work tomorrow. oh wells. im freaking lazy.

headach-ing now. how bullshit. im so cranky!!

i want holiday! fuck!fuck!fuck! im so tired.

but i've slept the whole day, why do i still feel so tired?

am i sick or what? awesome or what?

im really wanna die right now. feeling uber sick?

and pervertised. __ like crap. dammit. wished

i went out. might have felt so much better..

well to all having your exams and test,

HOPE YA'LL PASS EVERYTHING!!!

damn i hate waking up at this time of the day.

no show. no hunks, just shitload of news.

dammit. im so bored!

im free this fri day after 12.30, date me someone!!

im free but not so loaded. please! dont i deserve a day

without asking someone out? someone ask me out you

pissing shit friends! fuck ya'll! date me, you morons!!

at least tmr im going work, so for lunch im going to

the nearest mall and try to convince myself i went shopping ((:

((:

im going to watch Avenue Q.

lucy the slut, caught my attention!

this song caught my soul for a very depressing time.

so see ya'll tmr or something.

vein liquid

2008-11-02T10:31:00.003+08:00

well its been 4 days since i blog?

yes kev.. tagboard dead.. you could help me reply.
im so lazy to think nowadays. hehes. my bad love.

well im staying home today again cause some shit
are all in malaysia. and i cant go cause the boss at
home doesnt allow me too. so its crappy. and couple
of other shitlings keep rejecting me to go out. either
exams or work, okay im like whatever alrights.

well its getting in my brains. im so lazy to go to work.
well but i too cant wait to go to work, new friends,
new addictions. now im feeding those addiction.
well. i seriously think my new friends are fucking similar
to me. we listen to the typa song and we crap everything
and anything, like wow. what more can i ask for?
i wanna hangout with them sooooooooon...!!

but even if that, it doesnt mean i've forget my girlfriends!
its that ya'll are busyyyyy and im bored, so i've gone to find
new ones. yeah man!! we'll go out soon. ((:

proberly im preoccupied by the ppl around me,

i know i havent much given attention to you.

i know i hardly havent been talking to you.

gav told me you felt that i've attitude you.

when you call i would tell you "ttyl" and hang up.

yeah i know right? ya. i've been bitch. well

you're not exactly forgotten. just preoccupied

by the friends around me. im really sorry if you

felt that i've something against you, well deep down

(i hope) you know i dont mean it. im just busy and

tired with everyone and everything. im very sorry.

well i hope my pay comes soon. i needa pay my handphone bill now!

shitzxzxzxzxzxz!

and i wanna go shopping too!

fuckfuckfuck

12,500 teens!

2008-10-29T21:01:00.004+08:00

concert had 12, 500 teens at a7x concert!

Fucking AWESOMMMMME!!

well i didnt go work today. woke up with totally no voice,

which when i talk i sounded like someone whose voice got robbed!

well, i was happy.. like deepshit. cause i got to sleep extraaaaaaaa!

hmm, im sad too. like bout the concert. i cant stop watching the videos

hardy sent me. they feel so priceless. the newspapaer never felt so enlightening

before too. a7x concert review was on ytd's life paper. i felt so good. hahas.

well. everything is fine.

im still not over the concert!!!

THERE'S SO MUCH MORE I WANT FROM THEM!

IM NOT SATISFIED ENOUGH!!

NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!

SHIT!

where you go? i miss you so...

2008-10-28T21:06:00.003+08:00

"Where you go? i miss you so. Seems like its been forever that you've been gone. "

And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone..

your absence makes me feel so alone.
Reminiscing the days we had to share.
Reminiscing the days you waited for me after work.
Reminiscing the days you celebrated joy.

though its been two years now. we've finally moved on.
but still very much miss the days you spent singing your crappy songs.

miss the times you cooked me crappy 3 minute noodles.
missed doing silly stuff together. though you know
you had my heart for at least the most of the part.
though our times is over, and we fell apart. i had the best of you.

well work's good. im getting tired sooon!! i wanna sleeeeeeeeeep!
someone buy me sweeeeeeets!! im having a sweeeeeeet toooooth now!!

Ques: HOW WAS THE CONCERT??

2008-10-25T10:20:00.002+08:00

One Word, AWESOME!
FUCKING AWESOME!!

they sang

critical acclaim,
afterlife,
unholy confession,
sieze the day,
little piece of heaven,
scream,
beast and the harlot,
gunslinger.

dammit. they are way better than HIP HOP!
sad to say, more tickets were sold ((:
awww whatever!! well. it was fucking niiiice!!
the concert blew my head away!!!
well im so happy!!

5years i waited for them to come, hours of intense queing, 1 and a half hour of screams!!
what more can i ask for, that hell was heaven for me to be in the concert. all the hard
work and sweat was worth it, everything was good! its way better than winning jackpot in toto!
woooohooooooooooo!!! i was happy, and nik and me were walking in the carpark, shouting
singing, headbanging and one person mosh, danced, and went insane!! the concert is insane!!!!

inside, i went insane! i screamed my lungs out,
during scream, i almost cried! i felt so happy!
till i wanted to cry like wtf right? hahahas!!

hmm everything was good! well they promised us they'll come back,
and they said this crowd of fans are loud. even outside we were singing,
they could here it, even the cheers! queing was good! very high spirit
ppl and kelvin was good in bring the crowd's spirit up. and some loud guy!
well had lotsa laughter. hahahs. hmm hardy was nice enough to let me and cheryl
to que with him, happy he's still staying in the company! yay!!! hahahas.

well this much i have to say
but im not recovered from Avenged sevenfold concert yet!
and it wont be soon before long!!

diamonds are rough!

I cant wait

2008-10-24T10:43:00.003+08:00

I CANT CONTAIN MY EXCITMENT!

Its today, and i've been waiting for them to come since 2006!
im not insane! but i ARE insane!!!! i cant contain my screams!!
its like a little piece of heaven, an unholy confession!!

oh im are really insane!! im getting their official shirt later!
album and all other shit! FUCK EVERYONE MAN! IM GOING
FOR THEIR CONCERT!! THEY SHOULD HOLD IT ON SATURDAY!
THAN SERVICE WILL BE FILLED WITH A7X SCREEEEEEEAAAM!
EH FREE MUSIC BOY!!

i ARE insane, i are insane, i are, are insane!!!
bye folks! see ya'll in the mosh pit!!!

everything but HUGE!!

2008-10-23T23:04:00.003+08:00

work was good.
boss was wow.
very slack. but okay la
fun.

sometimes i really wonder bout big ~~shot~~ shit bosses.
so what we are just telemarketers? we're just doing our job.
dont have to reply us, "its none of your business." please la
you think we want to bother??

Hardy and Yuansheng got scolded by this arjen blom ytd.
so tdy we called that blom shit, and yuansheng called, so he
wasnt in, than ys like, eh hold on ah, FUCK YOU! and he hung the phone!
fuck sia damn funny. and now everyone is like calling each other's extension
and like, "is this arjen blom?? wanna suck my dick??" and loads of
other fucking shit la. its fucking funny la. but sadly..............................

hardy and yuanshengs last day tmr. so new fella coming in.
wtf?? no fair. i was just begining to have fun!!! and they are going now.
dammit. but was fun though. hmm will be going to concert
with hardy tmr. and both of us cant stop saying "A7X is tmr" x 2000000
like its so long la.. finally

finally, one fucking month ago, it has come!
im so elated! hmm I CANT WAIT!!
gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood!!!!

rahhhhhhhhhhh
fuck ya'll mutha fuckers that aint going!!
ya'll gonna miss this! well well!!
its gonna be good. ppl you shoud go!!

i stalked your dreams

2008-10-20T22:10:00.002+08:00

I ARE HAPPY,
met up with niks.
and she might be going to Avenged Sevenfold CONCERT!
YAY!!!!!

will be meeting jasper. so most likely will join him in the concert.

THANKS ONCE AGAIN JASPERUB!!!! LURBEU VERY VERY MUCHOS!!

hmm, i got a unfriendly surprise msg today. whatever.
i dont care, dont bother, dont matter no more. ((:
its all different now. its all over. yeah. i are happy.

hmm. counting down from now 4 more days!
and i cant wait. this is so shiok! i cant contain the
excitment that's bout to explode in me, i wanna scream
out loud im going! but its in the night, and my dad's sleeping,
so most likely he'll throw some chopper at me )):

well its a amusement for me how some ppl can actually
ask e if i wanna ask them anything i wanna know. well
if you got something you wanna tell me, dont ask me
such questions. im not bothered to ask, and i aint afraid to ask..

oh well. i dont really care. dont really bother no more.
even now he msged me, i have no more eagerness to
read. i just get so bored and lazy. im sorry. its all over
unless you change, there might be a 1percent change of
impression of you. but for now. i dont care.

oh well thanks for reading a piece of junk.
i didnt believe, i stalked ghey's dream last night.
how unholy???!

Bite To Break Skin

2008-10-20T02:38:00.002+08:00

i hate being awake alone.
so damn scary. well its like 1 plus now.
so it really suck. later dad's stall open again
yay. money to go shopping ((:

fucking sick shit. my whole damn body aching!
later interview at 1pm, i needa wake up at 10
so i can watch tv and my computer. mutha fucking shit.
well. trust me, im not okay. im not fucking okay.
so those that aint close to me, PLEASE STOP CALLING ME
or TEXTING ME! its fucking pissing me off!

and please ah. i beg of you, i dont need lame shit coming on my phone
like " hi whats that guys number? i'd like to fix him up" this sick shit!
this my problem and i'll solve it myself. i got myself into this sick fuck
situation, i'll get out myself. i will not mention what other sms came
but i'd love if you ppl stop asking whose he, how old, name?, wtf??
please. you want to know him you could go to the bungee and ask yourself.
i dont need all this. if you are supportive enough, stop asking so much!

and if you reading this you either you are bored or you have shitload time in your hands.
its common sense though.

anywhooos.
im to retire to bed, cause i shit tired, and i'll be dreaming of me hugging zacky v!
and maybe get to make out with him ((: what lame shit!!!!!?
hahahas. thats what you get when im tired, all sorts of nonsense comes out.
hahahas goodbye jerks and darls!

i'll start feeding all my addictions

2008-10-19T13:47:00.004+08:00

just came back from ghey's bbc..
bloody hell. had a fucking bad fall!

anyways, before we wnet skating, i was in ghey's house
playing his drum set, went quite well, than we decided
to go play skate board, well of course, i havent been playing
it for a long time, i got rusty, and took the wheeeeeel,
ended in a bad fall. fuck! 5 fall! my neck elbow back and wrist hurt!
and beyond the skin my heart hurts. )):

im so fucking pissed at myself!
if i could choose, i'd choose
not to give him my number and
never to know him. Tell me his
not a playa, and now he's one.
so jerk, if your're reading this,
YOU SUCK! I HATE YOU TO THE BONE!

RMB THIS! WHAT GOES ROUND COMES ROUND,
THIS IS KARMA!

Buried myself alive.

You almost always pick the best times

to drop the worst linesyou almost made me cry again this time

another false alarmred flashing lights

well this time I'm not going to watch myself die

I think I made it a game to play your game

and let myself cry

I buried myself alive on the inside

so I could shut you out

and let you go away for a long time

I guess it's ok I puked the day away

I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way

and if you want me

gonna have to ask

I think the chain broke away

and I felt it the day that I had my own time

I took advantage of myself and felt fine

but it was worth the night

I caught an early flight and I made it home

I guess it's ok I puked the day away

I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way

and if you want me back

you're gonna have to ask

nicer than that

with my foot on your neck

I finally have you

right where I want you

I guess it's ok I puked the day away

I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way (your own way)

and if you want me back

you're gonna have to ask

nicer than that (I guess it's ok I puked the day away)

nicer than that (I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way)

and if you want me backyou're gonna have to ask

nicer than that

nicer

Some Awesome Shit

2008-10-17T23:06:00.002+08:00

This Dude is awesome!!

this is an asian, and i think he's damn hot!! ((: *winks*

JUst a song most are familia toooo! still by the hot asian dude!

he's always on time!! to all drummer in the making, LEARN FROM HIM!
ASIAN TRAVIS BARKER!! And he's still HAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWT!!

Lady drummer man!! She's good!

She's still fucking core bonish gooooooood! (dan start drooooooling!)

Favourite song, and she did it well!

Senses Fail!

best song for competition and people you wanna hit in the face

Credits to this dude!! he's FUCKING SICK!! sick for covering this song!!
this is my favourite song!!

SUGARCULT'S THE SEX! All time!!
drum cover!!

this the guitar section!

this hottie is hot!!

i still cant enough of him ((: *wink wink!*

well i've got alot.
but go find'em yourself.
the girl is my idol for now!
she's hot thou! DANIEL START DROOLING!!

wake the demon in me.

2008-10-17T11:24:00.004+08:00

Goodnight, Goodbye, Forever.

Im Gone, never looking back

((:

You're the skeletons in my cupboard,
the demons of the past.
What we'll never be.

Maybe i should be gone for another one year.

(most of you should understand what im talking bout)

Isolating myself, wrapped around in musical notes

such peace can never be replaced.

maybe when im better, i'll let you know.

but i doubt i ever will.

My Summer Fades To Fall

We've counted down till we said goodbye.

Every time I think of you,

I don't wanna face the truth.

Why wait forever knowing we may never follow through?

Guess I should get over you

~~But I can't let go so soon~~

I'll wait forever knowing we may never follow through?

Why wait forever just for you?

liLsaintVengeance

((:

Motley Crue Today ((:

2008-10-16T23:31:00.006+08:00

Madness in the toilet being narcissist

i love to rock, and they love to stone!!!

havent been out with est and nik alone for a long time

and finally today we got to go out, and lotsa shit man happen man!!

lotsa laughter since last night. Meeting cheryl on monday, go get a couple

of drink, and cigs and get mad. okay maybe not, i wanna hangout a mac.

idk?? i think im having an obsession of music. being all consumed by it.

i've been like rahhhh-ing all day hahahas.

and when me and est reached tenah merah. took a taxi to fetch nik cause raining,

this taxi uncle crapped with us like nuts!!

DHL - Damn Hard Life // Damn Hao Lian

NAVY - Never Always Volunteer Yourself

ERP - Everyday Rob People

ATM - Always Take Money

BMW - Big Mouth Woman

SMRT - Singaporean Man R Terrible

WTF - Wow Thats Fantastic

got some more, but i cant rmb.

its damn fucking shit la the uncle..

hahas. i are happy. i got my jacket at last.

and concealer and sushi and Max Payne all in a day.

fucking shit shiok! well.

there's lotsa inside joke.

Thank you Jasperub Su Jie Long!!

________

hmm, anyways, i cant be your doormat,

i wont be there to see you no more.

if you aint true, go away. i dont need to be played with ((:

dont worry, we can be friends, but i wont be there when you're in need.

i wont be the friend i am to others, i'll treat you differently.

I've changed overnight. ((: yay for me, boo to you so screw you.

24th Oct Here i Come

I ARE GOING FOR AVENGED SEVENFOLD CONCERT!

THANKS TO JASPER, MR NICE!

liLsaintVengeance

XOXO

'Saint is back!

2008-10-15T21:05:00.003+08:00

liLsaint is back!

She's back for good.

She's back to bend all rules.

She's there to tear you and your bones apart

She'll be the biggest nightmare you'll ever known!

Hate Me & I'll Hate You Twice As Much.

liLsaintVengeance ((:

motley crue

2008-10-15T16:04:00.006+08:00

its once said to me; absence makes the heart grows fonder.

i dont need all this shit man.

you're just playing with me right

you mutha fucking old mutha fucker!

very funny right? IM WAY SMARTER THAN

YOUR FUCKING INTELLECTUAL THICKET!

you need a machete for it? i'll lend you some,

1. if you really are serious please knock your fucking head into the wall

2. if you still really are serious, ram your face into the oncoming lorry.

3. if you cant get enough, go to the highest building in singapore and do a air bond jump!!

Like LILSAINT always say, SCREWWWWW YOU!

P.S. If you ever see me, act as though you dont know me, cause i'll do the same.

and rmb to delete my number cause you wont be using it no more. Dont worry,

i'll do the same ((:

Much appreciated

sign off,

liLsaintVengeance

XOXO

Im done with this shit, and i aint passing the baton. so suck up to it... ((:

2008-10-14T17:24:00.003+08:00

the night i tawn with nik and rach.

so anyways. i'm already missing hiiiiiiim!
andy helped me admitted that i like him.
so okay he's got the truth. but i aint going
with him cause its going to fast and i wanna
take things slow. so WAIT!!

I'll get attached before New Years Day ((:
hahahas. ya keep dreaming man!

i wanna go single for exactly a year on 29th November ((:
how sick and wicked can i be?

soooo anyways. My wicked sick nutshell is downloading
cradle of the filth's song. suck on it. its Satanic!!! ((:
whhhhhhhhhhhooooooooohhhhh shiok man! now going to find slayer's song
all time sick songs!!

so the song i just download is hallowed be thy named by cradle of filth.
dammit it sounds damn sick man! its so fucking sick and wicked!
their satanic mantra is even more wicked!

Arch angle. dark angel,
Lend me thy light,
Through death's veil,
til' we have heaven in sight!

keep saying this in the night,
you'll get the goospy bumps.

oh well, i decided. the life i used to lead will stay in my blood forever. ((:
screw yourself if you aint happy. anyway im leaving, never looking back again ((:
not going to stress myself to be the person you want me to be. cause im not
perfect, never will be perfect in your eyes. im done walking this road, im tired.
im going back, back, back, to where i left the life, for others to finish.
but looks like i have to leave this life i lead, being a false pretend. im tired of lying.
lying im okay, lying im leading a better life. i'd stay where i lasted being really
happy being myself. imma disaster that can never be tied down. ((:
i love my life. i know my principle, i've got my values. i know what i want,
and being like this is not what i want. i want something more. i want to be
different from the crowd. and all of you are stopping me. why? WHY SO SERIOUS??
its not like i wanna be a clone of all of you. being so the same? such posers. being
all like, so dull and mono. i dont care if everyone thinks im scary or fierce.
Ever heard of a idiom? not to judge the book by its cover?
im more to than just a girl who loves tattoo and piercings and loud music,
which ass holes call it noise. Fuck you all! cause im consume by them.
anyway i suck at school and church, so whats the point of being there when im being looked
down as a PUNK/SCENE KID who is useless? im only a scene kid what??
i cant do anything for anyone.
so FUCK ya'll cause im smarter than everyone of you mutha fuckers.
who gives a shit what school or collage you came from?
All are hypocrites. life is full of lie. so stop living in your own lie.
come out and see the world. how are you going to stop war and riots??
when all you do is pray or do nothing but insult the government and shitload??
kiss my mutha fucking arse! YA'LL ARE HYPOCRITES TOO!
read the satanic bible and understand the shit loads there!

who gives a shit to small kids too? i was expose to everything when i was small
so why should i give them respect when i never had them? i was more mature then
them when i was younger and so should they, stop acting all cute and stuff, it disgust me ALOT!
and what exposure did i said? what? tell me la! use your brains. if you keep protecting them,
they will never learn the pinch, or understand the things, than if one day they happen
to pass all this, are you gonna be there to protect them? are they going to survive?
im not asking you to not expose them to everything, but learn from others mistakes as well.
this is so common sense. no wonder all they do is complain bout every single shit.
deal with it if you're family is screwed. deal with all the abuse than complain..
deal with all the tears that never stop falling, cause they never will stop. it lives in you.
in your blood. deal with the scars from the past that haunts. you cant do anything bout it.
deal with the death of a love one, and move on,
deal with your parents being divorced, and move on,
it hurts i know. but how long can you keep crying and mourning bout it?
and does it every occour to you, there are ppl worst than your situation.
SO DEAL WITH YOURSELF. DEAL WITH THE LIFE YOU HATE!
DO SOMETHING BOUT IT. THAN COMPLAINING.

if you aint happy with all this shit i just typed, than you might
wanna look at the top left hand side of my blog, and click "leave" cause its my blog
and i can say WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT! and so what?? confront me? come only.
you're more than welcomed man! and cause if you cant deal with what i said, imma say more.
so leave now, if you cant take it ((:

dont push my limit. i can be very unlimited, but do it too much,
i'll turn nasty and i might bring you down with me ((:
DON'T. DON'T misjudge or underestimate my limits.

my dad doesnt say anything, so you've got no fucking right.
i may be disappointment, i bum around, the biggest bum in your world.
but MY LIFE is tooooooooo short to be something else and not have fun,
unlike you pathetic LOOOOONNNNNNGGGGG life. im sorry.
my life is short. i may die tmr. and i dont wanna regret not having fun.
so fuck yourself and be like every other people in the world and be pathetic.

i have no sympathy for you life suckers, just cause you cant be that someone,
you pull others to strive to be that someone you cant, just to indulge yourself
in self sympathysm, like " oh i helped them to get there but in the end i get nothing too.."
ahhhhh fuck yourself. cause you're mutha fucking pathetic la! and also when you
try to get one to stop living the life they want, why? are you jealouse that you're at the
top that you cant get down, and it gets quite lonely? so you gotta pull everyone up
with you? and be at the same level of dumbnessy?? im not being against anyone.
but this how i feel so if you feel im against you, like i ALWAYS SAY...... SCREW YOU!
i say how i feel. i do what i want, i've been living a life you wanted me to, i did it,
im tired, im leaving. cause i aint a puppet and i aint dumb like the rest,
being something they can have but taken by all your bloody so called rules!
i respect the religion and rules, but something being so strict, kills one inside and
that makes it harder for one to live life happy. im sorry. but this what i've been through.

im through with all this shit. im fading thinner by the minutes passing.

You've got your commitments,
And I've got mine.
So deal with my rejection
It's a part of life.

like i said if YOU AIN'T HAPPY,

you are welcome to confront me or LEAVE HERE!

Cause i Do/Say WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT!

and if you actually read this whole paragraph, either you're bored or you've got a shitload of time on your hands. o.O

I DO WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT!

Letter To W.S.

2008-10-13T22:23:00.002+08:00

everything found, was you.
everhthing lost, was you.
everything was you.
forgetting was never you.

you're at the back of my mind.
last thing i dont wanna lose,
is the memory we shared.

looking back, i very much enjoyed our friendship.
but the future of our friendship seems bleak.
even though we have seperated our ways, i treasured
this friendship.

P.S. Everyone's changing, but memories, they dont.

The Bitch Is Back

2008-10-12T23:10:00.006+08:00

i are back!!
after 2days of not eating and 1 and a half day of no proper sleep!
arse to ass man! power to the gudegarrrrr!!
dammn it. i still are tired..

one of the best and bittersweet tawning.
so we met many weirdo and andy pop the question alr
so i was like "you are so hilarious!!! HA-HA-HA!!" whatever!!
House bunny was so funny so after the show we head down to
clarke quay by walking, almost a freaking hour... walking in circles....
the best roadmap, mr brent. ((: hahahs. oh well. best man!!
but in the end we got there. and all the shit..
so morning came. bloody weird ang moh was like, HI MY NAME IS JOHN.
WHO GIVES A FUCKING SHIT TO YOUR NAME?? LIKE, -HELL-OOOOO??
you lame shit man.. and i was like in the morning getting this mutha fucking shit??
wow?? what a way to start the day having a weird shit talking to me.
and i was like freaking shocked?? and frighten,.. so i wasnt my friendly self..
so choke on that if you aint happy. fuck yourself. hahahas. or the bark of the tree. ((:

oh well.. i are happy. and shit up. but WHATEVER!!
my new hairstyle is like wow!! and its power to the gudegarrrrr!!
power baby!!! like stepping onto the accelerator ((: with full speed!!!
hahahs. LOL! A7X is coming and i are HAPPY!!

Liza is getting married on the 8th of november.. and i are invited!!
yay! cool shit man!! havent see her in a long time!! hahas! bloody shitzz!!
i love miss her! my sister man!! hahah!! oh well.

damn shiok. ((: so im having a power packed fun!! A7X headbanger!!
and i are getting the shirt so fuck yourself if you aint happy ((: i are going
die also still go. Stop me and you're dead! hahahas!! ((: oh well..
24th OCTOBER here LAURA COMES!!!

M.Shadows, Synyster gates, Zacky Vengeance, The Reverend and Johnny Christ ((:
They ROCK MY WORLD OFF TO INSANE!!
i really need to mutilate my insanity ((:
i are really insane and are mad! and idk how many of ME are going ((:
aye aye!! i do really need to mutilate insanity!!

oh well. i gtg sleep. cause i lack of sleep.
i'm alil fever-ish. cause i havent eaten in 2 days
and not enough sleep but lotsa soft drinks so i
think my body's immune system isnt working like
the speed of light ((: so goodnight ya'll!

"YAWNING IS CONTAGIOUS! SO IM GOING TO YAWN!!!"

Genetic Design For Dying

2008-10-09T20:29:00.003+08:00

i will be the vampire to keep you alive.

memories of the past i forgotten you reminded me.

the memories of you that haunts my dream.

What am i suppose to do?

Ticket Outta Loserville

2008-10-09T14:09:00.002+08:00

we're going on the bungeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

oh well. tmr is diana's birthday.
going for the chalet. OH WELLS!
yay!! hahahs.

hmm
monday went out to sell niks guitar..
sooooooooo.. hmm nikki brought us to brent's bro's
restaurant, hmm wayne doest look a thing
like brent. seriously. hahas. i was like :O shock!!
She treated us to dinner hahahas. lol!
oh wells lotsa laughter and a cup of beer.
hahaas. wayne is cute ((: hahahas. he's got
the MAN look! hahahas. LOL! like whatever la..
next one will be rach ((: i've done it so its your turn babe-a-lious

well tmr im tonning outside. mid night walk from clarke quay to city hall
to orchard maybe.. hahas. LOL! imma have fun tmr.
so whoever want to bring me down,
JUST SHUT UP! its not going to affect me and
fuck yourself if you're gonna piss me off, cause im not
bothered by you anymore. keep making yourself a fool!
hahahas. big piece of shit. you pissing shit!

btw pray i get my job sooooo got stash. ((:
oh well im lazy now. so imma go off. update again!

((:

update!

2008-10-05T19:22:00.002+08:00

i are angry.
like what the hell is wrong with you?
what the FUCK did i DO TO YOU?!
motherfucking bitch?! Stop talking
behind my back! like what i wanna
do with my life is my problem!
stop telling me who i should be
stop telling me what i should do

i am not your puppet!
MY LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE SOME ONE ELSE
so FUCK YOURSELF!

IF YOU DISLIKE ME,STAY MILES AWAY!

LIKE MOVE OUTTA EARTH TO JUPITER!

you got a something a against me just tell it
in my face. dont have to behave all so lady like
wanna act cute when ppl just find you HUGELY DISGUSTING!
(im sure all of you know who im talking bout)

well its fucked up you're life's screwed.
its not my fault your life's screwed.
so stop bitching behind me, its not my fault!

A Song For You And Your Pathetic Lil Soul
To Feed On.

SHUT UP BY SIMPLE PLAN

There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you

You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right

It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do

You think you're special
But I know, and I know
And I know, and we know
That you're not

You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
Is gonna bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
You'll never bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be

(Don't tell me who I should be)

And don't try to tell me what's right for me

Don't tell me what I should do

I don't wanna waste my time

I'll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say is gonna
Bring me down

Bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
You won't bring me down
Bring me down
(shut up, shut up, shut up)
You won't bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up

YOU SHOULD JUST SHUT UP!

AND SEW YOUR MOUTH UP!

SHUT UP!

2008-10-02T18:02:00.004+08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more?

Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

to be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face

And no one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

You never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurtTo feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

abressions left to scar the heart.

2008-10-01T13:37:00.002+08:00

well ytd was a lil fruitful day, cause,

LAURA HAD HER BIBLE STUDY AT LAST! yay for that!
hmm... so went to meet couple of ppl...

than rach join us later.. and some left. not really.
so anyways. the jap dude took my number. im
not going to explain everything, ya so choke on that.
im lazy. i wanna sleep. but something triggered me
yesterday to become really annoyed by guys now.

really annoying. so ya. i really am annoyed.
and i feel really sad. cause wrong guy just
keep coming up to me and the ONE i love
will never be at the end for me. so whatever
it is. im annoyed and now im hungry.
so screw ya'll cause im going to sleep.
im tired! and OH YA!!!!!!

My loveliest, darlingest, precioustest, dearest PHONE!
is under service! and i wannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnna cry!!
cause im using a lau cock cock phone! knnbccb! hahaha
oh well only can collect it on monday. bloody motherfucking
ass wipe center!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
fuck fuck fuckiety fuckiety fuck! FUCK YA'LL esp the one
who talked to on my phone.. Stupid GLENN HENG (i dont know your cheeena name!)
ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! ANGRY AH! bye la
i want to sleep alr!

XD

goodbye goodnight, forever

2008-09-28T23:12:00.002+08:00

For now i got to go my own way.
im am who i am, im afraid to change.

im exhausted from fighting, pretending, faking everything
even just a smile. im tired. i just wanna go my own way for now.
i wanna be alone. let me be. stop pushing me to the end of my limit.
I cant breath. i need time.

my life isnt all bout love. so no worries.
but its taken a toll. ever since that XX sep.
my heart just shattered and i feel nothing.
wierd. but i think its over for me. i need to let go.
let go of everything, let them pass me. till i
find that special thing. for now...........

I'M GOING TO FLY HIGH.

time flies

2008-09-28T21:50:00.003+08:00

i was 16 then, school and stuff..
now i've grown older another year,
times flies fast.

you told me two years,
and now left 2 months.
you'll be back from america (2006)

dammie told me five years
and now we're left with 2 years,
you'll be back from canada. (2005)

one day than one week than a month
than a year than a decade than a centuary.

it was ten years ago, a little strange puppy sitting on my bean bag.
than its been 3 months since my friend left me. left me to weep alone.
i miss her.

time flies. with a blink of an eye, many are gone,
little are left, are you sure you'll live for tomorrow?
why not now? why not today? live for today cause
you dont know what tomorrow has installed for you.

do what you have to do,
make up for the mistake you made, for you dont know
when the person you hurt will leave,
tell the person you love, that you love them, before its too late.

dont regret once they are gone,
for time waits for no man.

live for today.
i'll give the best of me, if you want me to.

OFFICIALLY SICK!

2008-09-27T22:57:00.002+08:00

Laura is OFFICIALLY SICK

i threw up badly and i'm turning purple now

but im going to give a THANK YOU to E361 and N105
for celebrating my bday for me ((:

hahas. i blushed badly.. )): so paiseh
oh wellly.. imma go bath than sleep
cause im feeling really sick now...
i wanna throw up again but got
nothing to vomit anymore )):
sobbenceeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

well goodnight folks. laura is going to lala land now.
so GOODNIGHT!

Happy Fucking Birthday To Me!!

2008-09-26T12:33:00.009+08:00

Thank you to everyone that wished me and celebrated for me

thank you and i love you! here are SOME pic i took

*yawwwwwnss!" idk why i took this but

its hilarious cause i get all the unglam pic of her!

looks like shes having fun!!

Haaaaaappy Maaaaaad and Fuuuuuuuuun!!

try to be perfect.. but looks like shit

anyways nik rach and pris went to my house to cut cake

yay!! 3rd cake of the week.. ((: how sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet!

((:

oh wells had an enjoyable birthday save to say.

well

HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO THOSE UPCOMING ONES!!

KICK SOME ARSE OKAY!!! ((:

happy time

2008-09-24T12:50:00.003+08:00

went out with niks and rach
went to clake quay

Gmax the jap guy wanted to give me a free ride
cause its my bday.. but sorry to say i rejected.
cause i wont go without my bgfs!! XPP!

anyway we went to eat tcc...
yeahhhhhhhH!!! did 2 vids..
wahhahahahahas....
"HUH? HUH EH LUM PA JIAO!"
wahahahahahaha!

im seriously lazy to put the photos up
so i'll do it another day..
btw....im going there tmr ((:

yay imma disturb that jappy guy tmr
hahahas make him take us all up ((:

hehes!!

oh well
secret ......

i find the jappy guy cute
but i still stupidly love hawtstuff...

Beautiful in Black, Pretty in Blue

2008-09-22T14:58:00.004+08:00

thank you to those that already
have given me bday pressies!!
xie xie ni!

you ask what the fuck is this??
this is my new mp4, yes!
i know. i want my ipod.
but i'll make do with this first.
THANK YOU DADDY FOR THIS!!

tdy went out to lunch with linette
thanks for lunch and the pressie!!!

well! this year isnt a very good bday pressie
for some PEOPLE that crashed and dashed
my pretty lil dream! mutha fucking ass hole!!
it sucks. it really does!! damn! IM NOT HAPPY!

)):

I'M OFFICIALLY OVER HIM!

BUT I STILL HATE HIM!

life blog invaders

2008-09-21T10:17:00.020+08:00

I watched you steal my thoughts and had

to see you smile as you build your dreams

on my shattered hopes. I'll look back on a

day once loved and fantasize for tragedy.

Swallow your pride, beg me to make this

easier and listen to my hopeless cries.

Suffer alone in emptiness, I lust to see you

swallowed by the mess that you left in your wake.

Disgust lies deep within your empty gaze.

Beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries,

send stares into your meaningless eyes!!!

she looks... er?? possessed

sour crap cramped face!

and she goes teeheehee!

er no comments

i got an emo bestie tooo!!

2 truth and a lie!

im working to be very fair!!!

and still is working very very hard ((:

bestfriends!!

well im fugging lazy to take photo ytd

at the gig. fuggin fugging lazy! and retard

man!! had a good day.. and a crappy one..

it was better when jonathan came and started

all bitchy and stuff.. he's too cute for a bi..

(if you are a HOMOPHOBIC, please go to the top

and look for the X sign at the top right hand corner

and fucking click on it!)

best part when i ask him, "do you know whose

matthew lush aka GAYGOD?????"

he dont!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hear the shatter

of my heart at woodlands man! he's soooooo hot!

okay enough... yeah

im really pissed at myself?? like fuggin pissed?

pisssed till i cant breath.. is this all that result

to what had happened ytd? wtf? everything

i worked and done for comes down to a

disappointing result? KANINABEICHAOCHEEBYE!!

its so fugging disappointing! like its like not

happiness is just a hairflip away!

*snap snap snappiety snappiety snap*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I DONT NEED YOUR PITY! I HATE YOUR PITY!!!

DONT EXPECT ME TO HAPPY FOR YOU!

YOUR TRUTH IS A DECEPTION MEANT TO

POISEN ME!! WHEN YOU ARE BROKEN,

YOU'RE BEAT DOWN....

SEE YOU IN HELL NOW, SEE YOU IN HELL NOW!!!

So here's my last goodbye,

this nightmare ends,

you're asleep now, get up.

I set my friends on fire.

I know I've lost control,

I see you've lost your smile as this life takes its toll.

But now, after all, can you just forget?

But now, after all, what do you got to show for it?

Don't cry to me oh baby

Your future's in an oblong box, yeah

Don't cry to me oh baby

Should have seen it a-comin' on

Don't cry to me oh baby

I don't know it was in your power

Don't cry to me oh baby

Dead-end girl for a dead-end guy

Don't cry to me oh baby

Now your life drains on the floor

Don't cry to me oh baby

Die, die, die my darling

Don't utter a single word

Die, die, die my darling

Just shut your pretty mouth

I'll be seeing you again

I'll be seeing you in Hell...

Just one more kiss to soothe the pain exists,

In a world of lies. Misery take my shame alive.

When everything fails a violent death, the smile you gave.

Visit me in hell tonight, and say:"If love exists, I will fall."

A last fire will rise behind those eyes

Black house will rock, blind boys don't lie

Immortal fear, that voice so clear

Through broken walls, that scream I hear

"Wake the ones and rise tonight

Fallen souls we shine so bright

Rise now and ever

forgotten memories

No one can touch us"

my last few words to you

life is not fair and im not saying it should be!

YOU SUCK! HERE GOES A PRETTY

FUCK YOU__

Avenged SevenFold Is In Town!!

2008-09-17T14:16:00.015+08:00

CALLING ALL HEADBANGERS

AND MOSH PIT WORSHIPPERS!

AVENGED SEVENFOLD

IS IN SINGAPORE!!

They are back by popular

demands from fanatics!!

Lets ROCK OUT to

Their BEAT!!!!!!!!!!

Standing Tickets - $95

24th october, 8pm

Expo Max Pavilion

HEADBANGERS, IF YOU ARE GOING

P.M. ME OKAY?! I CANT WAIT!!!

commit your crime, in your deadly time

2008-09-16T14:34:00.003+08:00

if its another lie, another time.

decit in your own lies
mirror pondering in your face.
"is this who you really are? is this what you really want?"

walking in the streets in the night,
feeling scared and cold, no friends to call,
"what did i do to deserve this"

looking at your phone,
no calls nor texts.
no one for you to share you're life with.

glance on your photo,
not one at the side
no soul mate for you to love.

reflect on your actions,
ponder why friends left you to die alone,
wonder why your fate is such a disaster.

crazy colours!

2008-09-16T10:58:00.003+08:00

misery loves to dye hair!

TADA!

went on as planned, my hair is in a total chaos!
jet black base, blonde and pink. this photo was
taken without make up cause i just woke up,
so just woke up = look like gui! so yeahhhhhhh!!
((:

nikki straightened her hair. dont look much different
but more mature to say. but prettyyyy-ish!!

pris dyed jet black to cover her white hair,
and did streaks of blonde. nice, but too dark,
i couldnt see her blond-ish!

anyways

I'M LOVIN' IT! ((:

thats all folks.

Lazyness

2008-09-14T14:01:00.004+08:00

okay, had a great time ytd.
came home, my mood down
falled straight away, fucking
dad scolded me, okay whatever..

im f-ing lazy to upload the photos.
so i'll do it some other time.
anyways. im staying at home the
whole day again, fucking shit
im fucking broke, dammit,
ass hole, okay enough of my
vulgarities, anyway, i wont
see jasper till 29th sep. wow
way past my b-day.
anyways im not bothered to
celebrate my bday, just want to
sleep, yeah, friends please dont
be an classic arse hole!

DON'T BOTHER!

rip it off!

2008-09-12T14:40:00.006+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Laura
2. girl
3. babe

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. laura
2. liLsaint
3. -

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. My hair
2. My eyes
3. My tattoo

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. My temper
2. Bitch slaps
3. -

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. I'm chinese
2. I speak eng
3. I eat pork

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. Pervs
2. Ghosts
3. Insects

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. Music
2. Friends
3. Cam whore

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW
1. Tees
2. Skinnys
3. Retard look.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTES
1. Avenged SevenFold
2. SecondHand Serenade
3. Bullet For My Valentine

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW)
1. Hearts Burn Into Fire - BFMV
2. Bite To Break Skin - Senses Fail
3. My Heroine - Silverstein

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE, IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER.
1. I love HAWTSTUFF
2. I'm a total bitch
3. I'm not a cam whore

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. The Eyes
2. Body Physique (i dont wanna hug lards or a bag of bones!)
3. A nice face (i dont go out with monkey faces)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. hanging out with my friends
2. Being with fun people
3. being a total lovable bitch (7 days a week, but part time)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. Drink
2. Be Crazy
3. Sleep

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED
1. Hairstylist
2. Make-up artiste
3. -

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. New York
2. Aussie
3. Mexico

THREE NAMES YOU LIKE
1. Sushi
2. Lard
3. Poop

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Be a successful bitch
2. Tell him i love him
3. Get rich.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. I put on make up
2. Look at hunks ((:
3. Stares into the mirror alot and takes lotsa photos!

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. I'm loud
2. I dont sit properly
3. I drink beer

THREE PEOPLE YOU ARE TAGGING TO DO THIS QUIZ
1. Niks
2. Xian
3. Pris

I CAN'T WAIT!

2008-09-12T00:43:00.002+08:00

cant wait for that date! ~~20thsep~~
cant wait to see him!

SIMPLY CANT WAIT!!!

fantasy fight!

2008-09-11T20:29:00.003+08:00

well went out with nikki yixian prisi!
hmm suppose to go for rue's bday, but
most of alex's friends and him cant go,
so i didnt go. oh well.

went to the pennis...sula! (heyhey)
yeah.. so anyway. than pris got her
skinnys, than headed to the entrance
to meet xian, while walking there
this nikki chan shi min, damn mean!
scold the shuai ang mo, "MO PAING!"
bastard sia.. the angmo boy was like smiling,
and i was like -_-" hahas!

oh well than headed down to marina,
smsed mummy if got stash, but she on mc.
damnnnn.. so anyways than head to the
arcade. wow. played poool than PARAPARA!
wahlau... fucking AH LIANS (2 again) stare stare stare
fuck them la.. ass wipe! the wet ones for the elephant!

than went tp mac.. talk bout BOYS for pris..
hmm not bad.. hahahas.. hooked her up
with some guy. so lets see their progress as it
goes. hmm nikki fixed the ipod. so shiok. but the
ipod is the extrem old model. but like WHO CARES?!

oh well. than went home. pris and nik went to pick my sis.
yah.. lotsa fun.

Happy Birthday CASSIE & CLAIRE(tdy)

Happy Birthday ELIZABETH (12 sep)

Happy Birthday RUE (14SEP)

congratulations, you made me hate you!

2008-09-10T19:00:00.002+08:00

STOP BEING SO THICK SKIN!

im sick and tired of the same thing you do!
stop asking me, as if i care! i dont! i really DON'T!

4bia

2008-09-09T21:15:00.002+08:00

hmm. we watched 4bia.
oh my god! damn scary la.
the footage's are extremly
disturbing!

EXCIDINGLY AND ACHINGLY
DISTURBING!!!

damnn! but i was laughing my ass off too!!
me and nik... oh my god.. kept hiding under
our jackets.. LOL! anyways, i screamed
excidingly loud.. and ppl were just laughing.
half way the show, cause to scary,
I NEEDED TO PEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
but i held my bladder cause i didnt want to miss a thing.

its a must watch la. very nicely shocking!
((:

rating for the show: 3.5 stars

lets drift on.

2008-09-09T13:58:00.006+08:00

going out to watch movie with nikki later..

but sadly, joes and rach cmi! bloooooody hell!

hmm..its crap.. gavin is a crap so is kevin!
boink them all you want, serious madness.

hmm. i wonder.. I REALLY WONDER ((:

looking outside the window, passing by

every streets, what i think bout you?

Sucha disappointment, nevertheless.

why should i bother bout your feelings,

when you treat US like junk? you throw

US into a coner when you have your other

friends. please man a junk like you, i dont even

wanna give a shit about. so take the initative to...

FUCK OFF!

love'em!

2008-09-08T22:23:00.012+08:00

had my bak kut teh at last.

than me and rach went walk walk

to kill time. so happen to step into this

korean shop. me and rach set eyes on

a vest. so we ask the aunty help us

chop two set, one grey and one black

duhh i have so many black clothes

so i took the grey one. NICE!!

rahhhhhh cant wait to collect it on the

20th. than me,rach, nik, joseph(maybe)

And some others might be going to

support Backbeat. not really. going out

for outings! yay! oh well imma beat

friend's record of 200 photo in a day!

imma cam-whore! I DONT CARE!!! ((:

photos of me and rachael.

there are some SHOCKING PIC again.

not as funny as the previous ones.

"seeeeeeeeeee!"

"YEAHHHHHH!"

"haha ooooooooooooohh..."

excidingly FAT!

my 2nd cam is fat! needa fix the first one!

damnnnn i miss my first cam! FUCK!

Bestfriends do the craziest things, and they are always there for you,

not to say things INDIRECTLY TO HURT YOU, not to GO AGAINST

YOU IN ALMOST EVERYTHING YOU DO. When your world submerge

into darkness, they are always at the other end shining a torch to light your

way. Thank you rachael for being there for me, literally everytime im in need,

always there to pick up my phone calls and reply my sms-es!

hi lovely!

than in the night i did some braclet for me rach and niks..!

yay! we'll be wearing it everywhere we go. ((:

hmm childish but i still love it ((: im going to handmake

their x'mas presents!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmm anyway today. i went out

with my other excidingly bestfriend

in teh world too! NIKKI CHAN SHI MIN!

hmm. had lotsa fun today.. was out with my

sis too! went to three playgrounds..killa man!

oh well. everything was fun.going out tmr again

gonna ask rach if she wants to come.

CAN'T WAIT FOR TEH 20TH OF SEP!

OOOOOOHHHHHH MAMA!

MAMACITA! I WANT MY VEST!

WOOOO-HOOOOO!

NIKKI AND RACHAEL ARE MY BESTEST FRIENDS IN TEH ENTIRE WORLD!

RAHHHHHHHHHHH... HUGS TO YOU TWO BIATCHES! WANNA KISS?? (IM NOT A LES!)